His back stiffened. He was doing a little chair gripping of his own. “Of course not, Lily! I missed you, and I finished what I was doing early, and I drove all afternoon to get back here. Then I saw you in that diner with the cop.”
“Were we kissing, Jack?”
“No.”
“Were we holding hands, Jack?”
“No.”
“Was I looking at him with love, Jack?”
“No.”
“Did he look happy, Jack?”
“No.” Jack bowed his head, rubbed his forehead with his fingertips.
“Let me tell you what happened the last time I went on a date with Chandler McAdoo, Jack.” I bent to his level until he had to look me in the eyes or be a coward. “It was seven years ago, the bad time, and I had been back in Bartley for two months. Chandler and I went to the movies, and then we drove out to the lake, like we’d done when we were kids.”
Jack’s hazel eyes didn’t flinch, and he was listening. I knew it.
“So when we were at the lake, Chandler wanted to kiss me, and I wanted to feel like a real woman again, so I let him. I even enjoyed it… a little. And then it went a little farther, and he pulled my T-shirt up. Want to know what happened then, Jack? Chandler started crying. The scars were real fresh then, red. He cried when he saw my body. And that’s the last I saw of Chandler for seven years.”
A heavy silence settled in the cold motel room.
“Pardon me,” Jack said finally. He was absolutely sincere, not mouthing a social catchall. “Pardon me.”
“Jack, you never believed I was sneaking behind your back.”
“I didn’t?” He looked a little angry and a little amused.
“You gave Varena her present before you even discussed last night with me,” I said. “You knew all along we weren’t… parting.” I had almost used the phrase “breaking up,” but it seemed too childish.
Abruptly, Jack’s face went absolutely still, as if he’d had a revelation of some kind.
He turned his eyes to me. “How could he cry?” Jack asked me. “You are so beautiful.”
I was still speechless, but for another reason. Jack had never said anything remotely like this.
“Don’t pity me,” I said softly.
“Lily, you said I never really doubted you. Now, I say, you know that pity is the last thing I feel for you.”
He lay with his chest to my back, one arm thrown around me. He was still awake, I could tell. I had another hour and a half, by my watch.
I didn’t want to think about Summer Dawn. I didn’t want to think about the dead people littering the path to her recovery.
I wanted to touch Jack. I wanted to twine my fingers in his hair. I wanted to understand his thoughts.
But he was a man with a job to do, and he wanted more than anything in the world to take Summer Dawn back to her parents. While he kept his arm around me and from time to time dropped a kiss on my neck, his thoughts had drifted away from me, and mine had to follow.
Reluctantly, I began to tell him what I’d found: the two memory books, one whole and one mutilated, in Anna Kingery’s room; the absence of the same book at Eve Osborn’s. I told him that Eve Osborn had been to the doctor recently, that I didn’t yet know about Anna. I told him about Anna’s mother… the woman we were assuming was Anna’s mother. And I pulled the plastic-wrapped brush and the birth photo of Anna out of my purse and placed them by Jack’s briefcase.
I rolled over to face him when I’d finished. I don’t know what he saw in my face, but he said, “Damn,” under his breath, and looked away from me.
“Have you learned anything?” I asked, to get that expression off his face.
“Like I said, my trip was pretty much of a washout,” he told me, but not as if he was upset about it. I guess private eyes encounter a lot of dead-end streets. “But early this morning, I wandered into the police station and took Chandler and a guy named Roger out for coffee and doughnuts. Since I used to be a cop, and they wanted to prove that small-town cops can be just as sharp as city cops, they were pretty forthcoming.”
I stroked his hair away from his face and nodded to show him I was listening. I didn’t want to tell him they’d have told him nothing if Chandler hadn’t checked up on him and talked to me about him.
“They told me the pipe recovered in the alley was definitely the one used to kill the doctor and his nurse,” Jack said. “And Christopher Sims’s fingerprints were nowhere on it. The pipe has a rusty surface, and some cloth had been run over it. Whoever tried to clean it didn’t do a good job. He left one partial. It doesn’t match Sims’s. He’s still in custody for the purse snatching, but I don’t think he’ll be charged with the murder any time soon.”
“Is he making sense?”
“Not a lot. He told the police he’d had a lot of visitors in his new home, which I gather means the alley behind the stores. That location in the alley is close to every father in this case. Jess O’Shea came to visit Sims as a minister, Emory works in Makepeace Furniture, which backs onto that alley, and Kingery’s pharmacy is a block away.”
“I noticed that.”
“Of course you did,” he said and bent to kiss me. My arms went around his neck, and the kiss lasted longer than he thought it was going to. “I want you again,” he told me, his voice low and rough.
“I noticed that, too.” I pressed against him gently. “But the wedding is tomorrow. Let me tell you about tonight. Since I’m going to baby-sit all the children-Eve, the baby, Krista, Luke, and Anna-at the O’Sheas’ house, maybe I can learn something from the children, or from being in that house.”
“Where are all the parents going?”
“To a dinner. It’s a couples thing, so I was glad to get out of it.”
“Who would they have paired you with?” Jack asked.
I realized for the first time that I was causing a hostess some seating problems. “I don’t know,” I admitted. “I guess that friend of Dill’s, Berry Duff.”
“Has he been by your folks’ much?”
“No, I think he went right home after the rehearsal dinner. He’ll come back into town today, if I remember right, and spend the night somewhere here in town. I guess here at the motel.”
“He admired you.”
“Sure, I’m everyone’s dream girl,” I said, hearing the sharp edge in my voice, unable to stop it.
“Did you like him?”
What the hell was this? “He’s nice enough,” I said.
“You could be with him,” he said. His light hazel eyes fixed on mine. He didn’t blink. “He wouldn’t drag you into things like this.”
“Hmmm,” I said thoughtfully, “Berry is awful cute… and he has his own farm. Varena was telling me how beautiful his house is. It’s part of the spring garden tour.”
For a second Jack’s face was a real picture. Then he pounced on me. He pinned me by the shoulders and scooted his body sideways until it lay over mine.
“Are you teasing me, house cleaner?”
“What do you think, detective?”
“I think I’ve got you where I want you,” he said, and his mouth descended.
“Jack,” I said after a moment, “I need to tell you something.”
“What?”
“Don’t ever hold me down.”
Jack rolled off instantly, his hands up in a surrender position.
“It’s just that you feel so good,” he said. “And… sometimes I think if I don’t weigh you down you’ll just drift away.” He looked off to the side, then back at me. “What the hell did that mean?” he asked, shaking his head at his own fancy.
I knew exactly what he meant.
“I have to go back to the house,” I said. “I’ll be at the O’Sheas’ from about five-thirty on.” I swung myself up
