But there was no game here.
He gazed down into Tammy’s eyes and saw something he’d never seen. She was gazing up at him with all the tenderness in the world. She was giving…
And he knew. If he lifted her triumphantly now and carried her up the wide staircase to his bedchamber she’d give herself with all the joy in her heart.
She’d give herself to him.
Dear God…
For a long time he gazed down into her eyes. She was looking back at him, a half-smile on her lips and her eyes wide and questioning. Teasing, almost… Waiting.
Waiting for commitment?
No. Waiting for whatever he was prepared to give, because the commitment was already there. He could read it in her eyes. They were shining up at him. Her lips were still slightly parted with an invitation that was almost irresistible. She was waiting.
All he had to do was gather her to him and she was his-for however long he wanted her.
He did want her, he thought with a desperate savagery. He wanted her more than he’d wanted anything in his life. But how could he take her and then put her away from him?
He couldn’t. If he took her now…
If he took her now he took her for ever. And he couldn’t do it.
He didn’t love.
Or maybe he did.
She was watching him, still with that faint questioning smile, as if she sensed that he was battling with himself. Maybe he knew that here was a woman who’d love him. Who’d give herself to him as she’d given herself to her little nephew. She’d dropped everything and come to the other side of the world. For love.
He had no right to accept a love like that. He was flawed. Hell, his whole damned family was flawed. This place-royalty-was a goldfish bowl. To bring a woman into it-a woman of such innocence-to bind her so that she could never leave…
That was what was being offered here, he thought. She was offering herself. She was offering the devotion his mother had given his father.
A devotion that destroyed.
‘I can’t.’
It was a groan, and the smile on Tammy’s face wavered and died.
‘You can’t?’
‘I can’t do this, Tammy,’ he told her. ‘I’m not… I don’t…’
What was he saying? Her brow furrowed, two tiny lines creasing between her eyes. ‘Marc, I’m not asking…’
‘You’re not asking anything,’ he said savagely. ‘You don’t. You give and you give and you give. Well, damn, I’m not taking. I’m not destroying this.’
‘I don’t know what you mean.’
‘You’re beautiful,’ he told her. Somehow he broke away and took two blind steps backward. ‘You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met. You’re wonderful to the core and I’m damned if I’m hauling you into this mess.’
She tilted her head to one side and the creases between her eyes stayed. ‘I’m sorry?’
‘Royalty.’
‘I think I already am embroiled in this mess,’ she said candidly. ‘Up to my eyebrows.’
‘And if I take you…? If you and I…?’
‘It wouldn’t just be you doing the taking,’ she said softly. ‘I’m a big girl, Your Highness, and I know what I want.’ The smile came back again-the teasing mischief that made his heart wrench within him. ‘I want you.’
How was he supposed to answer that? One way, his body screamed at him. One way. Lunge back and take her in his arms and carry her up…
No! He was so far out of control he didn’t know what he was doing. He didn’t. Hell, where was he supposed to take this?
He was doing harm. He was in danger of causing this bright innocence to be destroyed.
He had to get away.
‘I…I need to leave,’ he managed, and her smile died again.
‘Tomorrow?’
‘No.’ He closed his eyes, and when he opened them the way was clear to him. ‘I’m sorry, Tammy, I need to leave right now. Forgive me.’
‘But…’
‘I’m sorry,’ he said again, and wrenched away to open the door so suddenly that Dominic, standing not so innocently on the other side, nearly fell over. Marc didn’t even notice. ‘Give Miss Dexter her dinner,’ he told the butler. ‘I’m not eating here tonight. Look after Tammy for me, will you, Dominic?’
And without another word he took the stairs two at a time and disappeared.
How was a girl supposed to eat after that?
Tammy made a dreary figure, sitting in solitary state at the splendid dining table. Dominic served her in silence, all the time watching out of the corners of his wise old eyes but not saying a word. She was white-faced and silent herself, and he knew without being told that she didn’t require dessert or coffee. As he helped her to rise they heard the unmistakeable sound of Marc’s car disappearing down the long, long driveway.
If anything Tammy’s face grew even whiter, and Dominic placed his hand on her arm in an unconscious gesture of support.
‘Thank you.’ Her voice was bleak. ‘I’m…I’m sorry I’ve made a bad fist of dinner. It was delicious. Will you tell the kitchen staff…?’
‘That it was despite their cooking-not because of it-that you couldn’t eat,’ he said gently. ‘Yes, miss. We understand.’
‘Will he come back, do you think?’ she asked, and he turned to look at the disappearing lights of Marc’s car.
‘Not without your encouragement,’ he told her, and she blinked.
‘I don’t know what you mean.’
‘You don’t know how to encourage him? No, miss.’ He looked at her for a long minute and then sighed, unconsciously bracing. He needed to talk to this chit of a girl. It wasn’t his place, but maybe the future of the principality depended on it. ‘You understand he’s running scared?’
She stared. ‘I don’t understand.’
There was a long hesitation, as if Dominic was having second thoughts-which indeed he was-and then he shrugged. He liked this wan-faced girl. All the servants did. She’d been here only a couple of days, yet already the place was starting to feel like home-as it hadn’t for years.
‘What do you think would happen if Master Henry wasn’t here?’ he asked, and Tammy frowned.
‘Marc told me. He said the country would lose its royal family.’
Dominic shook his head. ‘That’s not quite true. The crown would pass to Prince Marc.’
Tammy frowned. ‘But…Marc said if Henry didn’t inherit then the monarchy would die.’
‘Only because Prince Marc would refuse to accept the crown. He feels he has no choice. He hates this family and everything it represents.’
The butler shrugged again, clearly deciding to go the whole way. This was no way for a butler to behave, but Dominic was much more than a butler. In Tammy he glimpsed salvation for his country, and if that involved indiscretion on his part then so be it.
‘Marc’s father had an affair with his uncle’s wife with disastrous consequences,’ he said softly. ‘His mother committed suicide because of it. Then there was a girl Marc was involved with. It was some years ago now, but Marc thought he was in love. Being third in line to the throne, he needed his uncle’s consent in order to marry, so he brought her here. Franz, the older of his two cousins, took one look and decided he’d have her for himself. The prospect of the crown was so enticing that Marc was summarily dumped.’
‘Oh, no.’
