The Deep Blue Alibi

Bobby's question came back to him. When was the last time he'd told Victoria he loved her?

I am such a fool.

Now, there's a dying thought for you.

Why hadn't he told Victoria how much he loved her? Why hadn't he told her every damn day?

Twenty-four

GIMLET-EYED

Victoria stood on the balcony of her suite at the Pier House, sipping a vodka gimlet. Just like you-knowwho. The Queen drank gimlets. In fact, she was quite particular about them.

'Always squeeze fresh limes, dear. Get your vitamin C with your vodka.'

Must have worked. Her mother never came down with scurvy.

It was nearly midnight. The TV trucks were gone from the parking lot, but they would be back. A cooling breeze fluttered from the Gulf, and Victoria was drinking alone. She wondered where her mother had gone. Uncle Grif, too. She hadn't seen either one since they stomped out of the suite, seconds after she accused them of being David and Bathsheba and causing her father's death.

In the hours since, Victoria hadn't left the room, except to stand at the balcony rail, watching a ribbon of clouds dance across the face of the moon. She'd called Junior and told him her suspicions. He seemed shocked and hurt, and in their mutual sorrow, she felt closer to him than ever before. Junior vowed he would talk to his father and demand to know the truth.

Was there some irony at work here? If her father hadn't committed suicide, she would most likely have become Mrs. Victoria Griffin. It's what all four parents had wanted. It's what she herself wanted, at least as an adolescent. So, if her mother's affair led to her father's suicide, which led to the shame and guilt that sent Uncle Grif globe-trotting. . well, weren't the illicit lovers to blame for laying waste to her fated marriage, too? The domino effect of fate.

It was all too much to contemplate, and definitely called for another gimlet.

Seconds passed. Or minutes. Or an eternity.

If I'm dead, Steve thought, would I feel the passage of time?

It was dark and wet and cold.

Something tugged at Steve, and then he was moving.

Or was he still and everything around him was moving? He couldn't tell.

There was the slushing sound of gushing water. Something click- clacked and tapped him in the chest. Or maybe not.

He tasted salt water and choked and coughed. A thin beam of light cut through the darkness, a slice of an eerily beautiful moon.

Where the hell am I?

Then darkness again.

Victoria went back inside, but left the balcony door open to feel the breeze and catch the pale moonbeams.

Earlier, she had scanned the room service menu, decided she wasn't hungry, then raided the mini-bar for the third time. Two little bags of pretzels, a bottle of Rose's sweetened lime juice-Sorry, Mother- and a bunch of miniature Belvedere vodkas. Now the bottles were lined up like Lilliputian bowling pins on the conference table where the State v. Griffin files were stacked. The bottles were empty, the files unopened and unread.

'What kind of a lawyer are you?'

Steve's question echoed in her brain. A lousy lawyer. Maybe a lousy daughter, too. She could be wrong about her mother and Uncle Grif. She wasn't thinking clearly. Her lips were vodka numb and the moon in the night sky kept disappearing. Either clouds were scudding by, or she was woozy. Or both.

She wondered if Steve, driving down the Overseas Highway, was looking at the same moon. Then she giggled.

He can't be looking at a different moon.

She hoped he wasn't consuming alcohol at the rate she'd been.

At the poolside bar, below her balcony, a band was playing Jimmy Buffett. Something about a big pile of work and the boss is a jerk. If Steve were here, he'd want to go down to the bar and sing along. She wondered if he'd been telling the truth about fishing with Jimmy Buffett. With Steve, you never knew.

She thought back to the day Uncle Grif's boat crashed onto the beach. The day she'd told Steve she wanted to fly solo. Meaning professionally. At least, that's what she had said.

Who's kidding who? Or whom? Or whatever?

The realization hit her along with the ocean breeze. She'd lied to Steve and to herself. She'd been cowardly. What she really wanted was to break up the relationship. Dump Steve. That had to be it, right?

Yes, dammit. I should have followed my gut instincts from the start. And I should have listened to The Queen.

Hadn't her mother-Bathsheba Lord-been right about Steve, even if she'd put it rather badly?

'Leave it to you, dear, to find a Jewish man who's not a good provider.'

But it wasn't the material success or lack therof that so aggravated Victoria. It was the fact that Steve was so-what's the damn word? Could she ferret out the damn word through a four-gimlet haze?

Unconventional. Undignified. Unruly. Unpredictable. And a bunch of other un-words she couldn't quite grasp just now. Unsuitable. That's it!

One of The Queen's words. Growing up, how many times had she heard her mother say about one boyfriend or another: 'He seems a nice enough boy. But unsuitable for you, Princess.'

Steve was fun and challenging and a great lover. And aggravating and overbearing and. . clearly unsuitable. How could she even think of him as a forever-and-ever mate? No, she needed to break up with him. But how to do it, what to say?

For some reason-maybe because she was just a few blocks from Ernest Hemingway's house or maybe because she studied American Lit at Princeton-she thought of Agnes something-or-other, the nurse who tended to Hemingway's wounds in France. When Agnes broke off their affair, she'd written him, saying they must have been in love, because they argued so much.

Maybe she should write Steve a letter.

No. That's stupid. I'll see him tomorrow and tell him then. 'You're wonderful. But unsuitable.'

Then she remembered something else. After Agnes broke up with Hemingway, she married a wealthy Italian. A count or something. And just now Victoria had reconnected with Junior.

No, this has nothing to do with Junior.

She told herself she was going to stay away from him, too. Truly fly solo for a while, at least until she got her bearings. Then she wondered if that was true.

The band struck up another Buffett number, 'Trying to Reason with Hurricane Season,' and Victoria wondered if she should close the balcony door and batten the hatches. Instead, she opened the mini-bar and pulled out another little bottle of vodka.

'Are you cold, Uncle Steve?'

'Mmm.'

' 'Cause you're shivering.'

Steve tried to lift his head, heavy as a bucket of concrete. 'Ooh.'

It was dark, but he could see the faint crescent of moon peeking in and out of a passing cloud. He was lying on his back. The air was sticky with salt, moist and primordial. Water splashed softly against a sandy shore. In the