her. He did not say anything.
Nancy introduced Fletch as “a friend.”
Looking down at Fletch’s shorts, Robert asked, “Are you a Quaker?”
“What? No.”
Robert’s ankle-length white robe was belted by a length of black rope. He wore sandals. He was scrawny and balding. His beard looked like it had been struck by a plague of locusts.
His eyes went from the dull, inward-directed to a more lively substitute for verbal communication.
Following them across the courtyard, Nancy said, “I have five children now, Robert. Tom still teaches at the university, but he’s becoming quite well known as a poet. Mother is still at the Agnes Whitaker Home. Physically, she’s quite well. We see her often.”
Robert sat on the bench, and looked up at them with happy eyes.
Nancy sat beside him.
Fletch sat cross-legged on the ground-stone path in front of them.
“Robert, I have something difficult to tell you.” Contrary to everything she had said, Nancy then began to weep. “Father is dead.” She sobbed. “He was murdered, shot to death, yesterday, in a parking lot.”
Robert said nothing. His eyes became inward-directed. He did not look at, reach out a hand to, touch his sister in any way. He offered her neither sympathy nor empathy.
Desperate to collect herself, Nancy wiped her eyes with the hem of her heavy skirt.
Finally Robert sighed. “So.”
“I don’t know what’s happening about the funeral,” Nancy said. “Jasmine… the partners… Robert, will you come to the funeral?”
“No.” He put his hand on the bench and looked around the small courtyard as if he wanted to get up and go away. “Here we are used to death… the flowers… the farm animals…. It comes to us here. We need not go out to it.”
Fletch asked, “Do you ever get to leave here?”
“Who would want to?”
“Do you ever leave here?”
“Sometimes I go in the truck, to the markets. In the station wagon, to the dentist.”
“Do you ever go alone?”
“I am never alone. I carry the Savior with me in my heart.”
Nancy put her hand on Robert’s hand. “No matter what we thought of him, Robert, it’s a shock, it’s hard to take, that he was murdered. That someone actually took a gun, and ended his life with it. Stood before him. Shot him.”
“Ah, The Great Presumption,” Robert said, clearly speaking in capitals. “Why do people keep making The Great Presumption, that we each have the right, moral and legal, to die a natural death? When so many, many of us die by accident, violence, wars, pestilence, famine….”
Nancy glanced at Robert, then looked at Fletch. She moved her hand.
“Well…” Fletch said, “your father died of violence.”
“Murder makes it seem that someone has corrected God.” Robert smiled. “We must believe someone has. But, no. One cannot really correct that which is perfect.”
Nancy straightened the hem of her skirt over her knees with shaking hands.
“Robert,” Fletch said, “the story is that yesterday morning, your father went to the
Robert looked interested.
“Furthermore,” Fletch continued, “your father told the curator at the museum that he intended to give the rest of his wealth to a monastery, which he intended to enter, to join.”
At first, Robert raised his eyebrows and stared at Fletch.
Then his jaws tightened. He squeezed his eyes shut. Elbows on his knees, hands clutching each other, Robert lowered his head.
Nancy and Fletch glanced at each other.
Finally, Fletch asked, “Are you angry?”
“That man,” Robert said through clenched teeth.
Fletch asked, “Was he possibly trying to come to you? His son?”
Looking at Fletch, Nancy’s eyes popped.
Robert said, “That man.”
Fletch asked, “Do you believe any of what I’ve just told you?”
For a long moment, Robert sat on the bench silently, apparently holding himself together with effort. He breathed deeply through his nose. “Impossible,” he said. His breathing became easier. “Nancy wrote me that my father, after disposing of my mother, institutionalizing her, took a second wife….”
“Jasmine,” Nancy said.
Robert’s eyes opened. Much of the strain left his face. “I don’t suppose she’s dead?”
“No,” Nancy answered.
“One may not divorce a wife,” Robert said, as if elucidating a fine point of law, “for the sake of entering a monastery.”
Fletch said, “Oh.”
“So all this is not true,” Robert said. “Like the rest of my father’s life. It is some complicated lie. Even if he were free, months, if not years, of prayerful instruction and reflection would be required.”
Fletch looked down at the ground stone between his folded legs. “He had perhaps more than another million dollars to donate to a monastery.”
Looking at Fletch, Robert said nothing.
Fletch turned the question. “Robert, you must believe in redemption. Is it totally inconceivable to you that your father could make such a change in his life at the age of sixty, sixty-one?”
“My father,” Robert said with difficulty. “My father spent his life shortcutting the law. In fact, short-circuiting it. There is no shortcut to eternal paradise. One cannot short-circuit the laws of God.”
Nancy uttered a short laugh. “Robert. You sound so unforgiving.”
Finally, Robert turned to his sister. “And are you forgiving?”
“No,” she said. “Not of what he did to Mother.”
“One never knows,” Robert said. “Perhaps the man died within the grace of God. I sincerely doubt it.”
Fletch had the impression Robert did not want his father’s company either in the monastery, or in paradise.
“What he did to Mother,” Robert said. “What he did to all of us.”
“What did he do to you?” Fletch asked.
Robert’s eyes became as inflamed as the subject’s of an El Greco portrait. “He taught us the one thing that must not be taught children, that must not be taught society: that one can commit evil with impunity, if one lies about it successfully.” Robert’s voice rose. “And do you expect that a person with such a philosophy, such a practice, can ever come to God?” His voice lowered, but his hands, even his shoulders shook. “I am spending all my adult life trying to separate myself from such a wicked belief. It is the one belief which can destroy society. It is the one belief which can corrupt irretrievably a person’s soul.” Trying to smile at Fletch, Robert asked, “And do you believe a person with such a mind-set could confess, with honesty, and come to God?”
Fletch felt he ought not answer.
Robert modulated his voice. “What he did to us that is unforgivable is that he corrupted us beyond belief.”
Fletch stood up from the ground-stone path.
Robert spoke, looking at his callused fingers. “It doesn’t matter who killed him. We are all murdered by life, by our own way of life, by how we live. Of course he died a violent death. His life condoned, encouraged violence. We are all victims of ourselves.” Nancy was standing up, too. “All that matters is that he died in God’s grace.
