How do you know these things?’
Four years in jail, Emma le Roux, is a lot of time on your hands.
‘I’ve read a bit.’
‘A bit? What do you read?’
‘Non-fiction.’
‘Such as?’
‘Anything.’
‘Come on. Tell me about something you’ve read recently.’
I thought for a while. ‘Did you know that the history of South Africa was determined by grass seed?’
She raised an eyebrow, the corners of her mouth twitched. ‘No.’
‘It’s true. Two thousand years ago there were only Khoi and San people here. They were nomads, not farmers. Then the Bantu people came down from East Africa with cattle and sorghum and they pushed out the Khoi and the San people to the western half of South Africa. Why there? Because the sorghum seed was a summer crop and the western parts are winter rainfall areas. That’s why the Xhosa never settled farther than the Fish River. They needed summer rain. Four hundred years ago the Europeans arrived at the Cape with winter cereals. The Khoi couldn’t stop them; the difference in technology was too great. Think about it: if the Xhosa and Zulu had winter grains, how different the history would have been, how difficult it would have been for the Dutch to establish a halfway station at the Cape.’
‘Astonishing.’
‘It is.’
‘Where did you read that?’
‘A book. Popular science.’
‘And the language thing?’
‘What about it?’
‘You said you were a
‘Yes. Sort of.’
‘And?’
‘Well, take Susan, for instance. She knew we were Afrikaans. She could tell from your name and surname. She could hear your accent. But she speaks English to us. Why?’
‘Tell me.’
‘Because she works with foreigners mostly and she doesn’t want them to know she’s an Afrikaans girl. There’s too much baggage. She wants the tourists to like her, to think she’s cute. She doesn’t want to be judged and labelled by her language and its history.’
‘She doesn’t like the positioning of Afrikaans as a brand.’
‘That’s it, exactly. What I don’t understand is why she … why we all don’t do something about that position. The solution is not to hide away. The solution is to change the perception of the brand.’
‘Is that possible?’
‘Isn’t that what you do?’
‘It is, but a language is a little more complex than ketchup.’
‘The difference is that everyone who cares about the ketchup will work together to change the perception. The boere simply won’t do that.’
Emma laughed. ‘That’s true.’
The waiter brought the bottle of Merlot, a bottle of grape juice and two extra glasses. He started to pour, but Emma said thank you, she would do it herself. She slid an extra wineglass over to me. ‘Just try one mouthful,’ she said. ‘A tiny bit, then tell me truthfully that it doesn’t taste good.’
She poured for me. I took the glass.
‘Wait,’ she said. ‘First breathe it in.’ She poured herself half a glass, turned it in her hand and held it under her nose. I did the same. There were pleasant aromas, but there was also something else.
‘What do you smell?’ she asked.
How could I tell her? That my past was locked away in the smell of wine, memories of where I came from, who I am.
I shrugged.
‘Come on, Lemmer, be objective. Can you smell the cloves? The berries? It’s subtle, I know, but it’s there.’
‘It’s there,’ I lied.
‘Good. Now taste it.’ Then she took a sip, rolled the wine around in her mouth, looked at me in expectation. I swigged some wine. It had a dark flavour, like the smoke of a smouldering fire. She swallowed. ‘Now tell me it tastes bad.’
I swallowed. ‘It tastes bad.’
She laughed again. ‘Truly, Lemmer? Truly?’
‘Taste the grape juice. Objectively and honestly.’ I poured into the spare glasses. ‘You don’t even have to smell it. Just taste.’
‘OK,’ she said with an amused smile, and we drank.
‘Crisp,’ I said. ‘Taste the subtle fruit flavour, unmistakably grape. Young, refreshing, pure
She laughed. I liked that.
‘Feel the way the bubbles dance on your tongue, tiny explosions of ecstatic, undisguised honesty, stripped of all pretension. This noble liquid need not pretend, need not ride on the back of eight thousand years of brand positioning. It is here, unadulterated juice, immediately delicious, pure drinking pleasure.’
She laughed loudly, nearly choking, her eyes shut and her pretty mouth open. The other diners’ heads turned towards the happy notes, and they couldn’t resist smiling. Lightning flashed outside the windows, thunder crashed close by, rumbling and rolling from north to south like a runaway locomotive.
Just before we ordered dessert, I inexplicably said on the spur of the moment, ‘My friend who phoned, at the airport …’
‘Antjie,’ Emma replied with a mischievous twinkle. Her memory surprised me.
‘She’s nearly seventy years old.’
‘Wonderful,’ said Emma. I wished I knew what she meant by that.
* * *
She was tipsy when we left the restaurant. She held on to my arm. It was raining outside, a thick curtain of fat storm drops. I hovered on the threshold. She pulled off her sandals and took my arm again. ‘Let’s go.’ We went outside and were immediately drenched. The rain was warm and the air not cool yet. Her hand held me back so we didn’t walk fast. I watched her. She had turned her face up to the rain, eyes shut, and the running water turned her mascara into black tears. She let me lead her like a blind person. The white dress clung. I saw the curves of her body. Water streamed over my face, over my eyes. The rain rattled on the path, in the trees, and on the thatched roofs. It was the only sound in the night.
At the Bateleur suite she dropped my arm, threw her sandals in an arc on to the veranda and stayed out in the rain. I went under the roof, unlocked the door, sat down on one of the chairs and pulled off my socks and shoes. She stood out there with her face upturned and arms stretched to the sky. Accepting the invitation, the rain increased in intensity, and the streams of water shone in the light of the veranda.
Then lightning flashed brilliantly and thunder crashed deaf-eningly close. She shouted something and with a bright laugh dashed up the steps past me and through the door.
I pulled off my shirt, draped it over the arm of a chair. Turned my shoes over so the water could drain and hung up my socks beside the shirt.
I walked in through the sliding door, pulled it shut behind me and locked it. The sitting room was dark, lit only by a beam of light from her room. I thought of a shower, took one step forward, and saw the reflection in the glass of the picture on the wall.
Emma.
She had undressed. She stood beside the double bed, leaning forward with the white towel in her hair.
