Apart from ridges where they should have been smooth, Oliver's ribs had healed remarkably well and gave him little pain. His left shoulder was still weak but much improved from its first stiffness. It was the blow to his forearm that had caused irreparable damage. De Mohun's blade had crushed and cut sinew, tendon and bone. Not even the best chirurgeon in the land could have mended such injuries. He had some feeling and restricted movement, but the only shields he could grip were the small, light ones used to train the youngest squires, and then for no longer than a few minutes at a time. Catrin assured him that he would improve as the weeks went by, but they both knew that he would never have the whole use of that arm again. The way of his making in the world could no longer be the way of a soldier.
'You stay with Prince Henry and your fortune will be made, Godard said, with a knowing nod. 'Mark me, you'll be a lord high sheriff before you're done.
Oliver laughed and shook his head. He knew what was and what was not possible.
Squashed against Oliver at the trestle, Catrin observed the humour in his eyes and was relieved to see him in good spirits. There were often difficult days when he became so frustrated and furious with his disability that he was impossible to reach. What had been a sound, strong limb was now disfigured and impaired. She had watched him struggle and fail at the simplest tasks, such as fastening a belt buckle, and had bitten her tongue and stood back. Time would heal and practice would compensate. It was only three months; he expected too much and was impervious to the voice of reason.
She thought perhaps Godard was not so wrong in his light comment about 'lord high sheriff though. If Oliver's other faculties could be channelled, there was every opportunity for advancement in Prince Henry's household.
Catching her thoughtful stare, he raised his eyebrows. 'Brewing potions in your mind? he asked.
Catrin pressed lightly against him. 'Several. She darted him a provocative look through her lashes.
'Such as? His mouth curved in a smile.
Catrin nibbled her forefinger and pretended to consider. 'Well, some are private, she said. 'But I will tell you that you should not belittle your abilities. Prince Henry thinks highly of you.
'His 'pet Saxon'. Oliver's smile became wry.
'But you must have done something to earn that title and then keep it, Catrin said earnestly. 'The Prince bedevilled me every day of your illness demanding to know if you were improving. It is more than a boy's passing whim that commands you across the Narrow Sea in his service; you are a firm part of his household.
'Every prince needs his fool, Oliver said.
Catrin clucked her tongue impatiently. 'It is your arm that is damaged, not your wits, or so I hope to think, she snapped. 'Why do you think Earl Robert gave his support and blessing to your place in Henry's household? If you answer 'out of guilt' or 'to be rid of me', I will hit you.
Oliver tilted his head. 'My place in Henry's household was granted before I was wounded. The Earl is honouring a promise and a debt. No! he added with a grin as her lips tightened and she grabbed a loaf off the table to threaten him, 'hear me out. It also suits him to have one of his own knights in Henry's retinue among all those Angevin lords.
Catrin shook her head. There was a gleam in his eyes and she had a strong suspicion that she was being tugged along on a string. Perhaps she should still hit him. At least his answer revealed that his wits were indeed still keen and that this was not a 'difficult' day. 'Well then, it behoves you to make the utmost of that position, she said, replacing the loaf and folding her hands in her lap to avoid temptation.
'I suppose it does, he agreed gravely, and held out his cup to be refilled as a fresh pitcher of ale was brought round and another toast was raised to the bride and groom. 'But not with a sword.
'Any noble or knight can use a sword and still be no more than a brigand or a knave, she said contemptuously. 'I need only to remember Louis to know that. She watched him raise the cup in his good hand and swallow. The motion of his throat, the taut skin across his cheekbones, the hint of copper at his jawline flooded her with an emotion so strong that it stung her eyes. She laid her hand over his damaged one. 'I have pride in you, and faith that you will not trample on that pride.
'Did you not have faith in Louis when you went with him?
There was no hostility in the question, but there was a demand to know and the residue of pain. Her decision at Rochester was a subject they had avoided, but it had neither gone away nor even begun to fade.
'No, Catrin said slowly and felt the red heat of chagrin creep into her face. 'I was bedazzled by his charm into believing that he had changed. If my faith in him was shaky at the foundations, it was underpinned by my guilt. I did not wait for him or mourn him as I should. I gave myself to another man. I owed him my duty and obedience.
'After he left you to think that he was dead? An incredulous note entered Oliver's voice.
'He knew how to twist and turn me inside out, she said defensively. 'His excuses were never plausible, but the way he told them was convincing. I was still his wife… or so I thought, she added with a grimace. 'I'm tenfold the wiser now.
Oliver said nothing, his hand passive under hers. She could not tell from his expression what he was thinking, whether her reply had satisfied him or left him doubting and unsure. Her own feelings were certainly of the latter persuasion. 'Oliver, if you…' she started to say, but got no further as his attention was claimed by Godard and one of the other guests, a male relative of the bride.
Catrin put a smile on her face for courtesy's sake, but suddenly she could not bear the banter, the red, sweating faces, the smelly, smoky fug. Making the valid excuse that she had to go and check upon Rosamund, she squeezed out of her place on the trestle and left the feast.
Edith's alehouse was built in the traditional style of most village cots, with a framework of thick oak branches supporting a long house of two rooms with a sleeping loft above. The first room, the alehouse, was the larger. The second usually held stores and livestock, but these had been moved out to a daub and wattle shed to make room for guests intending to spend the night. The floor was thickly strewn with hay. Hurdles of woven willow, normally used to separate the animals, made narrow bays which afforded a modicum of privacy.
Catrin had wrapped Rosamund in blankets and placed her near the entrance in a manger full of the fragrant hay. She was awake and rewarded her mother with a smile in which the very edges of two white teeth were starting to show in the gum. The baby crowed and shouted, demanding to be picked up. Catrin sat on the milking stool beside the manger and spent a pleasant moment dandling her daughter on her knee. It would not be long before Rosamund was sitting up. The little hands were constantly reaching for things and the bright, dark eyes focused and followed with tenacity.
Oliver and Rosamund had been wary of each other at first. In the beginning, the baby had shown a marked dislike of any male voice. It was small wonder when her father had spent so much of his time shouting at Catrin; but gradually Rosamund's anxiety had lessened. She would even coo and gurgle for Oliver now and hold up her hands to be picked up. Oliver, in his turn, had needed to overcome a masculine fear of so tiny a being together with the more personal reluctance springing from the death of his first wife and child.
'It was a girl she bore, dark of hair and eye, but cold and still, he had said, looking down at Rosamund's small form cradled in his good arm. There had been a moist glitter in his eyes. 'It brings the past to breathe on me. She could have been mine.
'She is, Catrin had answered, swallowing tears and embracing him.
Since then, Oliver and Rosamund had grown more comfortable with each other. 'As comfortable as men and women ever are with the other's company, Catrin now said to her daughter, as she unfastened her gown to feed her. 'I don't know what he's thinking unless he tells me, and I'm not even sure that I want to know.
Rosamund's only response was to cover Catrin's nipple with a hungry gulp. 'Your father could not be still for a moment, she murmured to the sucking infant. 'If there was silence he had to chatter like a magpie — anything so that he would not have to stop and look within himself. She stroked
Rosamund's fine cap of silky black hair. 'Your new father broods too much, I think, she said gently.
'But then you could always cozen me out of a dark mood, Oliver said from the doorway. He was leaning against one of the supports, watching her.
Catrin gasped and turned round. 'How long have you been standing there? she asked indignantly.
He smiled. 'Long enough to admire the view. He sauntered forward, his gaze on her exposed bosom. 'If you cannot tell my thoughts, Catrin love, then there is no hope for you.
'I can tell the thoughts of your body, she answered, her colour high. 'It is your mind that eludes me.
