“You’re not?” I had no idea where Lizzy came from or how she ended up wrapped in Terry’s arms. I was curious.
“I’m from Ohio. I traveled with some friends to a Damaged concert in Pennsylvania.”
“Oh,” I said and took an apple from her hand that she was holding out for me. Her green eyes glowed against the fluorescent lights of the building.
“I’m not a groupie.” She looked down at her apple, picking at the sticker on it.
“Of course not,” I said, trying to reassure her that I was not judging her. I had been judged enough to know that it doesn’t feel good.
“He says he loves me.” She tucked her hair behind her ear and gave me a big toothy grin.
“I’d like to hear all about it. How you met and all,” I said as we began to walk toward another set of halls.
“I snuck backstage after the concert.”
I stopped walking, and she turned around to look at me.
“Does that happen a lot? People sneaking backstage to see the bands?”
“Well, yeah. You gotta do what you gotta do, right?” She smiled again. I began to walk with her, wishing I hadn’t asked to hear this story. “So, anyway, I didn’t have my mind set on anyone in particular. I was willing to take what I could get.”
I felt like my lungs would explode if my breathing accelerated any more.
“The girls were rough that night. I mean, you would not believe what some girls see as concert attire. I wouldn’t walk around my apartment in those kinds of clothes.” She rolled her eyes, and we turned another corner, making our way down another hallway. We could faintly hear the screaming of the crowd on the other side of the wall.
“I worked my way through security and made it to the after-party.”
“After-party?” I wasn’t sure I wanted to know, but my curiosity was getting the best of me.
“Yeah, there is always an after-party. You will see tonight. It is wild.” She giggled and tossed her hair over her shoulder. “Anyway, I met Terry, and we talked for hours. I mean, he held my hair when I puked. I knew he was a keeper.”
Well, if that wasn’t love, I didn’t know what was. I tried to keep my look of disgust off my face. A loud booming like thunder felt like it was shaking the walls.
“What is that?” I asked, looking up and down the hallway.
“That’s Filth. Aren’t they amazing?” she asked, her eyes twinkling again. I suddenly worried for Terry and how long this girl was planning to stick around. She seemed nice, but hardly the marrying type. For all I knew Terry had said he loved her just to get a little company. It wasn’t my place to pry.
“So . . . how long have you been with Damaged?”
She looked deep in thought as she tried to figure it out.
“Two . . . no . . . three weeks.” She looped her arm in mine again and tossed her apple core into a trash can. I hadn’t even begun to eat mine, but I had no appetite. I tossed mine in behind hers.
We passed through a set of double doors. On the other side stood a giant, burly man blocking the way.
“Hey, Trig. Can we watch?” She was on a first-name basis with the security? She was good. He smiled and stepped aside so we could see the stage from the left-hand side. The music was bone-rattling loud, but the band sounded amazing. The lead singer was a female, and she definitely held her own.
“What’s the story with you and Tuck?” she yelled into my ear. It didn’t get by me that she had referred to him as Tuck, as if they went way back. I wondered how well they actually knew each other.
“It’s complicated,” I yelled back, not taking my eyes off the stage.
“It always is.” She laughed and the crowd roared as the song ended and the band began to play again.
We didn’t talk through the next few songs. Lizzy screamed and called out the name Derek, and I wondered if she knew him personally like she knew Terry. My mind went back to Tucker. The thought made my stomach twist into horrible knots as I tried my best to push the idea out of my head. Tucker had never given me any reason to think he was like that. Still, I left him, not the other way around. During our time apart, he had been free to do whatever . . . or whomever he wanted. Faced with the reality that women like Lizzy had been—and would continue to be—all too willing to throw themselves at him night after night, I suddenly felt like I was going to be sick.
“You all right?” Lizzy leaned in closer to me, engulfing me in her flowery scent.
“I’m fine.”
“You are pale. Let’s get you some water.” She waved the security guard away, and he stepped to the side to let us back through the double doors. As they closed behind us, the muffling of the band helped immensely.
“I think I just need to cool off.” I gave her a weak smile, grateful that she was concerned, that she seemed to be looking out for me. It was a nice feeling, and a sadly unfamiliar one. Maybe I’d been too quick to judge. If Terry liked her, she couldn’t be that bad. We began walking back through the maze of hallways and ended up at the table of snacks.
“How do you know your way around here so well?” I grabbed a bottle of water from the table and drank half of the contents. I felt better instantly.
“I have a really good memory.” She laughed.
“Can I ask you a question?”
She cocked her head to the side, waiting for me to ask.
“How do you tell the twins apart?”
She laughed hard, taking the bottle of water from my hand and finishing it off.
“All right. I’ll tell you my secret, but you can’t tell anyone else. Not even the twins.”
I nodded, agreeing not to tell a soul. She leaned in closer so no one would overhear us.
“Terry has a freckle right below his right ear. Once I noticed, it stood out like a sore thumb.” She laughed. “There are other things, once you get to know them. Terry is sweet and calm, Chris is more of a wild card, always joking and being loud. Chris wears a giant thumb ring on his left hand with this big old gaudy blue stone in it. He calls it his good luck charm.”
I smiled at her as she became more animated as she told me all of the things she learned about the twins. It dawned on me that if she’d been with Damaged for the past few weeks, I was likely the first female she’d probably had the chance to talk to for a while; she hadn’t mentioned any other groupies who had joined the tour. It must be exhausting putting up with these guys day and night. I’d imagined Dorris, the band’s manager and Tucker’s adopted mother, was not any kind of friendly comfort. I suddenly wondered where she was.
“What about the rest of the guys?”
“Umm . . . well, E is very intense. He parties hard but never really looks happy, ya know? He’s a closed book.”
“. . . and Tucker?” I braced myself for her answer.
“You know Tucker.” She laughed and playfully nudged me.
“Yeah,” I replied shyly.
Lizzy pushed open the door to our left and we were back where we started. The guys all looked up from their places. They were no longer playing and looked to be in the middle of a heated discussion. The silence was worse than standing next to the stage as Filth played. Tucker stood and came to my side, kissing me on the cheek.
“Having fun?” he asked with a smile.
“Awesome!” I smiled.
“We had a great time. Lots of girl talk,” Lizzy chimed in as she bounced her way over to Terry and sat down on his lap.
“Yes, girl talk,” I agreed, and gave him a small playful smile.
The door opened and an older man stuck his head in.
“You’re on in five, guys.” He nodded to the band and closed the door behind him.
Tucker sighed and motioned for the other members.
“Let’s go kick some ass.” The others stood and made their way to the door. Tucker gave me a kiss on the lips, lingering for a moment.
“I’ve missed you.” His forehead fell against mine, and for a second we were the only ones on the planet.
