A Civil Campaign

'Poor boys. I almost feel sorry for them.'

Ekaterin smiled briefly. She could feel the pull of that sympathy, like a clutching hand, drawing her back into the dark. It made her skin crawl.

Every night now, lying down alone without Tien, was like a taste of some solitary heaven. She could stretch her arms and legs out all the way to the sides of the bed, reveling in the smooth space, free of compromise, confusion, oppression, negotiation, deference, placation. Free of Tien. Through the long years of their marriage she had become almost numb to the ties that had bound her to him, the promises and the fear, his desperate needs, his secrets and lies. When the straps of her vows had been released at last by his death, it was as if her whole soul had come awake, tingling painfully, like a limb when circulation was restored. I did not know what a prison I was in, till I was freed. The thought of voluntarily walking back into such a marital cell again, and locking the door with another oath, made her want to run screaming.

She shook her head. 'I don't need another dependent.'

Her aunt's brows quirked. 'You don't need another Tien, that's certain. But not all men are like Tien.'

Ekaterin's fist tightened, thoughtfully. 'But I'm still like me. I don't know if I can be intimate, and not fall back into the bad old ways. Not give myself away down to the very bottom, and then complain I'm empty. The most horrible thought I have, looking back on it all, is that it wasn't all Tien's fault. I let him get worse and worse. If he'd chanced to marry a woman who would have stood up to him, who would have insisted . . .'

'Your line of logic makes my head ache,' her aunt observed mildly.

Ekaterin shrugged. 'It's all moot now.'

After a long moment of silence, the Professora asked curiously, 'So what do you think of Miles Vorkosigan?'

'He's all right. He doesn't make me cringe.'

'I thought—back on Komarr—he seemed a bit interested in you himself.'

'Oh, that was just a joke,' Ekaterin said sturdily. Their joke had gone a little beyond the line, perhaps, but they had both been tired, and punchy at their release from those days and hours of fearsome strain . . . his flashing smile, and the brilliant eyes in his weary face, blazed in her memory. It had to have been a joke. Because if it weren't a joke . . . she would have to run screaming. And she was much too tired to get up. 'But it's been nice to find someone genuinely interested in gardens.'

'Mmm,' said her aunt, and turned over another essay.

* * *

The afternoon sun of the Vorbarr Sultana spring warmed the gray stone of Vorkosigan House into something almost mellow, as Mark's hired groundcar turned in to the drive. The ImpSec gate guard at the kiosk was not one of the men Mark had met last year. The guard was respectful but meticulous, going as far as checking Mark's palm print and retina scan before waving them through with a mumbled grunt that might have been an apologetic 'M'lord.' Mark stared up through the car's canopy as they wound up the drive to the front portico.

Vorkosigan House again. Home? His cozy student apartment back on Beta Colony seemed more like home now than did this vast stone pile. But although he was hungry, horny, tired, tense, and jump-lagged, at least he wasn't throwing up in a paroxysm of anticipated terror this time. It was just Vorkosigan House. He could handle it. And as soon as he got inside, he could call Kareen, yes! He released the canopy the instant the car sighed to the pavement, and turned to help Enrique unload.

Mark's feet had barely hit the concrete when Armsman Pym popped out of the front doors, and gave him a snappy, yet somehow reproachful, salute. 'My Lord Mark! You should have called us from the shuttleport, m'lord. We'd have picked you up properly.'

'That's all right, Pym. I don't think all our gear would have fit in the armored car anyway. Don't worry, there's still plenty for you to do.' The hired freight van which had followed them from the shuttleport cleared the gate guard and chuffed up the drive to wheeze to a halt behind them.

'Holy saints,' murmured Enrique out of the corner of his mouth, as Mark hurried to help him hoist the DELICATE crate, which had ridden between them in the ground car, out to the pavement. 'You really are Lord Vorkosigan. I'm not sure I totally believed you, till now.'

'I really am Lord Mark ,' Mark corrected this. 'Get it straight. It matters, here. I am not now, nor do I ever aspire to be, the heir to the Countship.' Mark nodded toward the new short figure exiting the mansion through the carved double doors, now swung welcoming-wide. 'He's Lord Vorkosigan.'

Miles didn't look half-bad, despite the peculiar rumors about his health which had leaked back to Beta Colony. Someone had taken a hand in improving his civilian wardrobe, judging by the sharp gray suit he wore, and he filled it properly, not so sickly-thin as he'd still been when Mark had last seen him here almost a year ago. He advanced on Mark with a grin, his hand held out. They managed to exchange a firm, brotherly handshake. Mark was desperate for a hug, but not from Miles.

'Mark, dammit, you took us by surprise. You're supposed to call from orbit when you get in. Pym would have been there to pick you up.'

'So I've been advised.'

Miles stood back and looked him over, and Mark flushed in self- consciousness. The meds Lilly Durona had given him had permitted him to piss away more fat in less time than was humanly natural, and he'd stuck religiously to the strict regimen of diet and liquids to combat the corrosive side effects. She'd said the drug-complex wasn't addictive, and Mark believed her; he couldn't wait to get off the loathsome stuff. He now weighed very little more than when he'd last set foot on Barrayar, just as planned. Killer was released from his fleshly cage, able to defend them again if he absolutely had to. . . . But Mark hadn't anticipated how flabby and gray he was going to look, as though he were melting and slumping like a candle in the sun.

And indeed, the next words out of his brother's mouth were, 'Are you feeling all right? You don't look so good.'

'Jump lag. It will pass.' He grinned tightly. He wasn't sure if it was the drugs, Barrayar, or missing Kareen that put him more on edge, but he was sure of the cure. 'Have you heard from Kareen? Did she get in all right?'

'Yes, she got here fine, last week. What's that peculiar crate with all the layers?'

Mark wanted to see Kareen more than anything in the universe, but first things first. He turned to Enrique, who was goggling in open fascination at him and his progenitor-twin.

'I brought a guest. Miles, I'd like you to meet Dr. Enrique Borgos. Enrique, my brother Miles, Lord Vorkosigan.'

'Welcome to Vorkosigan House, Dr. Borgos,' Miles said, and shook hands in automatic politeness. 'Your name sounds Escobaran, yes?'

'Er, yes, er, Lord Vorkosigan.'

Wonders, Enrique managed to get it right this time. Mark had only been coaching him on Barrayaran etiquette for ten straight days. . . .

'And what are you a doctor of?' Miles glanced again, worriedly, at Mark; Mark guessed he was evolving alarmed theories about his clone-brother's health.

'Not medicine,' Mark assured Miles. 'Dr. Borgos is a biochemist and genetic entomologist.'

'Words . . . ? No, that's etymologist. Bugs, that's right.' Miles's eye was drawn again to the big steel-wound shock-cushioned crate at their feet. 'Mark, why does that crate have air holes?'