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saying something brightly about a walk through the lower salons to view the inlaid panels along the way.

Gregor flung himself back half-sideways in his chair, one booted leg hooked over the arm, swinging. 'Well. What do you think of her?'

'Dr. Toscane?'

'I wasn't asking your opinion of your Aunt Alys.'

Miles studied Gregor's eager smile. No . . . this man was not asking for a critique. 'Lovely.'

'Isn't she?'

'Very intelligent.'

'Brilliant. I wish you could have attended Racozy's staff meeting. Her presentation was a model of clarity.'

No doubt, with every expert the trade association owned doubtless up all night to help prepare it … still, Miles had run a staff briefing or two himself, in his day. He respected the effort involved. But Gregor was not so much soliciting Miles's opinion as asking for a confirmation of his own. I was never a yes- man.

'Very patriotic,' Gregor burbled on, 'in just the forward-looking, cooperative way your father had always hoped to achieve on Komarr.'

'Yes, Sire.'

'Beautiful eyes.'

'Yes, Sire,' Miles sighed. 'Very, um, blue-green.' Why is he doing this to me? Because the Count and Countess Vorkosigan weren't here, perhaps. He was using Miles as a stand-in for his parents, who, after all, were orphaned Gregor's foster parents as well. Good God, how were they going to react to this?

'Quick-witted …'

'Yes, Sire. Very.'

'Miles?'

'Yes, Sire?'

'Stop that.'

'Um.' Miles tried the tongue-biting trick again.

Gregor's boot stopped swinging; his face grew more serious, shadowed. He added quietly, 'I'm terrified.'

'Of rejection? I'm not the expert on women Ivan claims to be, but … all the preliminary signs looked like go-aheads to me.'

'No. Of … what could happen later. This job could be the death of me. And of those closest to me.'

The shade of Princess Kareen, not the vagrant breeze, chilled the air. It was perhaps as well for Gregor's untrusted sanity that the north wing where his mother had died had burned flat, and been rebuilt ghost-free.

'Ordinary men and women . . . die every day. For all sorts of reasons, from random chance to inexorable time. Death is not an Imperial monopoly.'

Gregor looked at him. 'So it's not,' he said softly. He nodded decisively, as if Miles had just said something useful. What?

Miles tried to change the subject. 'So what's up at your meeting with Vortala and Vann?'

'Oh, the usual. Their Imperial Lands Distribution committee wants favors for friends. I want their friends to present proof of competent usage plans.'

'Ah.' All South Continent matters, of no direct interest to the Vorkosigan's District. Miles wondered if he ought to pass the word to his father's Deputy that this would be the ideal week to lobby Gregor for favors for the District. In his current state of dreamy idiocy and sexual fog, the love-stricken Gregor might well grant anything. No . . . better for the Imperium to keep this temporary insanity a State secret. Marriage would cure Gregor quickly enough.

A Komarran Empress. God. What a nightmare for ImpSec. Illyan really would have that stroke he'd been threatening for years. 'Have you warned Illyan about this yet?'

'I thought I'd send Lady Alys to apprise him, if things seemed hopeful. Fairly soon. She seems to have made it her department.'

'She's the best ally and go-between you could have. Behave, and you'll keep her on your side. But have you thought through the political ramifications of this . . . marriage?' It was the first time anyone had spoken that word out loud, Miles realized.

'I've thought about nothing else for the past week. It could be a good thing, you know, Miles. A symbol of Imperial unity and all that.'

It was more likely the Komarran underground would make it a symbol of Komarr being screwed again by Barrayar. Miles imagined the potential for vicious political satire, and winced. 'Don't get your hopes up on that score.'

Gregor shook his head. 'At the last . . . none of that matters. I've finally found something for me. Really for me, not for the Imperium, not even for the Emperor. Just for me.'

'Then grab it with both hands. And don't let the bastards take it away from you.'

'Thank you,' Gregor breathed.

Miles bowed himself out. He wondered if his new driver had killed anyone yet, and if the Count's car was still right-side-up. But mostly, he wondered how he could avoid Duv Galeni for the next few weeks.

CHAPTER TEN

It took Miles several days to extract himself from Ivan's clutches and escape south to the Vorkosigan's District alone, or almost alone. In the end, he formally pledged his word as Vorkosigan to Ivan that he wouldn't attempt either active or passive suicide stunts while gone. Ivan had reluctantly accepted this, but it was obvious from Martin's new wariness that Ivan had chosen to put an extra word in his ear about problems besides seizures to watch for in his employer, and, probably, some com numbers to call in case of emergencies or excessive weirdness. Now the kid thinks I'm crazy. Or at any rate, discharged because I was crazy, not crazy because I was discharged. Thanks, Ivan. But perhaps a few days in the peace and calm of Vorkosigan Surleau would ease Miles's mind, and Martin's too.

Miles knew they'd crossed the northern border of his home District when the first blue shadows of the Dendarii Mountains colored the horizon ahead of them, appearing out of the wavering air as suddenly as a mirage. 'Turn to the east, here,' Miles told Martin. 'I've a mind to quarter the District. We'll pass just north of Hassadar. Have you ever been down this way before?'

'No, my lord.' Dutifully, Martin banked the lightflyer into the morning sun; the canopy's polarization compensated for the glare. As Miles had suspected, Martin was shakier as a lightflyer pilot than a groundcar chauffeur. But the fail-safe systems made a lightflyer, a small, highly maneuverable, stripped-down cross between an antigrav sled and an airplane, almost impossible to crash. Somebody having a five-minute seizure might possibly manage the feat, though.

Sometimes the best way across a square was around three sides. . . . Not that the Vorkosigan's District was a square, exactly, more of a squashed, irregular parallelogram, some 350 kilometers from the northern strip of lowlands to the southern mountain passes, and about 500 kilometers east-to-west, skirting the mountain chain along its highest ranges. Only about the northern fifth was flat fertile plains, and of that, of course, only half was usable. The city of Hassadar appeared on their near-right; Miles directed Martin wide around the high-traffic areas, avoiding the complications of the city computer's navigational control of the lightflyer traffic.

'Hassadar's all right, I guess,' said Vorbarr Sultana-born-and-bred Martin, gazing out over the city's earnest little effort at urban sprawl.

'It's as modern as any city on Barrayar,' said Miles. 'More modern than Vorbarr Sultana. Almost all of it was built after the Cetagandan Invasion, when my grandfather chose it for the new District capital.'

'Yeah, but Hassadar's about all the District has,' said Martin. 'I mean, there's