Memory

ImpSec captain. I wanted to be reinstated as an ImpSec captain. 'I'm only an acting Auditor, I'm afraid. My tenure ends when my case is closed.'

'Um, and . . . what is your case?'

'Highly sensitive.'

'Oh, quite. Sorry.'

Shutting down his comconsole, Miles reflected on Chenko's very good question. He didn't seem to have a very good answer for it.

CHAPTER TWENTY

As the days slipped by without incident, Miles was with reluctance drawn more to Haroche's growing opinion, that the chip failure had been from natural causes. The new ImpSec acting chief was certainly acting less tense about it all. Yet why should Haroche remain twitchy, when there had been no follow-up, no other attack during the time-window of confusion? The transition of power had gone smoothly. If the putative plot had been intended to derail ImpSec's organization, instead of Illyan personally, it had been a notable flop.

Three days before Countess Vorkosigan was due to arrive at the capital, Miles's nerve broke, and he decided to flee to Vorkosigan Surleau. He had neither hope, nor, truly, desire to avoid her altogether on her visit home, he just wasn't quite ready to face her yet. Maybe a couple of days in the quiet of the country would help him marshal his courage. Besides … it would be good security for Illyan. Out in that thinly populated area, where strangers were immediately noticed, it was easier to spot trouble coming.

Miles's one doubt about the retreat to the country house was whether he could persuade his cook to accompany them. However, Martin proved a potent bribe to draw Ma Kosti out of her familiar city into the doubtful hinterlands. Miles began to consider raising not his cook's pay, but her son's, to entice him and therefore her to stay longer. But maybe soon he wouldn't need a driver.

Illyan was amenable to the proposed excursion, if not wildly enthusiastic.

'This week's probably the very last of the good fall weather down there,' Miles pointed out; indeed, the capital was undergoing a succession of colder and rainier days, with a nasty hint of early snow.

'It will be … interesting, to see the place again,' allowed Illyan. 'See if it's as I remember.'

More of Illyan's quiet self-testing; Illyan didn't talk much about it, perhaps because the results of so many of his little tests were so discouraging. Or perhaps because he lost track of the results too quickly.

A morning's very mild flurry of activity—both Miles and Illyan traveled light by training and habit—resulted in a restful afternoon tea taken on the long front porch of the lake house. It was impossible to stay tense in the warm afternoon, sitting in the shade and gazing down over the green lawn to the sparkling stretch of water cradled in the hills. The autumn trees were almost denuded of their colorful leaves, which opened up the view. And the demands of digestion cured the viewer of any remaining residue of ambition. If this went on, Miles thought, he was going to have to take up an exercise program, or end up looking like his clone-brother Mark, which would rather defeat Mark's purposes. He made a mental note to keep Mark and Ma Kosti separated for as long as possible.

During a lull in the arrival of delectables, Illyan glanced down over the lawn. 'Huh. That's about the spot where Captain Negri died, isn't it. The opening shot in the War of Vordarian's Pretendership.'

'So I'm told,' said Miles. 'Were you here then? Did you see it?'

'No, no. I was up in the capital, being taken by surprise by Vordarian's forces, along with almost everyone else.' Illyan sighed meditatively. 'Or so I construe. The only image I can call up is of one of my subordinates running in with the first word—I can't remember his name— and of going somewhere in a groundcar. And of being sick-scared. I remember that, vividly, how my guts felt. Odd. Why should I remember that, and not . . . all the more important facts?'

'I suppose,' said Miles, 'because you always did have to remember it. Did your chip record your emotions?'

'Not really. Though it was possible to reconstruct them, when I was recalling.'

'Deduced. Not felt.'

'More or less.'

'That would be strange.'

'I got used to it.' Illyan smiled ironically, staring down across the sunlit grass. 'Almost my first job, when your father promoted me to Chief of ImpSec, was to investigate the murder of my predecessor. Come to think of it, that could be said to have been Negri's first job too. Doubtless made easier by the fact that he helped engineer the murder of his predecessor, but still. Anything done twice on Barrayar is a tradition. I believe I got off lightly. I never thought I'd get out of this job alive, though your father's retirement, last year, was rather inspiring.'

'Is that . . . when you started to think about targeting me for your successor?'

'Oh, I had you targeted long before that. Or Gregor and I did.'

Miles wasn't sure he wanted to think about that. 'So . . . after a week to reflect on it, do you now think your chip failure was natural?'

Illyan shrugged. 'Nothing lasts forever. People, devices . . . Well, Admiral Avakli will advise in due course. I wonder what Lady Alys is doing today?'

'Triaging guest lists and choosing stationery, and prodding her new secretaries through calligraphy practice, or so she said.' Lady Alys had told them both that, yesterday.

'Ah,' said Illyan.

Pastries arrived, and silence fell for a time, broken only by the sound of munching, and little appreciative mumbles. 'So,' Illyan said at last. 'What do a couple of retired officers and gentlemen do on a country weekend?'

'What they please. Sleep in?'

'We've been doing that all week.'

'Do you have any interest in horseback riding?'

'Not really. Your grandfather the General insisted on giving me lessons, from time to time when I was down here. I can stay alive on a horse, but I don't recall its being what you would call a sybaritic pleasure. More in the masochistic line.'

'Ah. Well, there's hiking. And swimming, though that might be imprudent for me … I could wear a float- jacket, I suppose.'

'The water's a little cold by now, isn't it?'

'Not as bad as in the spring.'

'I'll pass, I think. It all sounds a bit youthfully athletic.'

'Oh, this was a great place to be a kid.' Miles thought it over. 'There's fishing, I suppose. I never did much of that. Sergeant Bothari wasn't fond of cleaning fish.'

'That sounds sedate enough.'

'Tradition is, you take the local beer from the village—there's a woman there who home-brews it, extraordinary stuff—and hang the bottles over the side of the boat to stay cold. When the beer gets too warm to drink, it's too hot to fish.'

'What season is that?'

'Never, as far as I could tell.'

'Let us by all means observe tradition,' said Illyan gravely.

It took half a day to get the power boat out of storage, which put them out on the lake in the hazy warmth of the next afternoon, instead of the foggy chill of the early morning. This suited Miles fine. The basic mechanics of fishing were not something Miles had forgotten, and he never had gone in for the refinements. The need for sticking hooks into wriggling unhappy live things had been technologically relieved by the invention of little protein cubes which, the package assured him, were guaranteed to attract fish in droves, or shoals, or whatever.

He and Illyan arranged their beer in a net bag over the side of the boat, and their awning overhead, and settled down to enjoy the peace and the view. The ImpSec guard on-shift, one of three assigned by HQ to trail Illyan around down here, got to sit on shore with a little pontoon-fitted lightflyer and watch from a distance, out of mind if not out of sight.