hundred years ago. You're the only person I know who doesn't think he's weird. He's so paranoid.'
'I know—but it's a very useful quality in a bodyguard. His pathological suspiciousness has saved my life twice.'
'You should have been born two hundred years ago, too.'
'No, thanks. I'd have been slain at birth.'
'Well, there is that,' she admitted. 'Anyway, just out of the blue this morning he started talking about arranging my marriage.'
Miles stopped abruptly, and glanced up at her. 'Really. What did he say?'
'Not much,' she shrugged. 'He just mentioned it. I wish—I don't know. I wish my mother were alive.'
'Ah. Well … There's always my mother, if you want somebody to talk to. Or—or me. You can talk to me, can't you?'
She smiled gratefully. 'Thanks.' They came to the stairs. She paused; he waited.
'He never talks about my mother anymore, you know? Hasn't since I was about twelve. He used to tell me long stories—well, long for him—about her. I wonder if he's beginning to forget her.'
'I shouldn't think so. I see him more than you do. He's never so much as looked at another woman,' Miles offered reassuringly.
They started down the stairs. His aching legs did not move properly; he had to do a kind of penguin shuffle to achieve the steps. He glanced up at Elena self-consciously, and grasped the rail firmly.
'Shouldn't you be taking the lift tube?' she asked suddenly, watching his uncertain placement of his feet.
Don't you start treating me like a cripple, too … He glanced down the railing's gleaming helix. 'They told me to stay off my legs. Didn't specify how . . .' He hopped up on the bannister, and shot her a wicked grin over his shoulder.
Her face reflected mixed amusement and horror. 'Miles, you lunatic! If you fall off that, you'll break every bone in your body—'
He slid away from her, picking up speed rapidly. She cantered down the stairs after him, laughing; he lost her around the curvature. His grin died as he saw what awaited him at the bottom. 'On, hell…' He was going too fast to brake …
'What the—'
'Watch out!'
He tumbled off the railing at the bottom of the staircase into the frantic clutch of a stocky, grey-haired man in officer's dress greens. They both scrambled to their feet as Elena arrived, out of breath, on the tessellated pavement of the front hall. Miles could feel the anguished heat in his face, and knew it was scarlet. The stocky man looked bemused. A second officer, a tall man with captain's tabs on the collar of his uniform, leaned on a walking stick and gave a brief surprised laugh.
Miles collected himself, coming more-or-less to attention. 'Good afternoon, Father,' he said coolly. He gave a little aggressive lift to his chin, defying anyone to comment on his unorthodox entrance.
Admiral Lord Aral Vorkosigan, Prime Minister of Barrayar in the service of Emperor Gregor Vorbarra, formerly Lord Regent of same, straightened his uniform jacket and cleared his throat. 'Good afternoon, son.' Only his eyes laughed. 'I'm, ah—glad to see your injuries were not too serious.'
Miles shrugged, secretly relieved to be spared more sardonic comments in public. 'The usual.'
'Excuse me a moment. Ah, good afternoon, Elena. Koudelka—what did you think of those ship cost figures of Admiral Hessman's?'
'I thought they went by awfully fast,' replied the Captain.
'You thought so too, eh?'
'Do you think he's hiding something in them?'
'Perhaps. But what? His party budget? Is the contractor his brother-in-law? Or sheer slop? Peculation, or merely inefficiency? I'll put Illyan on the first possibility—I want you on the second. Put the squeeze on those numbers.'
'They'll scream. They were screaming today.'
'Don't believe it. I used to do those proposals myself when I was on the General Staff. I know how much garbage goes into them. They're not really hurting until their voices go up at least two octaves.'
Captain Koudelka grinned, and bowed himself out with a brief nod at Miles and Elena, and a very sketchy salute.
Miles and his father were left looking at each other, neither wishing to be the first to open the issue that lay between them. As if by mutual agreement, Lord Vorkosigan said only, 'Well, am I late for lunch?'
'Just been called, I think, sir.'
'Let us go in, then …' He made a little abortive lift of his arm, as if to offer his injured son assistance, but then clasped his hands tactfully behind his back. They walked on side by side, slowly.
Miles lay propped up in bed, still dressed for the day, with his legs stretched out correctly before him. He eyed them distastefully. Rebellious provinces—mutinous troops—quisling saboteurs … He should get up one more time, and wash and change to night clothes, but the effort required seemed heroic. No hero he. He was reminded of that fellow Grandfather told about, who accidentally shot his own horse out from under himself in the cavalry charge—called for another, and then did it again.
So his own words, it appeared, had set Sergeant Bothari thinking in just the channel Miles least desired. Elena's image turned before his inner eye—the delicate aquiline profile, great dark eyes—cool length of leg, warm flare of hip—she looked, he thought, like a Countess in a drama. If only he could cast her in the role in reality … But such a Count!
An aristocrat in a play, to be sure. The deformed were invariably cast as plotting villains in Barrayaran drama. If he couldn't be a soldier, perhaps he had a future as a villain. 'I'll carry the wench off,' he muttered, experimentally dropping his voice half an octave, 'and lock her in my dungeon.'
His voice returned to its normal pitch with a regretful sigh. 'Except I haven't got a dungeon. It would have to be the closet. Grandfather's right, we are a reduced generation. Anyway, they'd just rent a hero to rescue her. Some tall piece of meat—Kostolitz, maybe. And you know how those fights always come out—'
He slid to his feet and pantomimed across the room, Kostolitz's swords against—say—Miles's morningstar. A morningstar was a proper villainous weapon. It gave the concept of one's personal space some real authority. Stabbed, he died in Elena's arms as she swooned in grief—no, she'd be in Kostolitz's arms, celebrating.
Miles's eye fell on an antique mirror, clasped in a carven stand. 'Capering dwarf,' he growled. He had a sudden urge to smash it with his naked fists, shattered glass and blood flying—but the sound would bring the hall guard, and packs of relatives, and demands for explanation. He jerked the mirror around to face the wall instead, and flopped onto the bed.
Lying back, he gave the problem more serious attention. He tried to imagine himself, rightly and properly, asking his father to be his go-between to Sergeant Bothari. Horrific. He sighed, and writhed vainly for a more comfortable position. Only seventeen, too young to marry even by Barrayaran standards, and quite unemployed, now—it would be years, probably, before he would be in a sufficiently independent position to offer for Elena against parental backing. Surely she would be snapped up long before then.
And Elena herself … What was in it for her? What pleasure, to be climbed all over by an ugly, twisted shrimp—to be stared at in public, in a world where native custom and imported medicine combined ruthlessly to eliminate even the mildest physical deformity—doubly stared at, because of their ludicrous contrast? Could the dubious privileges of an obsolete rank more drained of meaning with each passing year make up for that? A rank totally without meaning off Barrayar, he knew—in eighteen years of residence here, his own mother had never come to regard the Vor system as anything other than a planet-wide mass hallucination.
There came a double rap upon his door. Authoritatively firm; courteously brief. Miles smiled ironically, sighed, and sat up.
'Come in, Father.'
Lord Vorkosigan poked his head around the carved doorframe. 'Still dressed? It's late. You should be getting some rest.' Somewhat inconsistently, he let himself in and pulled up a desk chair, turning it around and sitting astride it, arms comfortably athwart its back. He was still dressed himself, Miles noted, in the dress greens he wore every working day. Now that he was but Prime Minister, and not Regent and therefore titular commander
