hand, if they did not want or need sex, the transformation between the free woman and the slave becomes difficult to understand. To be sure, perhaps it is merely the collar, and the uncompromising male domination, which so unlocks, and calls forth, the passion, service and love of a female.
'What are you doing?' she asked, weeping.
'Doubtless men will be here soon,' I said.
'What are you doing?' she wept.
I put the opaque sack over her head and tied it, with its own strings, under her chin, close about her neck, rather like a slave hood. 'This will make it easier for you,' I said. 'I am veiling you. Too, this will enable you, by shutting out certain extraneous factors, to concentrate more closely on the exact nature of your sensations.
'Release me!' she wept.
'No,' I said.
I heard a fellow near me. I looked about. 'She is certified free?' he asked. 'Yes,' I said. 'Examine her.'
He thrust Boabissia's dress up, high over her breasts. He examined her thighs, and the usual brand sites on a Gorean female slave.
'How much?' he asked.
'She is only a free woman,' I said. I put a copper bowl on the ground, beside her, at her left. 'She is not trained. Only a tarsk bit,' It was the smallest, least significant Gorean coin, at least in common circulation.
'In advance,' I said. Men are commonly disappointed in free women, and almost certainly if they have experienced the alternative. They are not slaves, trained in the giving of pleasure to men. Some free women believe their role in lovemaking consists primarily in lying down. Should they become slaves the whip soon teaches them differently.
'Of course,' he said. The coin rattled into the copper bowl.
'No,!' wept Boabissia. She clenched her ankles tightly together. Then her ankles, one in each hand of the fellow, were parted.
It was now late in the evening.
Hurtha happily shook the copper bowl. In it were several coins. I had not kept track. We were now, at any rate, once again solvent.
'How do you feel?' I asked Boabissia.
She twisted in the thongs and turned to the side. She whimpered, softly.
We had kept Tula and Feiqa under the blanket in the back of the wagon. We had not wanted them to distract our visitors.
I looked at Boabissia. She made another small, soft, whimpering noise. Some of the men, in their intense excitement, I feared, had been somewhat stronger, or ruder, with her than might have been appropriate for a free woman. Indeed, some had handled her almost as though she might have been a slave. We had not cautioned them to gentleness, however. After all, they had paid their tarsk bits.
'Are you all right?' I asked.
'Yes,' she whispered.
I put my ear down close to her. Her head in the sack, it tied on her, fastened under her chin, she did not know my nearness. I listened to the tiny, soft noises she made. It was like a soft moaning or tiny whimpering. It was almost inaudible. I knew such sounds. I smiled. She was still feeling, even now, wonderingly perhaps, the results of her havings. Perhaps she was trying, even now, in her depth of her femininity, to understand what had been done to her, to come to grips with her feelings, with those sensations which men had seen fit to induce in her.
I leaned back. 'You are sure you are all right?' I asked.
'Yes,' she said. I pulled down her dress, and freed her wrists. They were ringed with thong marks.
She, her palms on the dirt, half knelt, half lay, by the wheel. Her head, still in the sack, was down.
'Did you take me?' she asked.
'No,' I said.
'Did Hurtha have me?' she asked.
'No,' I said.
'Why not?' she asked.
'You are a free woman,' I told her. I then removed the sack from her head. Her face was red, and broken out. Her hair was damp. I turned the sack inside out, that it might dry and air. Boabissia turned away from me, apparently not wanting to meet my eyes. I do not think she wanted us to see her face. She was afraid, I think, of what we might see there. We would respect this. She was, after all, a free woman. We would, similarly, in deference to her feelings, keep Feiqa and Tula under the blanket for a time, lest their eyes suddenly, inadvertently, meet hers, and women read in one another's eyes truths which might be deeper than speech.
'Good night,' I said to her.
'Good night,' she said.
I watched her pull her blanket about her. She suddenly shuddered. 'Oh!' she said. Then she pulled the blanket more tightly about her shoulders. We would not chain her. She was not a slave. She was a free woman. She might leave, if she wished.
12 It Is a Standard, That of a Silver Tarn
'The city is taken!' I heard. 'The city is taken!'
I lay absolutely still for an instant. I heard no clash of weapons. There were no sounds of rushing feet, of flight. No cries of pain, of men cut in their blankets.
I did hear the ringing of an alarm bar in the distance.
My eyes might have appeared closed to a careless observer. They were open. Peripheral vision is important at such times. In that first instant, every sense suddenly alert, I appeared to be still asleep. There was the wagon. There were the remains of the fire. I detected no movement in my immediate vicinity.
The first object that moves is often that which attracts the immediate attention of the predator. Too, the swiftest moving object, particularly that which moves silently and with obvious menace or purpose, is often construed, and generally correctly, by the attacker as the most dangerous, that to be dealt with first. Those overcome with surprise, those expostulating or cursing, those stunned, may be left for the instants later. There is a dark mathematics in such matters, in the subtle equations balancing reaction times against the movements of blades. One gambles. Is the instant one waits, that instant of fearful reconnoitering, that instant in which one hopes to convince a foe that one is temporarily harmless, an instant of loss, or of gain? Does it grant him his opportunity, or does it obtain you yours? Much depends on the actual situation. If one is roused by known voices, one generally rises quickly. The defensive is being assumed. If one does not know what is occurring, it is sometimes wise to find out before leaping up, perhaps into the weapons of enemies who might be as close as one's elbow. My right hand was on the hilt of my sword, my left on the sheath, its straps wrapped about it, to steady its draw. Doubtless I appeared to be still asleep. But no sounds of carnage rang about me.
I sat up quickly, freeing myself from the blankets. I did not draw the weapon. I saw no immediate need to do so. I slung it, on its strap, over my left shoulder. The scabbard can be discarded more quickly in this suspension than in one which crosses the body.
'Hurtha,' I said, 'wake up.' I moved to his shoulder.
'What is it?' he said. 'Is it not early?'
'Something strange is going on,' I said. 'Get up. There was an alarm bar ringing.'
'I hear nothing,' he said, sitting up.
To be sure, the bar had now stopped ringing.
'I do not understand it,' I said. 'A fellow was crying out that the city had been taken. I do not hear him now. Too, the alarm bar was ringing. I heard it.' 'It is very early,' said Hurtha.
'Get up,' I said.
I looked over at Boabissia. Her eyes were open. She was looking at me, frightened.
'Did you hear the alarm bar?' I asked.
