I tried to think about it logically. Why was my brain so opposed? Because of depictions of the “correct” types of families in the media. It’s not like my family ever conformed to any ideals, anyway. But I had always hoped I would grow up and have that perfect family. But, really, is having one man that loves you better than having three that love you unconditionally? When I thought about it that way, the answer was obvious.
Travis came back in the room. I moved my arm just a little and he grinned at me. “Why are you still not dressed? Do you want to play some more?”
“Travis, does it bother you that I love you as well as Kait and David?”
He sat down next to me; the playful smile gone. “Not anymore. At first, it bothered me. I thought you had known David longer, so you would love him more. Kait and I have talked about it several times, honestly, even before he told you about the bonding. He pointed out to me that you bonded to all of us, and any of us missing will be like you missing a piece of your heart. It helped me. Kait and David are just as devoted to you as I am. Why?”
“I just… I feel like I am being a slut. I mean, I haven’t actually slept with anyone yet, but being in a relationship with three people is not what I pictured for me. But, I also can’t picture my life without any of you in it. David is having a problem with the idea, and that is making me feel worse about it.” He was rubbing my back now.
“David will come around. He just needs to work through some things in his head, like we all do. As much as I enjoyed what we just did, if you want us to cool it down a bit, we will. You are in control.”
I laughed. “Am I?” When I saw the look on his face, I blanched. “I don’t mean that I think you will force me. What I meant was, I can’t control myself. You all are so… yummy… that it didn’t even occur to me to stop until after it all happened.”
He turned red, even as a gorgeous smile covered his face. “I will take that as a compliment. Do you still want to go out to the woods?”
“Ah. Yeah. I guess that means I have to get dressed, huh?” I smiled at him and gave him a quick peck on the lips. He grabbed me and deepened the kiss for a moment, then smacked my butt. I gasped. It hurt and yet didn’t at the same time. I stood frozen, until he chuckled.
“Did you enjoy that smack?”
I felt my face turn red. “No. It just startled me.” I bustled around the room, as he sat down to watch me put my clothes on as I found them strewn around the room. He continued to laugh as I felt my face get redder and redder. Once I was fully clothed again, he snagged my arm as I went by him to get my shoes. He pulled me into his lap and kissed me. Then he pulled back and stared into my eyes.
“You know, it’s not something to be ashamed of if you liked the smack.”
I looked away. I was not going to have this discussion. With my past, there was no way that was something I was going to enjoy. Even though it had sent a spark of heat directly between my legs. One that I could still feel. That I wished he would do something to make it grow and overcome me. Shit. No, that’s not what I wanted. I wanted to take a walk in the woods to learn more about his body. I mean, him. Fuck!
I cleared my throat. “I know. It didn’t do anything for me.” I could feel the heat in my face at my flat-out lie. Good thing Kait and David weren’t there to call me on it. “Are you ready to go?”
He kissed me again and let go. “Alright. I can take a hint. Yep, I’m ready, but don’t you still need shoes?”
I looked down at my feet. “Yes, I guess I do. Stop distracting me!”
Chapter 8
I put my shoes on, then pulled out my phone to see if David had responded to my text. Nope, nothing. Shit, that’s not good, is it? He ran off, and never answered me. It worried me that I hadn’t heard from Kait either, so I sent him a quick text. He responded immediately that he had found David, and he was fine, but neither of them would be back to the cabin tonight. Travis came up behind me and put his arms around me as he read the text over my shoulder.
“It will be okay, Babe. Kait will help David see the light.” I sighed.
“Are you sure?”
Travis turned me around in his arms. “Babe, David loves you with all his heart. He won’t be able to walk away from you, and he doesn’t want to hurt you.
