“All of the cherry blossom trees you were telling me about. I asked Hiroshi and he said that it is the best place to see them. There is an abundance of them he said.”
She clapped her hands. “Yippie! This is so exciting. The train does go crazy fast. It scares me when we pass another train and you can feel the whoosh from it.”
“I never pressed this too much before, but tell me, please, why are you so afraid to have sex? I’ve been thinking about it and can't comprehend how afraid you are to get pregnant based on the factual data of actually getting pregnant when you use proper protection. So, what gives, Gabriella? Is there something you’re not telling me?”
Wow. Way to change the subject.
Leave it to Logan to analyze this and look for data to back-up his findings. This would be a perfect opportunity to tell him about her accidental pregnancy their last semester of college. Did she still think he would judge her? Disagree with her original decision to have an abortion? In all reality she could leave out the part about wanting to get an abortion. All he would have to know is she got pregnant and had a miscarriage. If she were going to be honest, she would need to tell him the entire story from beginning to end. But something still held her back. Not something, she knew what it was.
It was this new love affair they were embarking on that had her wanting to explore each other without having her pregnancy issue between them. She was afraid he would judge her.
“No one…hurt you, did they?”
“What? Oh no, Logan, nothing like that. No. It's just…well, you know I don't want to be like Tammy. You know I don't want kids. Getting pregnant does worry me, even if the odds are minimal.” She didn’t want to admit this next part, but she pressed on. “Truthfully, I don't really know what I’m missing.”
Logan lifted her chin with his finger, willing her to look into his eyes. “What do you mean, you don't know what you are missing?”
“I don't know what I'm missing!” She looked around the train as if someone may have heard her. “I’ve only had sex a few times ever, okay? And it was nothing to be excited about.”
“I'm sorry you haven't had good experiences in the past. I’m really sorry about that. But, look at me, Cinderella,” he did the two-finger wiggle. “Two things. I can promise you that I will do everything in my power to prevent you from getting pregnant.”
She bit down on her lip. Her heart was beating extra fast in her chest while she waited for him to tell her the rest. “What’s the second thing?”
“The second thing, and this I can promise you one-hundred percent. You will be thoroughly excited and well-spent once I have my way with you.”
She squeezed her legs together, trying to quell the foreign feeling down there as she absorbed his words. Her breasts felt heavy. Was this what it felt like to be genuinely excited about sex? This full-blown, not afraid of anything feeling of confidence? Her cheeks were hot from all the new sensations. And the look he was giving here—sent her blood to volcanic temperatures.
“Don't go getting all shy on me now, Gabriella.” His husky voice tickled her earlobe.
She smiled. “It's hard not too. I don't go around talking about my sex life with anyone. Especially not you.”
“Things are changing between us. Let's enjoy it while I’m here. You know, before I move to the city. We just have to agree that this will be all it is. It can't continue into a relationship because it would never work with me living so far away. And that way, it will never have the chance to ruin our friendship.”
She nodded her head in agreement. “I know. I agree. This won't ruin our friendship—we can't let it. Knowing you will be moving to the East Coast sets the bar on that, don't you think? I’m sure someday we’ll look back at all this when we find a husband and a wife, and we’ll wonder what we were thinking.” She let out another laugh, even though the mention of Logan’s mythical wife didn't sit well in her tummy.
Chapter Twenty
“Brandi said everything is running smoothly at Lolita’s.”
“That's good to know.”
“Yeah, it is. Especially since this is the first time I’ve ever left it for this long. It worked perfectly that the children she works for are off for Spring Break and they all went on vacation. Brr, it's cold in here.”
“Yeah, it is. It's a cute hotel.”
“How did you ever find this Mume’s Boutique Hotel, anyway? Had we been walking in the dark, I'm not sure we would have found it on our own. It's in a tiny spot. And the fact that we have to ring the doorbell to be let in every time is quite interesting.”
“Not as interesting as having to leave this big key with them every time we leave the hotel. I get paranoid about things like that. I hope they have a safe. Is that standard for small hotels here?”
“I don't know. It's not standard for Americans—that's for sure. Could you imagine? But why is the hallway so cold? I hope our room isn't this cold!” Gabriella smoothed her palms over her arms.
“Let’s find out.”
Logan unlocked the door to their hotel room with the large skeleton key. Luckily a small light above the table was kept on.
“This is so cute.”
“Are you sure its okay to stay in the same bed again?”
“Yes. I wouldn’t have brought it up if I wasn’t certain.” Gabriella’s eyes flitted over the small room.
“Check out the shower.”
The bathroom was enclosed in its own room but instead of standard walls enclosing the separate room, the shower was enclosed in all glass. All glass windows so you could watch someone taking a bath or shower. Blinds were folded up on top and a small
