“That is their order, not mine. They’re not human; they are something else and answer to a different set of laws. Probably laws that even they may not know the reasoning behind, nor can they change. You are a good spirit, my child, and when all is said and done that’s all that matters in the end. Acceptance will come with time, and with time comes many constant changes for everyone.”
“What am I supposed to do now, though? Davin was the one who helped make what little sense he could out of things, but now nothing does. I feel so lost without him, like a hole has been burned into my heart.”
She was missing the hard persona I remembered and smiled a kind smile that was much more gentle than our first encounter at the tattoo shop when she was placing the damn curse on me. She actually looked to have compassion in her sky-blue eyes.
“I know you love him child, but are you sure you don’t love Sully too? You know that he truly loves you. It was demonstrated clearly last night. Your willingness to save him might be telling you that you return some of that love to him, too; even if you are in love with the other. Maybe he can help you make sense out of things if you let him.”
There was some truth behind what she said. Sully had proven so much to me in such a short amount of time, and my feelings had changed drastically after last night. When Davin had chosen to leave me in my time of need, I felt betrayed, and was forced to rely on Sully to fill that void; which in turn caused me to develop more feelings for him than I had ever intended; but that didn’t mean I was ready to give up Davin for them.
Maybe I did love them both, but the love wasn’t equal. There was only one being that completed me, and it was Davin…wasn’t it?
“You will find your way eventually, child.” Rosalinda Babic’s apparition dissolved, leaving me alone in the bathroom once again. My shoulder still tingled faintly from where she had been touching me.
There was a light rap on the bathroom door before Davin spoke softly from the other side, “Adelay, can I come in?”
I stood up, brushing a few stray strands of hair out of my eyes. “Yes.”
He pushed open the door enough for him to slip through. My heart pounded the way it did in the very beginning when I had first met him. His beautiful violet eyes were unusually dark and hollow this morning, showing the sadness he was harboring. He always carried such a confident spirit with him into any room, so it hurt to see him withdrawn this way.
Even through his weakness he was still such a gorgeous creature, and I wanted so badly to be wrapped in his arms, while he told me that everything was going to be okay. I wanted it to be the way it used to be. Normally his sexy smirk would have shown up by now. But I knew it wasn’t coming today, and who knew when I would see it again. He sat on the edge of the huge marble steps of the bathtub, running his hands through his silky black hair.
The entire atmosphere was strange. Neither one of us was quite sure what was expected of us now or how we were supposed to act in each other’s presence.
It wasn’t like we had broken up because we didn’t want to be together anymore, we were both still madly in love but something else had control of our future now, forcing us to be apart, compelling us to stand here as though stuck in limbo and at a loss for words. I waited for him to speak first because he was obviously in here for a reason.
He swallowed, looking up at me where I still hadn’t moved. “You know Adelay, I had so much I wanted to say before I came in here, but now that I’m here and you’re standing in front of me, I can’t think of anything else besides how much I wish I could hold you in my arms and tell you that I know we’re going to be together forever like we had planned; the way we had envisioned.”
I nodded, but, just as he, I couldn’t think of anything that would be worth saying about our unfortunate situation. Surprisingly he held his hand out, signaling for me to come closer. He wrapped his strong arms around my waist, pulling me into him and buried his face against my stomach. I held the back of his head with both of my trembling hands, laying my head on top of his so that I could inhale his wonderfully clean scent.
The smell of him was intoxicating to every single one my senses, and it was one that was distinct enough to pick out of a room full of hundreds of people. He was my high that I never wanted to come down from, that I suffered withdrawals from every second he was away from me.
Neither of us said anything for the next few minutes. We just continued to hold onto one another; soaking in the last time we would ever be able to share a moment like this again.
“I keep thinking that I’m going to wake up and realize this is all a dream. I waited so long to find you, and within one night you’re taken from me. I should have never left your side.”
“I’m not gone Davin. I’m still right here.”
“You’re standing here in front of me, but you’re not mine anymore. Seeing you build your life with my
