"Adri," he raises a brow at her. "Stop freaking out. I'm not mad."
"That's just it!" She screams while stomping her foot, "you should be mad!"
He just shrugs and walks to her clothes all over the room, slowly picking each piece up. "You like him, right?" He asks her.
"I... guess so." She looks back at me with sorrow in her eyes.
"Then be happy, Adri. Do what makes you happy and if it’s Emmett, then by all means, fuck him." He throws her clothes on the bed.
"What?" She asks on an exhale, "what the fuck does that mean?"
"It means, I can't give you what you're looking for." He points over at me, "maybe he can."
I cross my arms over my chest and raise my brow at him. What is it she's looking for? A relationship? Someone to love her? I can guess why he can't give it to her and I think it's because he doesn't just want her, he wants me too. But I feel those same exact feelings, I want them both.
Adri stormed out of here about an hour ago after Travis refused to continue the conversation. I tried to stop her and maybe talk to her about what we did but she was too worked up. I don’t blame her, I’m still not sure why I took it so far, I just want them to see that this thing between us-between all three of us-is real. It feels real and it feels like it could work. But how do I explain that to them?
Travis has been locked up tight in his room and I’m not sure how he’s actually feeling. I know he told Adri he was fine with it all but I know that he can’t be. He loves her but he just feels like he doesn’t deserve her, I can see it.
I get up off my bed because I am not spending my Saturday night moping in bed. I walk right across the hall and bang on his bedroom door. Of course, he doesn’t answer me. So, I do it again, louder and again.
“Fuck!” I hear him scream out, “what?”
“Let me in.” I rest my head on his door, “we need to talk.” I stay there for a few minutes and I can hear him rustling around inside. Just when I’m about to knock again, he swings his door open.
“What is it?” He asks, looking irritated.
“We need to talk and we need to do it before Ember gets home. If we continue to act like this,” I wave a hand between us, “she will know.”
“What’s there to know?” He raises a brow at me with a scowl tugging on his full mouth.
I step into him and we are chest to chest. Travis is about an inch shorter than me so we look each other in the eye. “The fact that you were ready to swallow my dick last night and then got off on me watching you fuck Adri.”
“She couldn’t know all that.” He rolls his eyes.
“No,” I shake my head, “you’re right she couldn’t. Not until she threatened me within an inch of my life-and we both know she’s capable-to tell her why we are so motherfucking awkward.”
“Fine,” he huffs out, holding his door open wider, “let’s talk it out.”
I walk into his room and sit on his bed, “a few questions first,” I say as I watch him close the door, “are you into guys and girls?”
“I don’t know,” he shrugs, “to be honest with you, I’ve only ever been with two girls and Adri being the only one consensual.”
“What?” I look at him with wide eyes, “you raped a chick?”
“No,” he shakes his head and sits on the bed beside me, “I was forced to fuck a chick, it’s a long story but she was willing.”
“Fuck,” I look him over and it’s really starting to hit me that Travis has had a fucked up life. “Guys?”
“I’ve been with a few guys,” he nods, “most consensual.”
“Coach?”
“Not consensual.”
“Right,” I nod, “you need to talk to Adri about this. By you hiding it, she feels like she isn’t enough for you.”
“I know.” I watch his mouth harden into a scowl, “how does one even begin to talk about it?”
I lift my shirt over my head and turn so my back is facing him, “those scars you see under my tattoo was caused by a Cat O’nine Tails when I was twelve up until I was fifteen. The hooked metal tips would dig into my skin and rip it off. Calen was a disturbed man but what was more disturbing, was the fact that my father sanctioned it. Told him to literally beat the shit out of his young son.” I turn and face him, “then I got too big for him to over power me and I killed the piece of shit.”
“That’s fucked.” He nods, “why this tattoo to cover it?”
“Because that little boy represents the death of my childhood innocence.” I chuckle, “and when the fucker got out of jail, he congratulated me on killing his closest man. Saying that’s what my training was for.” I look him in the eye, “it’s not near everything I have been through but it’s some. That’s how you begin, with something small.”
“Why are you trying to fix things between me and Adri?” His eyebrow raises, “don’t you want her?”
“Do you read manga?”
“No.” He shakes his head.
“Okay,” I put my finger up when he tries to interrupt me, “I have a few series in manga and one of them is about a group of friends. There’s three of them, two guys and a girl, best friends through school. In their final year in high school the girl catches feelings for both guys and instead of them fighting, they are all
