"Coach," I whisper to him, "did I do it right? Are you okay?"
"Yeah, Sport." He smiles over to me, "you did that perfectly."
11
Laying here thinking about my life and how the downward spiral started is not helping me figure shit out. Just the thought of telling anyone the details of the shit that happened to me makes me physically ill. The most I have ever told anyone was to Vin and Ember and even then they had no details.
I get up out of bed and head out of my room. Emmett has his music on again and that relieves me because I’m not ready to talk to him just yet. He wants to be with me and Adri, at the same time, a triplet not a couple. Fuck, it even sounds weird. What would Adri even think of that? Well, she did go to him right after I had just finished fucking her. I know Adri loves me but I can also see she has a connection to him. So do I if I’m being honest. Fuck… what would we say to Ember? She is the one person that really does intimidate the fuck out of me and here I am messing around and trying to figure out how to be in a triplet with her twin brother.
Yeah, I’m going to have to change my name and go on the run.
I enter the den and walk over to the large double doors leading to the backyard. This house is really nice and Ember’s aunt and uncle really made it into a home. It feels lived in and it has that feeling of love living here. I like being here but I need to get to my house and see what the fuck my mother has been up to. It’s been over a week since I have been there and I’m a little worried about Sonja.
“Can’t sleep?” His voice sends goosebumps across my skin.
“No,” I shake my head. “Can’t shut my mind down.”
“Yeah, I think I sprung too much on you. I was selfish and was only thinking of myself.” I turn to look at him, “you have a lot of shit to deal with Travis before you enter any relationship.”
"I may never be over the shit that happened to me." I whisper.
"No, you probably won't. I can only speak from experience but it will probably stay with you forever. That doesn't mean it owns you." He grits out, his face lined with anger. Fuck when he's mad like that I can't help but see Ember.
"No, it doesn't own me but it fucks with my head and I feel like I don't deserve things."
"Yeah," he nods, "I get that. I'm going to step back, not come at you about our complicated situation anymore. Again, I'm sorry and I'm here for you, as a friend until you are ready to even see anything else without stress."
"Friends?" I ask because I need that reassurance he's not going anywhere. I need him to still be here... with me.
"Best friends." He grins.
"Okay," I nod and smile. "I should probably tell Adri the same. I knew I wasn't ready for her when we started this but I couldn't stay away."
"She's like a magnet, I know." He smiles sadly.
"I think you guys should continue to see each other."
"No." He shakes his head, "it's all or nothing for me." My heart soars when I hear that and I can't even put into words how happy I am.
"I think you need to. When I am ready to take this..." I wave between us, "to the next level, I will need you and her to be where she and I am."
His brows come together in concentration, "I don't know..."
"I do," I nod. "We need to all be on the same page when we make that decision or else there's no way it will work. I still can't see it actually working."
"We can make a decision here all we want but at the end of the day it will be up to her. So, first we will talk to her... together, and then figure out the next step. Yeah?"
"Yeah." I nod, "okay."
"We should probably try and sleep because Ember will be through here tomorrow like a hurricane."
"Fuck," I scrub my hand down my face, "true."
I follow behind him and up the stairs, he stands in front of his doorway and I run my eyes down his body. Even in pajama pants and a t-shirt, Emmett exudes confidence. He's sexy as fuck and he knows it.
"Stop looking at me like that," he points into my face, "or else I will be forgetting every single thing I agreed to downstairs."
"Sorry," I grin at him. "I'll try my best to not check you out."
He reaches out his hand and fists it into the front of my shirt, dragging me into his body. He smells like his body wash, musky, and male. I look him in the eye, keeping my smirk firmly on my face then I lift a brow. His mouth crushes into mine and I am opening mine quickly just to taste him, I really need to taste him. His tongue slides into my mouth and I can feel my cock thickening. He kisses me slowly, almost like he's savouring me. It feels like a goodbye and I fucking hate that. I push my fingers into his hair and growl into his mouth.
His other hand that's not curled into my t-shirt, grabs my waist, and brings me in tighter. It's pressing my erection into his and he moans at the contact. Finally, he releases my mouth and brings his lips to my ear.
"This is to be continued."
