But then, he responded in the most dickish way possible.
“Wow, the rumors were true. You really do know how to work these things,” he said, grinning at me.
I realized what it was that he meant. He meant my blowjobs. I looked at him, annoyance on my face.
“Got anything nicer to say,” I said.
“No, other than the rumors are true. See ya,” he said.
He got up, giving me one last grin before he walked off, and I simply stood there, realizing he literally just used me, and he only wanted oral.
Did Phoenix actually mean half the crap he just said?
I didn’t even know, but the fact that he didn’t seem to really care all that much definitely made me feel terrible. I thought I mattered to him, I thought he was actually someone important to me, but in reality…he only cared about himself, and nobody else.
It hurt me knowing this, especially since he was someone that I also thought was a friend, not just someone who I thought liked me. I thought he did this all to be playful, but now, now that I know he was just “Testing a rumor” I was nothing more than a piece of meat to him, someone whom he could go to if he wanted to be blown, and nothing more.
I closed the door, feeling like total shit. I needed a couple of days to think about this. I didn’t know how to feel about any of this. I simply started to cry, closing my eyes and crying as I tried to figure out what to do.
What would be the best thing here? Would it be to just leave? Or would it be to stick around? I didn’t know right now. I told my mom I needed a couple of days to figure out where my loyalties laid, but also, to figure out what the hell I was feeling.
I felt scared, I felt nervous, and most of all, I was unsure of what to do, other than to just expect the worst, and hope for the best.
Chapter 22
I called my mom he next day, telling her that I needed to spend a few more days trying to get my thoughts in order. She didn’t seem all that happy about it, judging from the way that she spoke.
“I don’t know dear, I’d prefer if you came back with me,” she said.
I know she did. I understood why she wanted me back there. I didn’t really know why I stuck around either, and I felt like the dismissal from Phoenix still stung.
“I don’t know mom, I just…I need a little bit of time to figure all of this out. Do you feel me?” she asked.
“I do, I just also know that you need to do what’s right for you too, even if you don’t like it,” she said.
I get why she didn’t want me to stay. I honestly didn’t understand why I stuck around either. Was it because I felt guilty for leaving? I didn’t know for sure, but I honestly felt like there was something holding me there something making me cling to all of this.
“I don’t know mom, I just…I want to figure it out myself,” I said.
“Fair enough. Well, if you’re ready to leave at any point, just call me. I’ll send you some money too, since your dad seems to be doing absolutely nothing on that end,” she said.
Her tone was biting, and I shivered hearing it. My mom was definitely pissed. After hanging up the phone, I sighed. I didn’t know for sure what else to do anymore. But I still had to figure everything out, and of course, to recover from the issues that happened.
I needed some time away from all of them. To my surprise, the elites didn’t bother me after I saw them the next day. I left them alone, and they left me alone. I still got teased by Tabitha and a few of the others there, but for the most part, they seemed to all give up.
Was this the end?
I highly fucking doubted it. It was too easy. I know that there was something that was holding them back from teasing me even more, but I had no damn clue what it was.
For the most part, I kept to myself after everything that happened. I felt like it was better this way, and I guess that’s the way to do it. I felt a bit better. That is, until about three days later.
I was alone in my room. My dad didn’t even bother me at this point. I was surprised, especially since he seemed to feel bad, even though deep down I didn’t want jack shit to do with him. So, when I heard the knock at the door, it surprised me to say the least. I walked over, and when I got to the peephole, I noticed it was Thorn.
Why the heck was he here? I thought about potentially pretending I wasn’t home, but I’m sure he already heard the sounds of footsteps, the sounds of someone coming to the door, and the sound of someone hesitating to open it.
Guess I was found out.
I hesitantly opened the door, and to my surprise, I saw Thorn there. He looked at me with a darkened look in his eyes, and I wondered why he was here.
“What the hell do you want?” I asked, a little annoyed that I was bothered by him of all people. I wouldn’t have been so pissed off if it was someone else, but since he was one of the elites, I had a feeling that if I didn’t comply with whatever bullshit he was pulling, I’d be in deep shit.
“I’m here to come grab you. I need you to follow me,” he simply said.
The way he looked at me made my body shiver. It was a darkened, eerie look, and to my surprise, I felt like he was just acting this way because he was trying to get something
