I felt that distance, even with my parents I knew they wanted to see me. I knew my brothers and sisters wanted to see me also. My youngest sister, Lizzy, was my little champion. She was always on my side, standing up for me against anyone that dared to say any nasty shit to me. In her eyes, I was her hero. I didn’t feel like a hero though. I felt like I had let them all down, and I didn’t want them having to pay for my supposed sins. People would believe what they wanted, and my family shouldn’t have to share in that shame. But Lizzy didn’t give up. While everyone else gave me space, Lizzy called me incessantly, irritating the fuck out of me because she wanted me to know that she was always on my side. And I did know it, but I hated that she fought this battle with me.
So, I stayed away. I answered with the same generic answer every time. I was training to be a fighter and things were going good. It was false. Shit sucked right now, but I would do anything to make her think that I was alright. Because anything I said to her was passed along to the rest of my family. My brothers knew better. All it would take was one phone call, and they would know that I was drowning. So, I kept all communications strictly with Lizzy. I knew it was hurting them all, but I just couldn’t stand for them to know that I was fucked up and there was nothing they could do to help.
But lying here with Blake, I wondered if that was over. Maybe I could still be happy. Maybe the two of us could just forget all this shit and move on with life together. I would kill to have a woman like Blake in my bed every night, though I hadn’t realized it until now. We could move closer to my family and maybe I could open up my own business. It would be a struggle, but with someone like Blake by my side, the struggle would all be worth it.
I sighed heavily and glanced down at the woman in my arms. It was all a dream. It was a really fucking great dream, but it wouldn’t ever be reality. We had already crossed too many lines to just walk away from the mess that we got involved in. Blake definitely couldn’t just walk away. The FBI was after her, and as soon as they found her, she would at the very least be dragged away for hours upon hours of questioning. At the worst, she could be thrown in jail. And I was a nobody. I had no way to fight on her behalf. Nobody would believe the word of a guy with a DD, and that was if I wasn’t already caught. After our stunt at the lab, chances were very good that my face was now out there and someone was coming for me.
So, I did the only thing I could do right now. I ran my hands all over Blake’s body until I woke her up and then I kissed her everywhere, memorizing her moans as she took everything I gave her. It was all I could give her right now, but maybe someday I would be worthy of more. Maybe someday I would be worthy of her.
“What are you thinking about?” Blake asked as I held her in my arms.
“I was thinking about what I want when this is all over.”
She shifted so she could look at me. “And what’s that?”
I looked into her beautiful eyes and decided just to go for it. I had nothing left to lose at this point. What was the worst she could say?
“I want you. I want to see where this can go.”
“Do you think that’s even possible? I mean…” She sighed heavily, shaking her head. “I thought I was doing the right thing when I stole that information. I had this grand plan that I was going to find out what the senator was up to, and I was going to take him down. Now, I just don’t see any way to have a life. We can’t just hide out here forever.”
“We got that journal. We should know more soon.”
“But what if there’s not enough? I’m not naive. I know that we took a huge risk going into that lab. Our faces are probably on every wanted list right now. I just don’t see how we can walk away from this.”
“We’re safe for now,” I reassured her.
“Yeah, but for how long?” she asked, sitting up in bed and pulling the sheet up over her breasts. She brushed her hair out of her face and chewed on her lip. “What if Knight doesn’t find anything in that journal? What if this all goes nowhere?”
“Then we keep looking.”
“Yeah,” she snorted. “Except, you and I can’t just walk down the street anymore. What are the chances that Cap will want to send out more of his guys to find information on something that could go nowhere? We need something rock solid against this guy, and if we can’t find that, we have nothing to defend ourselves with. I’ll go to jail. You’ll go to jail. I’m just not sure it was worth it anymore.”
I nodded, but I didn’t agree. “It was all worth it. Every damn second of it was worth it. You know why?” She shook her head. “Because as cheesy as it sounds, all this led me to you. I haven’t felt as good as I have this past week in years. I never thought I could be this fucking happy. And I
