“I fell for you a long time ago, Jace.” I kissed his palm.
Jace leaned over and kissed me. “I’m pretty sure that I love you.”
“I’m pretty sure that I love you too,” I murmured against his lips.
Suffice it to say, it was a perfect visit.
But it wasn’t a perfect time.
Jace’s challenge was that LTZ’s fan base increased dramatically every day. He was basically living two lives with two full-time jobs. His public life consisted of the same crazy schedule of travel to shows, the shows themselves, interviews, fan events, press, and appearances. He and all the guys had full-time bodyguards. They were in high demand, and Jace was rarely alone.
His private life amounted to herding all of the LTZ cats to keep the PR momentum going.
So it became harder to find a stretch where he had more than one day off. My plans to join him in Amsterdam, Stockholm, and Frankfurt were thwarted by his schedule changes.
We managed super-quick overnights in Prague, Dubrovnik, Vienna, and Athens where I arrived during their evening show and he had to leave by mid-morning. Aside from our physical gratification, which was always epic, these hurried visits left me feeling emotionally empty because he had to leave so quickly after we reconnected.
Trying to keep a positive attitude, because none of the scheduling was Jace’s fault, I popped over to Milan to meet him after a show. I was excitedly waiting for him in his hotel suite when I his text came in.
Jace: Just got done, I’m sorry but management is here, they’re making me go to a party.
Alex: Ok but I’m already at the hotel.
Jace: I know, I’ll try to hurry.
Alex: xo
Jace: xo
Usually, he raced back to me as soon as humanly possible so we could have the whole night together. This time he didn’t. I must have fallen asleep because when I heard the door click open, daylight was already peeping through the blackout curtains. Jace tiptoed into the room and through the slits in my eyes I saw him undressing before crawling into bed with me.
“Are you awake.” Jace cuddled me close, his erection poking into the back of my thigh.
“Now I am.” I wiggled my ass back against his cock.
“I don’t have long. The bus leaves in three hours.” Jace kissed my neck, lifted my thigh over his, nudged his dick in between my legs, and then entered me from behind. “God, you feel good.”
A lump formed in my throat when he gripped my hips and pumped into me. No foreplay. No sweet nothings. We weren’t even looking at each other. This sex felt rushed and utilitarian. This was not what I signed up for.
The love bubble that I’d been living in was bursting.
When Jace reached around to pluck my nipple and then rub my clit, my body wasn’t reacting. I just wasn’t feeling it. I deserved to be more than a quick lay to him.
“Poppy, are you okay?” Jace stilled inside me, I could feel his breath at the back of my neck.
“I’m fine,” I whispered into the pillow, even though I wasn’t fine at all.
Jace pulled out and reached across my body to turn on the lamp. My eyes winced at the light and I put my hand up to shield the glare.
He tenderly stroked my cheek. “Something’s wrong.”
Tears pooled in my eyes. “I don’t want to be a vessel, Jace.”
“What do you mean?” He looked genuinely confused.
“It’s not cool for me to wait for hours in a hotel room when you’re at some stupid, goddamn party. Sex like this makes me feel like it’s just a release for you.” I sniffed through my emotions. “I mean, I could be anyone right now.”
Jace looked horrified. “No. Fuck no. Alex, you mean everything to me. I love you. You’re what I look forward to, you’re what keeps me going.”
“If you really love me so much, where were you all night?” My voice was small which made me mad at myself.
“I told you, I had to go to this stupid sponsor party, you’ve been at them with me before.” Jace cupped my face with his hands and kissed me. “There’s no one else. I wouldn’t do that to you. I just couldn’t fucking leave.”
Kissing me senseless wasn’t good enough, and I had to draw a line. “There’s this thing called texting. And manners. And consideration.”
We stared at each other. For too long. I was about ready to get up and get the hell out of there when all pretense of his defensiveness evaporated. “I’m sorry. You’re right. I was wrong.”
It was a start and he seemed genuinely sorry. “It’s just, I mean, I have a life too and I rearrange a lot so I can meet you. I do it because I love you. I want to be here with you. Just show me a little respect for my time too, rock star.”
“I won’t let it happen again, Poppy.” Jace touched his lips to mine and this time I was able to enjoy it. After all, the splendor of my naked drummer wasn’t something I planned to miss.
Our tongues danced and my tears dried, and once again being here with Jace was everything I wanted. He kissed down my neck and stroked my breasts, tracing my nipples with his thumbs and laving them tenderly one after the other. Moving down, he trailed his tongue across the muscles of my stomach and nibbled at my belly ring. Nuzzling my inner thighs, Jace pushed my legs open and lapped at my pussy and pressed his fingers inside. Sucking my clit in between his lips, he pulsed and licked and fucked me with his tongue until I came hard.
Kissing his way back up my body, my sexy drummer slid inside me more gently this time and we sipped from each other’s mouths languidly. Jace’s elbows bridged my head and his hands spanned my head, allowing his hips to
