All Kelsey did was shake her head and head to the stairwell, leaving me alone in the hall, save for a few other stragglers who took their good old time in leaving their classrooms. I watched her go, eyes studying the way she walked.
And her ass. I never could resist that ass. Watching her walk away was…not something I should enjoy so much, but I did.
I let her go. What else could I do?
I let her go, though my mind was on her every second of every hour until I saw her again during the next lab. This time, I said nothing to her. This time, I merely watched her. She was not acting like herself still, which worried me. I’d actually lost sleep over her, and I hated that she held this power over me.
When this lab let out, I let her go, not saying a single word to her. Unlike the previous class, however, I didn’t let her go alone. I followed her. A bit stalkery, yes, but I needed to prove my point.
What was my point?
I wasn’t giving up. I wanted to make amends. I needed to do everything I could to make this girl forgive me for past mistakes and make her believe that I wasn’t going to repeat them. Everything with Mel? Yeah, I fucked up, and if I could go back in a time machine and change what I did, I would. But everything with Kelsey? None of it was a lie. Not a single thing I said to her was a lie.
It wasn’t like I expected to fall for her, but that’s precisely what I did.
Love. I fucking loved this girl, and I wouldn’t give up until she realized it herself.
Kelsey was ten feet in front of me, heading down the wide walkway that led to the front doors of her dorm building, when she abruptly stopped and flipped to face me. Her lips wore a frown, and her brown eyes were cold.
“What are you doing, Levi?”
Levi. God, I’d give anything for this girl to call me Blue one more time.
“I thought it was obvious,” I said, both loving and hating the way my body reacted to being so close to hers. I’d give anything to be able to sweep her off her feet, pin her against the brick wall of that building, and show her just how badly I needed her. I would shower every inch of her skin with kisses, and when she thought she could take no more, I would keep going. She’d never had a lover like me before, and I’d never had a girl like her.
Couldn’t she see we were meant to be? We were as fated as fate could be when it came to humans.
She told me that I’d ruined her? Fuck that. She ruined me. She ruined me every which way. I hardly recognized myself anymore: quick to anger, almost obsessive, relentless. Kelsey had driven me mad.
“I’m following you,” I told her.
Kelsey eyed me up suspiciously. “Why?”
“Because you won’t talk to me.” The answers to the questions she asked were obvious; she should’ve known them without the need to speak.
“Don’t you think that if I wanted to talk to you, I would?” she posed her own question, taking a step toward me, closing the little bit of distance that sat between us. Her hands practically curled around the straps of her backpack, so hard her knuckles were white. “Don’t you think that if I wanted to see your face, I would make time to?”
I said nothing, because I knew nothing I could say would make her see reason. Not yet. She was too blinded by whatever rage lingered…although she still seemed off. She acted tough like usual, but behind that front, I saw it—the sad girl behind the mask.
“I don’t want to see you, or talk to you, or even be in the same room as you,” Kelsey went on, her words hurled like knives. Knives whose sharp edges stung, but I was a stronger man than she thought. Nothing she could say would make me— “If I wanted to get back with you, don’t you think I would’ve stopped myself from sleeping with someone else?”
I took back my earlier statement. That one…that question made me stop. That question made all of my thoughts vanish. Never before had I been so dumb-founded, so shocked, so…so ticked off.
“What?” I managed to say, speaking the word as if it was a swearword. What equaled fuck in that single-word sentence.
“Oh, yeah. I fucked someone else. Some rich boy,” Kelsey went on, and even though I knew she was saying it so blatantly to purposefully hurt me, to get me to stop chasing her, even though I knew I shouldn’t let her words get to me, they did. Of course they did. “Some rich boy with a fat wallet and an even bigger dick.”
My lips thinned, and it was hard for me to breathe. Suddenly the air tasted so stale and stagnant.
Kelsey shrugged, her voice raising, allowing every other student walking by to hear each word she said, “So what now, Levi? You still going to follow me around like a lost puppy, or are you finally going to realize that I never want to see your face again?” When I said nothing, when I only stared at her, she added, “I could go fuck a few more people, if that’ll help get it into your thick skull.”
I couldn’t believe what she was saying.
“What?” Kelsey plowed on. “Just thought I’d offer, since I’m so nice and all. Any one of your friends who you’d like to see me ride? Might as well tape it, since there’s already one out there. I could be the
