- If you promise to stay calm, I'll tell you everything I know. - he said in a serious voice. - Do you believe you can hear me without having a seizure?
I took a deep breath. I wasn't sure if I could control myself. Since the accident, I had those panic attacks. Keilan said I got possessed after a while and tried to kill whoever was in front of me. Several times I assaulted him without even knowing what he was doing.
- I don't know, Alec! - I said frustrated. - I can't control those panic attacks that get aggressive.
I breathed deeply and stood up leaning back on the pillows again.
- I got that thing after the accident that almost killed me. I'm not sure, but every time I panic, it happens.
- Okay, but I need you to trust me and try to keep quiet while I explain everything. - he said holding my hand. - Can you do it?
I frowned when I felt the touch on my hand. He made circular movements with the thumb of both hands. That was very relaxing and I felt comfortable.
- I think so. - I whispered.
- Oh, great! - he said smiling, but then his face became serious. - I've been reading the letter my brother sent Keilan to get him to turn me in. Alec was intrigued by the fact that Aideen was no longer a virgin and showed an unassuming behavior. He thought she was in love with another man and decided to send Bruce to Inverness to find out your story.
- Not that one! - I whispered with a face. - He figured it out, didn't he?
- Yes, but before Bruce came back, Aideen told us about the day of the attack and his going to the convent. - he said. - Neither of you knows you were in jail for a long time before you were sent to Gretna Green as Ravenna said you had.
- So they think I'm in the convent?
- Yeah, but at this point, Aideen thinks she's dead, since Bruce is back with this information. - he explained with a smile. - His plan to make Ravenna think he'd fallen on that cliff had really worked. She hadn't told her sisters and told them that you'd been sent to a convent.
- Aideen must be desolate! - I whispered.
- Yeah, she is, and from what Alistair said, she cried her death a lot.
- I'm so sorry, but it was necessary.
I sighed with a hiccup of regret. Lowering my head, I closed my eyes. It was necessary to sacrifice my life for theirs. It was painful to know that Aideen was distressed to think that I had died.
- I know that and I think it was really the best way out, but now it is no longer relevant. - he said with a dark smile. - I believe your life is much more valuable now than you think.
- What do you mean?
- For Ravenna, it's no relief that you're dead because of what she's done. She is not afraid that Alistair or my father will know of the orchestrated attack on Aideen, but what you represented against them and on our behalf.
- I still don't get it. - I said confused. - If Ravenna wasn't afraid that I would go to Brice, why then did she try to silence me?
- Because she's the daughter of Phillipe de Lancaster.
- What's that? What's that?
The tent began to spin and my air seemed to be missing.
- Calm down! - he said. - I can explain everything Alistair told me, but you'll have to calm down. Breathe! Breathe!
I did what he asked and took a deep breath. Alec stood up and picked up a jug that was filled with fresh water. Filling a glass, he gave it to me.
- Drink from wandering. - he said sitting next to me again. - May I continue?
- Yeah. - I responded by taking a deep breath after a sip.
- Yeah, well! When he was younger, Ravenna lived in the English court. She did not have the title of Duchess and much less was he removed by her parents.
- No?
- No. That title was given by Phillipe at the height of his Ravenna affair.
- What's that? What's that?
- Phillipe, who at the time was a prince, had an affair with Ravenna, who despite being of the court, did not possess noble blood. They intended to get married, but as the future king of England, he needed someone with a title.
- So you gave it to Ravenna?
- Yes, she became a duchess, but the king still didn't like the idea of having Ravenna as a daughter-in-law and forbid Phillipe to meet her. - he took a break to drink some of the water he had put in a glass for himself. - They continued to hide, but Ravenna was ambitious and convinced him to marry her. That's how she got pregnant with you.
I was mortified, looking at him like he was in a trance. It seemed to live a daily nightmare from my birth.
- So I'm...
- A princess? Yes.
- But if my mother is married to Phillipe, then she couldn't marry Loch.
Alec sighed, scratching his neck.
- This is the part where your life begins. - he answered. - You and your sisters.
I took a deep breath preparing for more crazy and unreasonable information.
- When William found out that they were still together and that they had married, he went to Ravenna to
