They continued to kiss passionately. Jessie pulled his t-shirt out his pants. All she wanted to do was touch him and feel his naked skin underneath her fingers. Jessie got her wish. She ran her hands up and down his back. His lips traveled down the side of her neck, and when his teeth grazed that soft spot, Jessie couldn't help but dig her fingernails into his back.
She automatically pressed her body into his. They were so close but nowhere near close enough. Brian managed to take off her jacket and it fell to her feet. He was just as on fire for her as she was for him. All he wanted to do was drive into her over and over again. He somehow managed to unbutton her shirt. It went tumbling to the floor, too. Jessie felt the cool air on her hot skin.
Brian pushed her bra straps down her arms, continuing to move her bra down until it was low enough that her smooth caramel breasts were completely exposed to him. His kisses travelled lower until the next thing Jessie knew, Brian had taken a nipple into his mouth. The sensation was so incredible it made her want to jump out of her skin. He kneaded one naked breast while he hungrily devoured the other. Jessie wound her fingers tightly into his hair and pulled him even closer to her.
Jessie was feeling sensations within her body that had been dormant for way too long and now she was ready to explode.
The second Brian touched her she felt her inner walls pulse and clench. That dull ache turned into a raging throb. It wouldn’t take anything for her body to explode. She was so wet that her lacy panties were virtually useless. They were soaked.
When Brian moved to love on her other breast, Jessie released his hair and managed to slip her hands inside his pants and past the barrier of his briefs. She wrapped her hands around his steely naked flesh and gently squeezed. His tongue stopped swirling and pulling on her nipple for just a moment to catch his breath. This was heaven.
Jessie squeezed him again and began to stroke him as if they were making love. He pressed into her hands as if he were buried deeply within her womanly walls. His pre-come spilled all over her hands. It was too much for him. If he didn’t stop her, he’d release all over her when he’d rather spill his seed inside of her.
“Mmmm…this feels so good. Finally, please make love to me.” Her voice broke him out of his sexual haze. He’d only intended to kiss her. It took everything within him not to take the two extra steps, lay her down on the bed and make love to her until they couldn’t breathe. But he couldn’t. God he wanted to, but he couldn’t hurt Brigitte. He pulled away. Both of them were breathing hard.
“Jessie, I would give anything to make love to you right now. But, I can’t…we can’t.”
She looked confused, “Why not?”
“Brigitte is here. I can’t do this to her.”
Jessie felt as if the wind had been knocked out of her. She blurted out what had been on the tip of her tongue for a long time, “I’m in love with you.”
Brian touched his forehead to hers. He wanted to yell out to her that he was in love with her, too. But, instead he stayed silent. Then, he kissed her forehead, “Jessie if things were different. If I’d made different choices there would be no space between us…emotionally or physically.”
Jessie started to unwind her body from his. Her legs felt boneless and wobbly.
He bent down to give her the shirt that had fallen to the floor. She’d laid her heart and body out for him and he said…no. Brian saw the pain in her eyes…and the tears.
He raked his hands through his hair, “Jessie, I’m so sorry. I never meant to hurt you.”
Jessie hid her body behind her shirt and she whispered, “You should probably go.”
She couldn’t look him in the eyes as she stepped away from the door. Brian didn’t want to leave her like this. He reached out to her and her voice broke, “Please leave, please.”
Brian was dying on the inside, too. How was he supposed to fix this? He looked at her one last time, opened the door, and walked out.
This was the first time Jessie thought maybe it would have been better to not have made it back to the compound.
Chapter 24
Brian was back in his room. Luckily Brigitte was still in Michael and Téa’s room. He needed a minute, not just to clean up because he knew he smelled like sex. But also to process what just happened between him and Jessie. How was he supposed to pretend like his world hadn’t just been turned upside down?
He cared for Brigitte but he loved Jessie. He knew it with everything within him. All the barriers and everything he tried to erect to keep from hurting her didn’t work. He still ended up hurting her and still might end up losing the one thing he was the most afraid of losing….their friendship.
A half hour later, Brian still hadn’t figure out a way to fix his problems with Jessie. He was drained but it was time to head over to Michael and Téa’s and get Brigitte. He knocked on the door and Michael answered it with a huge smile. “I wasn’t expecting to see you until quite a bit later big brother.”
Michael’s smile quickly faded. “You okay?” It was obvious that things hadn’t gone well with Jessie and that Brian was in pain.
“I’m fine.” He walked past Michael into their suite.
Brigitte ran up and hugged him, “I was so worried about you, Brian.”
Brian couldn’t even muster up the energy to hug her back. “I’m fine…considering. I hope that we have escaped the worst of it. Brigitte, we
