And to my writing partner Michaela angela Davis, sisterhood is a strong, precious, spiritual, and powerful place. It is where we have lived together to tell this story.
To Liron, thank you for being so brilliant, inspiring, and most of all a true friend and wonderful human being. Thank you for encouraging me to listen to my songs and more than anything for reigniting me with my music—that’s everything.
And finally, but firstly and always, to my family of fans, there really are no words, but I will try. Many don’t understand how real our relationship is, but for me, it is the realest I have ever known. You have literally given me life and saved my life time and time again. You can never know how I cherish every letter, poem, and book you’ve ever given me, every video, poster, and piece of merch you’ve made for me, and every single tattoo you’ve put on your body. Thank you for crying with me, thank you for crying for me. Thank you for cheering me on and cheering me up. This book is for YOU, my truth is for you, and I hope it inspires you to live in yours.
SONG CREDITS
“Alone in Love” written by Mariah Carey and Ben Margulies © 1990 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and We Belong Together Music & Been Jammin’ Music (BMI), administered by ABKCO Music, Inc.
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“All in Your Mind” written by Mariah Carey and Ben Margulies © 1990 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and We Belong Together Music & Been Jammin’ Music (BMI), administered by ABKCO Music, Inc.
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“Outside” written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff © 1997 Universal Tunes (ASCAP) on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC (ASCAP), administered by Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC & Kobalt Songs Music Publishing (ASCAP), administered by Kobalt Songs Music Publishing
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“Anytime You Need a Friend” written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff © 1993 Universal Tunes (ASCAP) on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization & Wallyworld Music (ASCAP) and WC Music Corp. (ASCAP), all rights on behalf of Wallyworld Music administered by WC Music Corp.
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“All I Want for Christmas Is You” written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff © 1994 Universal Tunes (ASCAP) on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC (ASCAP) and Tamal Vista Music (ASCAP), administered by Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC & Kobalt Songs Music Publishing (ASCAP), administered by Kobalt Songs Music Publishing
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“Sunflowers for Alfred Roy” written by Mariah Carey and Lionel Cole © 2002 Universal Tunes (ASCAP) on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization & Songs Of Universal, Inc. (ASCAP) on behalf of Rye Songs
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“Bye Bye” written by Mariah Carey, Tor Hermansen, Mikkel Eriksen, and Johnta Austin © 2008 Universal Tunes (ASCAP) on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization & Sony/ATV Music Publishing (UK) Limited and EMI Music Publishing LTD, administered by Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC (ASCAP)
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“White Rabbit” written by Grace Slick © 1994 Irving Music, Inc. (BMI) on behalf of Copperpenny Music
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“Far from the Home I Love” written by Jerry Bock and Sheldon Harnick © 1964 Trio Music Company (BMI), administered by BMG Rights Management (US) LLC, Mayerling Productions (BMI), a Division of Rodgers and Hammerstein, a Concord Company, Alley Music Corp. (BMI) & Bock IP LLC (BMI)
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“The Art of Letting Go” written by Mariah Carey and Rodney Jerkins © 2013 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization & Rodney Jerkins Productions Inc. (BMI), administered by BMG Rights Management (US) LLC
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“Petals” written by Mariah Carey, James Harris, Terry Lewis, and James Wright © 2000 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization & Kobalt Songs Music Publishing (ASCAP), administered by Kobalt Songs Music Publishing
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“Looking In” written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff © 1995 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC (ASCAP) and Tamal Vista Music (ASCAP), administered by Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC & Kobalt Songs Music Publishing (ASCAP), administered by Kobalt Songs Music Publishing
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“Can’t Take That Away (Mariah’s Theme)” written by Mariah Carey and Diane Warren © 1999 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization & Realsongs (ASCAP)
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“Close My Eyes” written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff © 1997 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC (ASCAP), administered by Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC & Kobalt Songs Music Publishing (ASCAP), administered by Kobalt Songs Music Publishing
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“Make It Happen” written by Mariah Carey, Robert Clivilles, and David Cole © 1994 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization & WC Music Corp. (ASCAP) and David Cole Pub Designee (ASCAP), all rights on behalf of David Cole Pub Designee administered by WC Music Corp.
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“I Am Free” written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff © 1995 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC (ASCAP), and Tamal Vista Music (ASCAP), administered by Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC & Kobalt Songs Music Publishing (ASCAP), administered by Kobalt Songs Music Publishing
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“Hero” written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff © 1993 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and Beyondidolization & WC Music Corp. (ASCAP) and Wallyworld Music (ASCAP), all rights on behalf of Wallyworld Music administered by WC Music Corp.
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“Always Be My Baby (Mr. Dupri Mix)” written by Mariah Carey, Manuel Seal, James Harris, Terry Lewis, and Jermaine Dupri ©1996 Universal Tunes (ASCAP), on behalf of itself and
