“Ummm….I can’t remember.”
“Have you been going to daycare?”
“No, mommy said Ms.Brenda doesn’t care about us, and we haven’t been in months.”
“That lying bitch,” I mumbled. I’ve been giving Aniyah money for daycare, and they weren’t even going. Hell, I just gave her a payment last week even though she hasn’t let me see my kids. I can’t believe how evil Aniyah was being, and it wasn’t even just affecting me, but the kids directly. Who just leaves their kids in front of a door without warning? I know she called me, but the kids were probably already here. I didn’t stay home last night because I wanted to spend time with my family before Eric left.
“How long have you been out here?” I asked, I finally got them to stop crying.
“Ummm, the last time I saw a clock, it said 6:05 am.”
“Y’all be out here for six hours!” I yelled. I scared Ariana and she probably thought I was mad at her. She started crying again, and that made Asia cry. “Sorry, baby. I didn’t mean to yell. I’m not mad at you, I’m mad at your mother.” I tried to soothe them. I got my keys out and opened the door to let them in. This was about to be my new normal because Aniyah was never getting these kids back, and she better stay clear because I swear I’m going to body that bitch the next time I see.
36. Raquel
“Right here,” I told my Uber driver as he pulled up in front of Wayne’s building. I was in the area again and decided to stop for a minute. I got out of the car and walked into the building, taking slow steps. I don’t know why I was so nervous. Maybe it’s because a lot has changed within the past year. Going back to Florida for my junior year was different for me, and I was becoming so homesick. The time I spent home and being around my family did something to me, and I was missing it. While mama and Bre were working on their relationship, I decided to work on my relationship with my mother as well. I expressed to her how growing up with so many responsibilities pushed me away from her because I started to resent her.
I know she didn’t mean any harm, but I felt like she was forcing me to grow up too fast. So we’ve been working on repairing our relationship, and things have been well. I also wanted to be close to Bre and Nelle since Jemar wasn’t really around. She needed all of the support she could get, and I could since I had money saved up. So during winter break, I decided not to go back to FAMU and transferred to Morgan State. I still wanted a little distance between my family, but I was only like forty-five minutes away and could always drive home. After ending things with Antonio, I was able to think about my life and reevaluate some things. I was ready to leave the escort business, but before having my epiphany, I signed on for two more years. I was hoping to find a client like Antonio, who would hold me over for the last year. So far, I’ve been meeting men in their thirties who have been a pain the ass. And speaking of Antonio, we speak every now and then and occasionally meet up for coffee. Last time we talked, he told me how his now ex-wife was arrested for fraud and identity theft. He was loving his life now and mentioned that he had become a grandfather for the second time. I was happy for him and looked forward to my new found freedom. I was nowhere near where I wanted to be, but I was working on it. And being around Antonio also opened up some old feelings for me, so that’s why I was here. I hope I’m doing the right thing. I’m trying to follow my heart
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Knock-Knock-Knock
“Bout time fool, I thought you were just grabbing some papers and beers.” He said as he snatched open the door. He was surprised to see me, and I understood why since I ghosted him after trying to rekindle our relationship. I wasn't sure if that something I really wanted to pursue and didn't know to communicate that because I know he was tired of my games.
“Hey, can I come in?”
“Uh, yeah….” Roon said as if he wasn’t sure, but moved to the side to let me in. I walked in slowly, and as soon as he closed the door, I pushed him against the door.
“Rah, what you doing?” He looked at me, dead in the eyes. Damn, he was so fine. How could I avoid these feelings for him all of these years?
“I don’t know what I’m doing, but I know I want this.” I leaned in to kiss him. He didn’t initially kiss me back, but then damn near shoved his tongue down my throat. I missed this. This feeling. His feeling.
“What we doing?” Roon asked as he broke away from our kiss. He seemed annoyed but aroused at the same time.
“Whatever you want,” I smirked then grabbed the back of his head to restart our kiss. I was wrong to end things because of my own selfish reasons, but after seeing him starting to finally move on, I was hurt. I thought he would always chase me, but I was wrong, and I was missing this. However, I knew Roon wasn’t chasing me anymore, it was probably my turn to chase him. And I would no matter where it may lead me. I want him and everything that comes with him. I just hope I don’t end up regretting this.
37. Jemar
December 2015
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