She went with Kenna but spent the evening watching her husband with the boys. The way he laughed with them brought a smile to her lips. Even when he had to scold Douglas for tugging at the dog’s ears, Cameron was gentle and offered the lad a hug afterward.
He was a good man. A tender, compassionate man. A safe man.
She would tell herself this over and over, until her mind and her heart accepted it as truth.
When the music was over, she headed for the stairs, glad the day was done. Cameron and the boys were gone, but she found them upstairs where he was tucking them into their bed. Brutus the dog made a circle and folded himself onto the rug at the foot of the bed.
“Are you going to bed?” he asked when he saw her watching.
“Yes. Unless you needed something.”
“Nay. Go on. I’ll see you soon.”
Soon. She swallowed and wrestled with her feelings of anticipation, excitement, and dread. Inside their room, she closed her eyes and let out a breath.
“It will be fine. Stop being a goose,” she told herself.
She was still brushing out her hair when he came into their room. She hadn’t had time to get into bed. Instead, she stood nervously before the fire in nothing but her shift. While she’d been waiting for him to arrive, in her mind she’d played through ways of enticing him to bed.
Unfortunately, what she knew of seduction wouldn’t have filled the tip of a thimble. Now that he was here, those few ideas she’d been considering fled in a flood of anxiety. She wasn’t brave enough to try tempting him, even if she knew how to do such a thing.
She crossed her arms to cover the peaks of her nipples, certain they showed through the thin fabric. Upon seeing him, her nipples had tightened all on their own.
He closed the chamber door and stood there gazing at her, his mouth slightly open. His hand hovered in midair as if he’d been frozen. Only his eyes moved, starting at her bare feet and rising slowly to her loose hair.
He swallowed and took a step closer, then another, until he was standing directly in front of her. His chest pressed up against her crossed arms. She had no choice but to drop her protective stance.
“I’m sorry I didn’t knock. I interrupted you.” He didn’t look the least bit sorry as he studied her face, his gaze settling on her lips.
Her tongue darted out to moisten them, and his pupils flared.
“Are you?” she asked coyly, remembering her training on how to flirt. “Sorry?”
“No. Not even a wee bit,” he admitted and shook his head. A slow, mischievous smile took over his handsome face. “In fact, I’m planning to be here earlier and earlier each night, to be sure to catch you just like this.” He laughed, and she laughed with him.
“Soon we would be going to bed at noon,” she suggested.
“I don’t think I would mind that overmuch.” His smile faded away again.
The heat sizzled between them, drawing her in.
He is kind. He is tender. He will not hurt me. She repeated the words like an oath, praying her body and mind would be at peace with what she both hoped and feared would happen next.
As he leaned down, she went up on her tiptoes to meet him. His lips touched hers with a tenderness she’d never known but somehow expected from this man. Everything about him—despite his hard muscles and intimidating size—was tenderness incarnate.
His large hand cradled the back of her head as he tilted her so he could deepen the kiss. His tongue danced with hers, and she reached out to steady herself. Her hands gripped his shirt. His other arm wrapped around her waist, offering support for her wobbly legs.
This was heaven. This was how it was supposed to be between a husband and a wife. Pleasure and softness. Hazy rapture and warm smiles.
When he pulled her up into his arms, she gasped with surprise and an unexpected flood of happiness. He set her on the bed and took a step back. Then he reached for the buckle of his weapons belt. She gasped again, though not with happiness. But innate fear.
A memory assaulted her of another man removing his belt with dreadful purpose.
Cameron stepped away and raised his hands. “It’s fine, lass. I mean ye no harm.”
She knew that, but she realized she’d instinctively pulled back and was crouched on the other side of the bed, ready to escape. All the glorious fogginess from a moment ago lifted, and they were just two people—no, two strangers in a room together.
“I’m sorry,” she said and slipped under the blankets. Her heart and her breath were still heaving. Please, not again.
“Maybe I should stay on the floor tonight,” he offered, and didn’t give her a chance to argue before grabbing a blanket and doing just that.
She’d run him off with her fit. What must he think?
She touched her lips where they still sizzled from his kiss. She needed to get over this panic so she could be with Cameron properly.
Before he gave up on her completely.
…
Bloody hell, Cam thought as he tossed and turned for possibly the hundredth time that night. It wasn’t just the discomfort of the hard floor that made him irritable. It was that he’d taken another step backward with Mari.
She’d recoiled in fear because he’d taken things too far. He’d told himself earlier to go slow. But then he’d seen her in her shift, the light behind her showcasing her shadowed perfection through the thin fabric.
There was no such thing as slow after that. He’d wanted her and had stupidly rushed to take what he’d wanted.
He’d asked her to trust him, but now he didn’t think he could trust himself. What kind of message was he sending her? She’d enjoyed their
