“Fuck. I can’t win with you today.”
“I don’t want to fight, James.”
“Then stop nagging me to damn death. If I wanted my ass chewed, I’d go home to Ruthie, but I came here to you.” I move in, crowding her space. “Kiss your man, Lex.”
Her lips part, and I smell the chocolate she was eating when I first got here. “Are you my man?”
“Yeah, babe. I’m your man.”
Arms going around my neck, she launches herself into my arms and cries into my chest. Fuck me. I hold her close, breathing her in. We stay like this for what seems like hours. Me just holding her, giving her light touches, and gentle kisses until she calms down. Her tears stop and my heart cracks because I know I will never be able to give her what she wants. What she deserves. A man who can devote his all to her. I’ll try like hell to be that man for her, but I have my club. I have my wife and daughter.
She’ll never be first. Not until I get my shit straight.
“Go for a ride with me.”
Alexa swipes her thumbs under her eyes. “Is that a good idea?”
“It’s dark. Come on.”
She smiles big and my heart skips two beats. There’s never been anything prettier than when she smiles at me. “There’s my pretty girl.”
“I’ll change.”
“Wear your boots.”
“Okay.”
Alexa and I ride through downtown Charleston. Her arms wrapped around me. Her tits smashed into my back. I squeeze her knee when we roar toward the clubhouse. “I need to make a stop.”
I’ve not brought her back here since the shit that happened with Lion. Not since I became Prez. I pull through the gate and give Grudge a chin lift. He shakes his head but keeps his mouth shut when Alexa takes off her helmet.
“This won’t take long.” I lead her inside, I motion for Nickel to follow, and we go straight to my office ignoring the whispers and stares. Let them fucking talk as long as they don’t say shit outside of these walls or to my wife. Alexa needs to know that I trust her. My club needs to realize she’s part of my life.
“Sit.” I look to Alexa, and she drops her ass into my chair. I stand behind her and Nickel sits across from us. “What’s the word on the Dry Ridge Sinners?”
“They’re stirring up trouble with Grim and his boys in Kentucky. Heard Rebel is involved with Lil’ Bit.”
“Not our concern. With Lion gone, it looks like they’ve got other interests to keep them occupied.”
“I agree. Anything else?” he grins at Alexa, and I want to knock that smug smirk off his face.
“Eyes off her tits. Alexa is pregnant.”
Nickel whistles. “You don’t waste no time, do you?”
“When I’m out of town I want eyes on her. Got me?”
“I hear ya, man. I’ll look in on her.”
“Good and I don’t need to tell you that this stays between us. Don’t need Ruthie catching shot of it and pulling one of her stunts.”
“Cool. Cool. Always a pleasure, Alexa.” He winks at her, and I want to gouge his eyes out. Nickel sees himself out before I knock his head off his shoulders.
I spin Alexa around in my chair bracing my palms on the arms of the black leather armrests. “You’re leaving again?”
“Can’t say for sure, but I’m trying to work out a deal for some extra income. Got a baby on the way. Shit ain’t cheap.”
“This your way of saying we’re in this together?”
I shouldn’t fill her head with false hope, but where Alexa is concerned, I can’t seem to think straight. All I want is to be with her and soak up the light that shines so bright within her. She’s good and sweet. And the demon inside me is drawn to her like a moth to a flame wanting to possess and control her in every way.
“I’m saying I gave you my word, and I intend to keep it. I’m working out the rest. You want my honesty. There it is.”
“I hear you.”
“I know it’s not enough for you, but I’m getting there, Lex. I’m trying.”
“That’s all I want.”
“Good.” I dip my head to kiss her. The instant her tongue touches mine I go rock hard like a damn schoolboy seeing naked tits for the first time.
“Now what?”
“Now I’m going to bend you over this desk and fuck you.”
“You think so. What if I say no?”
“Then I’ll try to convince you.”
“And if I still say no?”
“You planning on denying me of what’s mine?”
The left corner of her mouth twitches. “I’m still deciding.”
“How about why you think about it I do this.” I drop to my knees and jerk her pants down. Alexa spreads her thighs for me opening the gates to my personal heaven. I devour her pussy like a man enjoying his last meal.
Chapter Nineteen
“Come on. You haven’t done anything fun in forever.” Rochelle pouts at me. “I can’t believe you actually came over. You always want me to come to your apartment.” She rolls her eyes. “Mom probably thinks you don’t like her cooking or something.”
“It’s not that. Your mom’s cooking is fine. I’ve just had a lot going on. I missed too much school where I had that stomach bug that wouldn’t go away, so I had to talk to my mom to have her withdraw me and sign me up for this online course so I can get a diploma.”
“You talked to your mom, how did that go?”
“Not great, but she came through for me for once.”
“That’s good.”
“So who is throwing this party and why should I go?”
“One of Colter’s friends. And no, it’s not Tanner though he will be there. He still thinks you’re hot.”
“Fine.” I don’t tell her that I only came over to see if her dad was home. He’s been gone more often than not. I know he’s negotiating a deal to bring in more money. I guess Lion made some
