I smiled as I thought of my son. He has fucking made me proud every day of his life.
“I was blessed, Brother, to have him in my life.”
Viper sat quietly for a moment; I could tell he was wanting to ask me something but wasn't sure if he should.
“Go ahead Brother, I can tell you’re wanting to ask something.”
“Did you ever think about claiming another Old Lady or getting married again and having more kids? If that's stepping on toes, Dog, forget I asked the question.”
I looked at him wondering if I really wanted to talk about how I had been feeling lately. I'd always thought sharing one’s feelings was for women. But since Viper and I became friends, that belief was changing. I knew if I told him my deepest darkest secrets the man would never breathe a word to anyone about them.
“You know I always thought only pussies talked about their feelings. But seriously Brother, I think I could do with having someone to hash out what's been bouncing around in my head lately.”
“Brother, I'm here for you for anything. I'll tell you something, before coming here I didn't talk to anyone about anything personal. I felt like an island. I had to be on watch constantly and never allowed myself to get really close to any of the Brothers. And Dog, Rogue is a good guy and around my age, but I couldn't do anything to jeopardize my family and that included getting close to a Brother.”
He took a bite of his biscuits and gravy and washed it down with a drink of coffee.
“Now what I'm about to say next makes me sound like one of those fucking pussy men. I've always been a little bit envious of the closeness Reb and Pred have. They know that they will be there for each other for anything, and I mean anything. While I know the Brothers here will do that for me, there's still a difference in trusting someone enough to be a confidant; and Dog, I feel that with you.”
Damn, I swear at times the man had to be related to Seer. It's like he could see into your mind and know what you were thinking.
“Funny you should say that, been feeling the exact same way about you, Brother. Yeah, I've had all these men, my Brothers, around most of my life. Hell, Hoss is only two years younger than me, but while we've always been close friends as well as brothers, we never really confided in each other a lot growing up. I think part of that was because Beth was my best friend until the day she died, and I talked to her about everything.”
I took a bite off a piece of bacon and pushed the eggs around on my plate.
“For the last few years, I'd been feeling real restless and I couldn't figure out what was causing it until I met you and your Old Ladies, then it hit me what it was.”
He arched an eyebrow toward me, “You're a man who is lonely, wanting a good woman and possibly more children.”
“How the fuck you do that shit? Are you sure you aren't kin to Seer? I swear you gotta be kin to him.”
Viper laughed lightly, “Nah, I've just had to be very observant my whole life. I’ve learned how to read people pretty well.”
“Damn, I'll say so.”
I took a drink of my coffee, grimaced and shuddered. I fucking hated cold coffee. Viper grinned at me; he knew what had caused my shudder. I stood up with my cup in my hand.
“Gonna get fresh coffee, you want another cup?”
He held up his cup to me, “Black.”
I nodded at him then crossed over to the coffee pot to get fresh cups of the brew for us. I glanced around and was amazed there still wasn't anyone other than us in here. Usually, the room was packed. I placed his cup down in front of him as I sat back down at the table.
“So, do you think I'm too old to even be thinking about this shit?”
He coughed.
“Too old? What the fuck you mean?”
“Hell, Viper. I'm forty-three years old. Isn't that too old to be thinking about starting all over with the whole woman and possibly kids’ thing?
“Fuck no, I don't. You're two years older than I am.”
I inclined my head at him.
“You think I'm too old for it?”
I shook my head, “No, I don't. But you make that fucking shit look easy, plus you and your Old Ladies have been together forever. Beth died twenty years ago this year, Brother. Other than screwing club girls, I haven't been with another woman. Not sure I even know how to have a relationship anymore. Add in the fact I don’t even know where the hell I would find a woman. It won't be any of those girls that come for Friday night parties, I'll tell you that for sure.”
“Agree with you there, Brother. Most of those girls just want two things. They either want dick, or they want to try to bag themselves a biker. Not sure what to tell you about where to find a woman. I haven't really looked at another woman for years. Yeah, sometimes I'll see a woman and think she's attractive, but it's more in an abstract kind of way.”
“I hear you. When Beth was alive, I don't think I ever looked at another woman as being attractive. It just never crossed my mind to look at other women that way. Speaking of girls, I think I'm gonna call an impromptu Church tomorrow before the barbecue. Not gonna make it mandatory, I just got to thinking that soon we'll be voting in more Brothers and with only four girls here for them, that will be spreading them a little too thin.”
He tilted his head at me while I took another drink of coffee.
“You know, Vip. I haven't wanted to fuck a woman for the
