“I do not smell, thank you very much,” she says. “Guys will line up down the block to get with this.” She grins, looking around. When her gaze falls on me, her smile widens. “You. You have one of the Novans yet? I don’t remember you. You’re new, right?”
“Yes,” I say quietly.
“I can’t hear you.” She puts her hand behind her ear and leans toward me. “What did you say?”
“Yes.”
“Yes what?”
“Yes, I’m new.”
She eyes me. "So you haven't had one yet? What position you like? I can tell you which of them is the best at it, so your first time is a good one." She laughs and nudges the girl beside her. "Did you see the look on her face? She looks terrified! Girl, you aren't going to swallow your tongue, are you? Swallow cock instead, that's my advice. You don't know if you can take one yet up the hoo-ha, just suck him 'til he's ready to blow, and have him just jam the tip in. There you go."
The others all laugh. My face has to be bright red. I hate that she’s talking like this. At least the Novan, whoever he was, hadn’t been like this.
"You aren't going to cry, are you, darling?" She crosses over, leaving her friends behind, and she sits next to me. "I'm just trying to give you a bit of advice, that's all. I mean, you're here on Kuria. We're here for one reason. You know that, right?"
“I know that,” I say, staring at my plate. “I…”
“You what?”
“I don’t need your advice.”
She holds up her hands. “Hey, fine with me. I’m just trying to help. Not all of us are so… ah… open to what they have to offer. I thought I could help, but if you can’t even talk to us about sex, you maybe shouldn’t have come.”
I force myself to look at her and do a double-take. I was so fixed on her face and her loud mouth when she came in that I didn’t even notice her clothes. She’s walking around in lingerie that leaves nothing to the imagination.
I shift my gaze back to my plate.
“Ah, no, don’t be embarrassed, sugar. I love my body. I’m comfortable in my own skin. Maybe if you weren’t such a tight ass, you would be able and willing to experience everything the fellas have to offer. You’re new, and I get that, but the sooner you appreciate what they have to offer with their giant cocks of theirs, the better. Or is that the issue? You’re worried you’ll bleed? That it’ll hurt? Sometimes, pain can be pleasure, and if you don’t believe me, well, that’s on you. But if you want some advice—”
“I already said I don’t,” I mumble.
Either she doesn’t hear me, or she doesn’t care. “You might as well try everything at least once. It’s a good way to enjoy things, to enjoy life. Test things out, experimentation, all of that. Explore your body, explore one of theirs, another, another… as many as you want. They’re excellent sharers.” She throws back her head and laughs. “Or do you not like to share?”
“I…”
“You sure don’t talk much.” She tilts her head to the side, her grin wide and lopsided. “Some guys like that, whether the guys are on Earth or here on Kuria. So that’s a plus for you, or is it because you have a small mouth? How’s your gag reflex?”
Appalled, I stand. My face has to be bright red. I'm trembling, completely mortified. Those around us have stopped talking. In fact, it seems like none of the ladies in the entire café are talking. Everyone has turned toward us, listening.
“I don’t know who you are,” I start, but of course she has to interrupt me.
“I’m Shawnta.” She brushes her dark hair back over her shoulders, and I swear she pushes her chest out more.
“But I am not going to discuss this with you.”
“Why not?” she calls as I walk over to the spot where the trays go. I hardly ate at all, but my stomach is churning too hard right now for me to be able to try to eat anything at the moment.
My mouth opens and shuts, and I try to think of something to say that will get her to leave me alone and not bother me ever again, but no words come. I've always been this way. Painfully shy. Hours, sometimes even days or weeks later, I'll think of the best response, but by then, it's far too late.
But silence can be a response. I start to walk away.
"Hurrying back to your room because you can't wait to use my advice? Ready to spread your legs? The Novans like to try all kinds of positions. Are you ready for them all?"
I grimace and rush away. It takes me a few moments to retrace my steps and find the stairs. Once I reach my room, I’m not even sure how to open the door. There’s no knob like we have on Earth.
A guard marches over and doesn’t say a word. He inserts his fingers into a hole, and then the door opens.
I nod, grateful but unable to talk. Quickly, I rush inside and close the door before flopping onto my bed.
I have to get over myself. I’m here for a reason, and I won’t forget that. One day, I will be carrying an alien baby. As much as I would love to, who wants to bet that Shawnta will be the one to get pregnant first out of the two of us?
3
Adir
It’s been quite some time since I had been with Shawnta. I had only been with her the one time, and I think about it often—the sex, not so much her. It had been rushed our time together, and we hadn’t talked like she said we would. Mostly, that was because of me and my being paranoid that I would be caught. Not that I think Shawnta would have wanted to talk. She was
