“No it’s fine. I’ll be fine.” She just looks at me unconvinced.
“Honestly I’m fine. Anyway I can take care of myself. I dig around in my bag and pull a small spray can out. I wiggle it in my hand.
“My dad always told me to carry pepper spray, I know how to use it. But I’ll be fine. He won’t hurt me.” I try to sound reassuring, and I’m glad she can’t hear the beating of my heart. From nerves and from excitement at seeing him. I shouldn’t feel excited though. Yesterday I told him to go. I need to be strong.
“You don’t know that for sure Alex. I don’t know. Maybe we should just drive back to my house. Wait for your aunt to get home. Chris is gonna go crazy.” She stops half way up the long drive. I Put my hand on her arm to help soothe her worries.
“He won’t hurt me. Trust me. I’ll be fine. Go home. I’ll see you tomorrow. But could you do me a favour please?” I ask with a small smile, biting my lip a little nervous to ask. I don’t like lying. And I’m about to ask someone to maybe do just that for me.
“Ok, if your sure. But text me when he goes. And call if you need me. What favour do you need?” She asks.
“Please don’t tell Chris.” I blurt out quickly.
“Alex, I don’t know, he’s gonna be pissed if he finds out I lied to him.” She’s shaking her head. Obviously torn between helping out two friends.
“You're not lying, you're just not going to tell him that Logan was at my house. Please? He’s just gets really protective and I don’t want him to do something silly.” I’m squeezing her hand a little tighter, trying to get her to understand that this is a big deal to me.
“Ok I’ll do it. But if he asks outright if Logan was here, I’ll have to tell him anyway. He always knows when I’m lying. Don’t make me regret this.” She takes he foot off the brake and carries on up the drive.
“Thank you” I say as I get out the car. I stand and watch her drive away before turning around walking to meet him.
He’s sat quite comfortably on the porch steps. I can’t help that my heart beats a little faster the closer I get to him.
He stands up and hooks his thumbs on his jeans pockets. He has on black slim fitting jeans, with a white v neck tee. I’m sure he just wears those because he knows how good he looks in them. Then to make himself look even more hotter he has on his black leather jacket.
Concentrate Alex. Don’t be swayed by his good looks.
“Hey” he speaks first. By stays where he is.
“Hey” I repeat back to him. I must be more brave than I think I am because I keep walking toward him. Although rather than it being my decision to go to him, it feels like there’s some hidden force pulling me to him.
“You wasn’t in school today. Everything alright?” I ask. He only smiles a little and nods his head.
“You missed me?” He says and at the same time takes a step forward. I stay still, rooted to the ground.
“No, not at all. Just curious. That’s all” I’m lying through my teeth. I’m only now realising being this close to him, how much I’ve been craving seeing him all day. I thought it was just my mind that wouldn’t stop thinking about him. But my whole body seems to be sighing in relief now that I’m near him.
“Uh huh. You didn’t even miss me a little bit” he’s in a playful mood. It makes me smile and I can feel my will power slipping. I need to remember that I can’t have him, he’s not mine. I need to remember Chris’ black and blue face.
“Nope. Not at all....so what were you up to that kept you away from school?” Away from me? His eyebrow come together in a frown and he tilts his head down so his hair falls in front of his eyes. I can’t take my eyes off his hair.
“We had some issues at home that needed to be dealt with quickly. So I couldn’t come in today. I actually really wanted to as well today.” He smiles, stepping closer so our toes are touching. I go to take a step away, but he quickly stops me by bringing his arm around me and placing his hand on my back holding me in place.
“Where were you going?” He asks. All playfulness now seems to have left him. He’s looking at me intently in the eyes. It reminds me of looking at my wolf last night and him reminding me of Logan. Now it’s the other way round. Their eyes are the exact same colour. And my eyes are glued on him.
“I.... Ummm..... Just need.....” I’m struggling to get my words out and he knows it. Anybody who was listening would know it.
“I’ve been thinking of you all day.” He runs his other hand up my arm and leaves it resting just above my shoulder underneath my hair and his finger tips keeps running patterns on the back of my neck.
“You have?” I manage to get out. Focus Alex!
“Hmmm, about us.” He leans his head down and puts his face in my hair.
“Us?” I croak, I can feel myself starting to become unsteady so I grab a handful of his shirt by his waist to try and keep me more balanced. The moment I take hold
