“No Buddy,” Marley pushed his shoulder “Pansexual and Bisexual are different.” He sounded exasperated.
“But how though?” His large blue eyes were glazed over and I laughed.
“You’re honestly doing my fucking head in now.” Marley’s camp hand wave made me chuckle even more.
“Isn’t Bi like you fancy both?” I question them. Buddy’s eyes shift towards me.
“Yeah but Pans is like falling in love with somebody regardless of what they are?” He gestured towards me and I watched Marley place his head in his hands.
“Oh fuck sake, somebody tell him to shut up?” Marley muttered.
“Shut up Buddy.” Haz grinned and I rolled my eyes. “Why are you arguing over it?”
“We aren’t arguing!” They protested in unison. I heard Nance laugh and place her head against Buddy’s shoulder. She’d had a little bit to drink. Buddy placed his arm around the back of her chair and I wriggled my brows at them. Nance laughed and shook her head.
“He looks too much like him.” She pointed at Haz who frowned.
“We look nothing alike.” A laugh escaped Soph’s lips.
“Hm, not much hey?” She laughed as she bit her cherry from her cocktail. “He’s just a shorter, chubbier you with a little less whit and he’s much more fun.” I bit down on my lip and stirred my cocktail. That was Soph’s signature move. Shit sandwich. The good, the insult and the good. I’m pretty sure she’d just insulted them both.
“He is not more fun than me.” He protested. His large arms folded in defense.
“I am. I’m not as serious, wanna see what it’s like to be with somebody who’s a laugh Av?” He wriggled his brows and I pushed my lips together to stop a laugh escaping.
“I bet he’s good in the sack.” Soph added and I cringed slightly.
“He is.” Chlo must have overheard and I glanced up at her. “Hang on which one?” The innocence in her eyes made me smile.
“Buddy.” Soph answered. Chlo winked at him and smirked.
“Hmm, he was good for a first timer.” I watched Buddy flush and Haz laughed a real genuine laugh.
“Wait you lost your v to Chlo?” Nance’s eyes widened and he shook his head.
“No!” He exclaimed, he was clearly flustered and Chlo was thriving in it.
“Nah not me but he hadn’t long started dabbling. I’m pretty sure we were drunk?” She finished the last bit of her wine and looked over her shoulder towards a very quiet Missy.
“We were. I couldn’t even remember. I just remember waking up…” His voice trailed off into the distance and I heard laughter come from Soph’s lips.
“Aww Buddy!” Nance squeezed his cheeks and I grinned up at Haz.
“I bet you're an animal.” He gave her a cheeky wink and I chuckled as she shoved his shoulder. “Is Av?” His attention landed on me. Suddenly I was pretty sure my mum and Jay stopped arguing and I watched him smirk and unbutton his collar.
“No? She’s a human?” Smooth. My mum smiled at us. It was a secret smile and I wanted nothing more than to thump Buddy in the balls. She must have known. The thought of my mum realising I was no longer her pure perfect little cherub made me slightly sick. I laughed a little and watched as Harry’s eyes wandered over mine. Conversation moved on swiftly and I was grateful for this. They were now arguing over something else.
“I have your other gift?” I smiled softly at him. The expression on his face was one I’d never seen on him before. I glanced down towards where his leg was shaking and grinned. He leant down slightly and pulled on the large bag. I recognised it and frowned instantly.
“Honestly you really shouldn’t have?” He nodded in the direction of the box and our friends started to smile. The box was Christian Laboutin. I had never owned a pair of shoes worth more than £80 in my life. A spark of excitement ignited inside me and as I ran my hand over the lid of the box he leant closer to me, his forearms rested against his thighs, his hands were clenched together, his eyes seemed playful but frightened and my heart rate spiked.
“I hope you like them.” I pulled my eyes away from his and pulled the lid off the box. They were the most perfect thing I’d ever seen in my life. They were the tallest ones, in nude and the red bottoms on them were stunning. I grinned and noticed a smaller box. I noticed he’d now half stopped breathing. It was so slow. I suddenly became nervous. I took the smaller box out and felt Soph snatch the shoes from in front of me. My heart was thudding. I clutched the tiny box in my hand and looked down at him. He was half smiling, half smirking.
“What is it?” I whispered. The whole time my heart thudded.
“Just open it?” His blue eyes were so clear. For a moment I’d lost myself in them. He ran his hand over mine and I closed my eyes. Too soon if he’s proposing. Way too soon. My subconscious mocked me. I ran my hand over the small box and turned to face him a little. He told me not to freak out earlier on and now I was. I opened it slightly and saw the sparkle before anything else. It shon under the lights of the little country pub. I could feel my face filling with blood and glanced up at him underneath my eyelashes. He was examining my reaction. To my delight everyone else around the table seemed preoccupied and oblivious to the fact he’d just gifted me a ring. I pulled it from the box slowly and felt him catch the box. It was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. The perfect tear drop was just the right size. It wasn’t exactly small but it wasn’t huge either. I loved the shape and felt as though he was either subconsciously or not hinting
