"Please stop." My voice was just a whisper. I watched her face twist.
"No I fucking will not!" Her voice was raised and I squeezed my forehead softly. "Honestly do you even know what he's done to people Av? It has taken everything in me not to fucking warn you away from him!"
"Anya please!?" I snapped. She looked through me. As though I was the one in the wrong. I glanced towards the door as I held back my tears. "Just leave." I muttered towards her and watched as she slammed her cup down on the side. She straightened out her dress and shook her head.
"You'll see soon enough." Her words were like venom, I watched as she placed shoes on which were placed by my front door and I watched the door slam shut behind her. Tears escaped my eyes. I burst. I couldn't stop them from falling. One of my oldest friends had chosen a monster over me. I sobbed until I couldn't any more.
Vens - Friday
People loved to talk. Av had been quiet all week. She'd made up what I could only think was excuses for not seeing me. Buddy and Juve were sprawled out along the sofa and I yawned as I kicked Buddy for the remote.
"Oi you fucker!" He cupped his balls and frowned at me.
"Aw H don't do that you might hurt his swimmers…" Juve teased and I smirked before I turned the channel over. "Where's Av this week she's been quiet?" My stomach twisted.
"Oh fuck she bored already?" Buddy winked at me before he laughed and I shook my head.
"She's got loads of finals and she's trying to find a job so she's just staying with her mum this week." I tried to sound relaxed about it but I wasn't. I was fucking burning. I'd been at work when Alfie had phoned to say she'd asked for a gig tonight at the Top Hat. Apparently she said she just wanted to sing. Juve slapped my leg playfully and looked up towards where Chlo was perched on the doorframe.
"You heard?" She lifted her chin up towards me and my shoulders lifted.
"Heard what?" I questioned her. I watched as she smirked and tilted her head in an effort to tell me to follow her. By the way she was avoiding speaking in front of my brothers, I'd assumed the worst. I hauled myself up and followed her towards the hallway. She pressed the door closed behind her before she smiled.
"Rava's got a weakness?" Her words made no sense as they left her mouth.
"Chlo what the fuck are you talking about?" She shook her head and placed her arms in front of her chest.
"He's been living with this bird. Tall, dark haired…Fucking stunning. Jay saw her leaving his apartment the other day?" I frowned and ran my hands through the front of my hair. Rava didn't do long term. He was too hard on women, they didn't stick around for long." He said she didn't seem upset, just comfortable. He kissed her on her cheek to say goodbye." I felt instantly sick. He was allowed a Mrs but the only girl I'd ever loved in life was hanging in the balance. My chest began to pound and I felt Chlo rest her hand against my bicep. "Haz, he's got a weakness." I nodded softly as I tried to take it all in.
"Have you ever seen her before?" She simply shook her head.
"I haven't no. I think she might have Bandoni connections? Maybe they're together for convenience's sake. I dunno Haz I'm just guessing." I planted a kiss against her cheek and made my way towards the front door. I was numb. I needed to see Bandoni and I needed to see him now.
Holt - Wednesday
I ran my fingers through my hair as I stared at the clock ticking away on the wall. I'd kissed him goodbye this morning and he seemed to be in a slightly better mood. Truth be told I had not been right for a good week. He watched me sing at the Top Hat last Friday and drank. I'd never seen him drunk. High, probably, but never drunk. Not until that night.
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"You were bloody wonderful." The smell of Budwiser lingers on his breath and I wiped away a tiny bit of froth from his plump bottom lip.
"I think you might be a little drunk Harry." Our eyes met, his were glazed as he ran his lips against my fingers.
"Me? Psht," a small hiccup escaped his lips and I smiled "nah never drunk me." I glanced at Jay who was smirking and shrugging behind him. "I fucking love you Holt." He placed his large arm over my shoulder and I shook my head.
"Shh people are listening." I watched Jay take some of his weight from my shoulder and smiled at him. He was fucking heavy.
"I don't mind." He tried his best to wink at me and I chuckled to myself as Jay placed his arm around his shoulders.
"C'mon lad let's get you home." Jay pulled on him a little and I watched him shake his head.
"Nah you never told me about her, you hid it all again." My face instantly screwed up and I watched Jay shake his head.
"No idea what your talking about Haz, C'mon now your pissed don't start." Jay hauled him a little away
