"You gonna eat that?" I shook my head. I didn't want it. I wasn't hungry. I hadn't been hungry for a while. She sighed and I closed my eyes as I squeezed her arm.
The venue was spectacular. Honey really had outdone herself. It was a quaint little mannor house in the middle of the countryside. It was the wedding I'd always dreamed of having. Soph held my hand in hers and squeezed it softly. Neither of them had asked many probing questions however they knew something was off. I was grateful they hadn't asked. Because I couldn't lie anymore. I was so tired of lying. I held Sophs hand and watched her glance back at me the second she spotted Callum. I simply nodded and watched as she ran off to smooch him. I knew it had killed her being away from him so much this last week but I'd been grateful for her doing it. I needed my best friends this week. Nancy was chatting to Honey. She looked stunning. She was tiny, but her dress was huge. It was like something off a Disney movie. It sparkled underneath the dimly lit marquee. She floated across the room and as she joined her groom. I took a deep breath and grabbed an orange juice from a plate off a bartender who was walking around the venue. Though it was late September it was still warm out. It was however nearly dark. I smelt him before I saw him. The bride and groom were now standing on the dance floor and began to dance to 'A thousand years' I felt my eyes filling with tears and gulped.
"She looks great don't she?" His voice was low and fragile sounding. I just nodded. I was petrified to turn to face him. His hands ran around my waist and he took a breath in as he placed his lips against my neck. I squeezed his arms in mine as my chest constricted. "Talk to me Av." He pleaded, my eyes darted back towards where they were dancing and as the DJ told everybody to join in I was pulled closer towards his body. His hands dipped towards my waist as we began to sway from side to side.
"Don't leave me again?" I whispered. His nose ran over mine and I held back my tears.
"You left me Av? Tell me what's going on?" We swayed softly and his lips traced mine slowly. His words sent my stomach into a flurry of butterflies.
"I left because I couldn't keep hiding us. I want this with you." I tilted my head towards where the bride and groom were slow dancing and watched as his eyes lowered. "I want a home here with our friends and I want your babies." I watched his eyes widen as I said the word.
"Av," he began and I shook my head softly.
"He won't let us have any of that will he? He's never gonna stop?" My voice threatened to break and I felt him pull me softly outside of the marquee and towards the manor house. My chest pounded as we jogged away from all of the commotion. He closed the doors behind us and pushed me softly against a wooden coated wall. His lips landed on mine in an instant as he gripped the back of my hair softly.
"He won't stop as long as he knows you mean something to me." His lips found mine again and I felt tears fall from my eyes. "You're always gonna mean something to me." His thumb caught my tears and I glanced in his pale blue eyes. They were pained and full of tears ready to escape. "So no matter what he's always gonna come for you Av." I shook my head and held his arms.
"He just wants you back on his side." I tasted my tears as I spoke and watched him frown.
"What'd you mean?" He looked confused.
"I met with him before graduation. He made me promise to end things with you, he told me he needed you back on his side but didn't say why." His eyes searched my face.
"Why didn't you tell me Avay?" Guilt flooded me, I placed my hand over my stomach slightly and gulped. His hand was still holding my face. My mouth had now gone dry and I closed my eyes as I shook my head. It was then that my brain stopped working. "Av tell me what the fucks going on?" I tore my eyes open and examined his.
"I don't know what's going on Haz! We have to keep quiet for him to leave you alone." My voice sounded irate and he cupped my face again.
"Then that's what we're gonna do." He breathed. "It's fucking killed me how you've been Av." I gulped and shook my head as I ran my fingers through his hair. "We'll fix it. I can give you the fancy wedding and the home with our friends." His words spiraled and I half smiled between my salty tears. "We're in so much fucking trouble Av." I half sobbed and half laughed. My make up had to be all over the place as we stood still like forbidden lovers against an old wooden paneled wall just in a staircase.
"What the fuck are we meant to do?" I whispered and watched his shoulders rise and fall. He wiped my tears away along with the majority of my make up and kissed my lips.
"I dunno but promise me you'll never hide something like that from me again?" I nodded. I should have told him. It's killed both of us to be like this. He pulled on my hands as he backed up the staircase. I followed him and watched him smile a little. "Do you really wanna get married?" He raised
