“I mean it Av,” I found myself leaning against the white wall on our balcony “for fuck sake I’ve flew 4 hours to Tenerife to apologise because I just can’t fucking leave you alone.” I felt him grip my face in his hand, my eyes darted open and I held his wrist with my hand that was pressed against my face. “Look I’m shit at this. I’ve never had to prove I’m human to anybody before.” My eyes grew wider as he spoke the words. Prove he was human? What the fuck does that mean? His eyes looked tortured. I could imagine a much younger Harry lost and confused when I looked in them and felt my chest constrict.
“Have you sorted your head out yet?” I whispered as I continued to stare at him. I watched his expression.
“I’m trying,” he paused and ran his nose against mine. There was a gust of air which made the skin on my arms prickle “Chloe told me I had to get my act together or I’d lose you.” He scoffed a little “can you believe I took her advice on dating?” I smiled a small smile. A secret smile.
“Dating?” He shrugged and let go of my face. He held my hand in his and ran his thumb over the back of my hand.
“Well whatever this is, I took her advice and now I’m here.” My back was pressed agaisnt the slightly cooler white wall and I shifted a little “I thought showing you would make it easy for you to walk away and then you’d be safe, then I saw Holly and you were so fucking adamant that I wasn’t bad I knew I had to make that choice for you.” I shook my head at his words. None of it made sense. “It wasn’t until Chloe said you’d flew halfway over the other side of the world I knew I’d fucked it for real.” I held in the desire to roll my eyes and pushed against his chest softly before I made my way to the edge of the balcony to take in the views. His fingers traced over the bare skin of my back and I closed my eyes briefly. “I couldn’t lose you, when the words left her mouth I thought shit I’ve just lost the love of my life.” He paused and stopped himself almost instantly, his eyes mimicked mine and grew wide. Dear in headlights sprung to mind.
“The what?” I stammered on my words, he flushed red and raised his brow.
“What?” I turned to face him and his eyes ran over my chest.
“You just said,” I searched for eye contact and watched as he grew a little deeper red in colour. His Adam’s Apple rose and fell and I watched as he reached for the back of his neck.
“I won’t fuck up again Avay I swear.” I shook my head, my heart was pounding as I stepped closer to him.
“Say it again?” I whispered, he frowned and stayed silent. I huffed when he didn’t respond and began to walk away from him.
“I think I’m falling in love with you Avaya.” He pulled lightly on my wrist and I fell into his large arms. I fought to catch my breath and watched as he bent down to kiss me softly. I ran my hands around his neck and squeezed his shoulders.
“You think or you know?” I raised my brow at him and watched as he smirked and shrugged.
“I told you I was shit at this.” I chuckled slightly and ran my nose over his. We stood in silence for a while as I tried to grasp the concept of somebody like him loving somebody like me. The truth was I loved him and I think I was already in love with him. I felt his hands drop towards my bum. “You don’t have much on do you?” He teased.
“Not really.” I glanced down towards my white bikini and grew red.
“You’re tanned.” He announced and I laughed a little. Had he only just realised? I leant to plant a kiss against his stubble.
“I’ve been in the sun for 4 days?” I moved from his grasp and made my way towards our tiny kitchenette. I pulled a can of spanish beer out and threw it towards him. He frowned in my direction as he caught it and I cracked mine before I took a big sip. I wasn’t sure how else to react to his confession. I wasn’t ready to admit it out loud.
“Av it’s 4pm?” He looked down towards his can and I shrugged before I made my way towards our little wicker sofa.
“I’m on holiday? I could wake up and drink vodka and that would be fine.” He rolled his eyes as he took his seat next to me. The wicker sofa creaked under the pressure of us both on it.
“You know if you’d have told Jay you were staying in a 2 star apartment complex he would have upgraded you this is fucking shocking.” I laughed and took another sip of my beer.
“I don’t want your money Haz. I never have.” My eyes lowered as I glanced towards him from the corners of my eye. He was smirking as he placed the can against his lips. His arm fell across my shoulders and I felt him play with the string of my bikini. I tilted my head up to look at him. His blue eyes darkened and I bit down on my lip softly.
“Honestly you need to put clothes on…” I watched his dark gaze dip towards my chest and cleared my throat. My groin tensed with desire and I nudged him softly.
“You know just because you're here and you’ve admitted all of this doesn’t mean I forget what you did? I want an answer as to why and what you plan on doing to fix this…” I blurted out
