“Are you ready to tell me what’s happened?” Her tone was soft as I shook my head.
“No.” I grimaced and watched her frown deeply.
“Have they hurt you?” She threw yet another question at me and I shook my head.
“I don’t want to talk about it.” Her eyes narrowed as she stood up.
“I’ll be having words with him.” The words that left her mouth were certain and I scoffed back my laugh.
“Really? Do you really think a talking to from his PA is going to help?” I wanted to scream that she had no idea who any of them really were. That they faced worse than her wrath probably more than twice a day. I watched her flinch at my words and she stood taller.
“Enough Avaya!” She almost snarled at me and I gulped before I shook my head. I hadn’t heard her snap like that in forever. Not to me. She’d always been more than understanding.
Safe to say the atmosphere in the house could have been cut with a knife. Sue and Lucy arrived not long after 2pm with Nancy in tow. I pushed my food around the plate as they chatted over dinner.
“Shall we go out?” Nance leant into me and I nodded. I wanted to be anywhere but here. I stood from the table and watched as Nancy smiled and excused herself. I placed my camo coloured puffy coat over my shoulders as we left my tiny 2 bedroom home.
“Mum and I have had a tiff…” I sighed and braced myself for yet more tears.
“I thought something was off?” Her blue eyes traced over my face and I gulped before we started to walk towards the beach. “You seem odd Av?” She wasn't pressing and I knew this but I needed to tell somebody.
“Haz slept with somebody last night,” my chest nearly collapsed as I said the words and watched her shake her head “I don’t think I’ll be seeing them again.”
“What a fucking idiot…” Our feet hit the beach the freezing November wind almost took my breath. “Jay did the same thing though, some bird called Hazel.” I watched her roll her eyes and smiled a little.
“Both wankers.” I stated as I sat next to her on the sand. It was bloody cold. I placed my head against her shoulder and heard her sigh. The sound of the waves crashing against the sand made me feel at peace.
“I don’t mean to poke my nose in but did you shag him?” I scoffed at her words and instantly tried not to blush red. There was a playful look spreading across her face and I shook my head.
“No. No I didn’t.” She threw her hands to cover her mouth.
“Oh my God you fucking did!” My eyes widened as I pushed her shoulder. I didn’t want to be reminded of him.
“Nance please just give it up.” She was grinning now. She seemed excited that I’d finally lost my V card.
“Did it hurt?” I winced at the memory of him over me and gulped away my tears. “Sorry I’ll stop.” She placed her head against my shoulder and I touched her face with my cold hand. “Kinda gutted that you lost it to such a twat.” I shrugged.
“Yeah me too.” She pulled my hand as she stood up and wiped the remnants of sand off her arse.
“C’mon we better get going busy week ahead.” I too followed her lead and wiped away the sand. It felt good to let somebody else know what had happened between us.
“Do you think he feels bad?” I questioned her. She didn’t answer for a while and I watched as she walked. Her short red hair shifting from side to side.
“Who knows how any of them really feel?” Her answer was an honest one at least though not the one I’d been holding out for. I held my hands in my pockets and continued to walk along the beachfront. The silence with her wasn’t awkward it never had been and part of me thanked her for it.
“Hey d’you think Soph is gonna cope with being apart from Callum for a week?” She laughed as the words left her mouth and I too chuckled with her.
“Probably not. She’ll be like a lost little puppy I think.” I rolled my eyes as we arrived back on the concrete pavements a short walk away from my house.
Holt- December 14th
Placing my passport on the desk I forced a smile at the neatly dressed blonde woman sat behind the check in desk.
“You know this holiday is gonna be epic…” Soph was grinning in my direction. I hoped it would be. I needed it after the last week or so.
“It will be when we get there.” Nance was now handing over her passport. Surprisingly check in was a quick process. I smiled as I threw my hand luggage over my shoulder and felt Nance grip my arm. Soph was wandering around customs spraying every perfume imaginable. I chuckled to myself as I rubbed my tired eyes. “Tired Av?” Nance teased and I nodded, glancing down at my watch.
“Yup it's only just gone 4am.” I continued to watch Soph admiring the designer sunglasses and rolled my eyes. “How the hell is she that happy this early in the morning?” I groaned and continued to walk through the surprisingly busy airport terminal. Soph joined us when she realised we weren’t all that bothered about shopping. I glanced out the window of the airport at the planes waiting for boarding and squeezed her arm softly before I took my phone from my bag. My chest dropped when there was still nothing from
