“I should,” Kade growls, squeezing his tender cheeks with his hands, spreading them open. Felix groans when Kade slides his cock between them, pushing up against his hole. “But that’s not what I want.”
And he thrusts inside, spreading Felix open. Felix shudders, his fingers scrabbling against the bike, and Kade slides further and further in, until he’s completely buried.
“More,” Felix says, rocking back. Kade pushes in deep. Felix shudders against him, pleasure heavy in his body. “I can’t... can’t hold on.”
Kade pulls him away from the bike, one hand across his chest, so Felix’s cock isn’t pressed against the vibrating tank. It stands neglected in the warm night air, and Felix squirms, needing to touch himself.
Kade thrusts in a little harder, his cock thick, filling Felix, sliding out, easing back in. Felix’s cock jumps, taut, and he’s so close right now, having his alpha hold him, having his alpha caring for him and their child. Kade reaches around, sliding his fingers up Felix’s cock with the faintest touch. Then he leaves Felix straining up, his hips rocking harder.
“Come for me,” Kade rumbles, fucking into him, his hands anchored against Felix’s groin, holding his legs open. Felix shudders, the pressure in his cock building.
He thinks about Kade’s hands on him, Kade inside him, Kade tolerating him enough to want him close. Kade grinds up against his prostate, and despite Kade neglecting his cock, he comes hard, arching as pleasure floods his body.
Kade looks down at him. Felix is too far gone to be ashamed, when cum spurts from his cock, warm and sticky, leaving a mess on himself and the bike. Kade gathers it up in his fingers, lifting his hand over Felix’s shoulder to suck it off.
Felix groans. Kade strokes him through the rest of his release, slowly thrusting in. Felix shudders.
“You can go harder,” he says, grinding back down. Kade groans, fingers curling warm against Felix’s chest. He leans Felix over the bike, hips snapping up, thrusting firmly, burying his cock deep, and he’s coming with a roar, anchoring Felix against him, spilling inside.
Kade leans into his back, his hands falling to Felix’s thighs, and for a while, they merely breathe. When Kade begins to swell, Felix pushes his feet under himself. Kade wouldn’t want to knot inside him, would he? He should leave now, get home, and maybe Kade won’t regret fucking him come morning.
He’s sliding halfway off Kade’s cock when Kade’s fingers curl into his thigh, pulling lightly back on him.
Stay, his fingers whisper, and Felix’s breath catches in his throat.
He had asked the exact same of Kade, that first night. And Kade had stayed. So Felix sinks back down on his alpha, pushing further so his body stretches around the beginnings of Kade’s knot, taking him inside. Kade groans. And his knot thickens, locking them together.
Kade is touching him. He isn’t pulling away with revulsion, and his hands cradle Felix’s hips, holding him close, care in his touch. Felix’s throat tightens.
After all Felix has done, this feels like forgiveness.
He looks down at the purring bike, wiping the splotches of white off its gleaming surfaces. He hadn’t meant to dirty it. None of this should have happened, but little has changed: the baby still moves in his belly, he’s still stuck in Meadowfall, and he’s still hiding secrets from his bondmate.
Kade’s palms flatten against his thighs. His nose brushes through Felix’s hair, and even though Kade hasn’t once touched his belly, he’s still holding Felix close. Felix trembles, leaning tentatively back against his alpha. Kade slides his arm across his chest, a warm, heavy weight pulling him close, and it feels a little like coming home, when Kade runs his wrists down Felix’s throat, across his collarbones, over his chest.
Mine, Kade used to say.
Felix exhales the tightness in his ribs, closing his eyes. He feels safest in Kade’s arms, and that hasn’t changed since he left.
“I shouldn’t be asking ‘Why?’, should I?” he murmurs, looking up at the star-strewn sky. How much of this can be mended?
Kade’s breath puffs through his hair. “Probably not.” He noses at Felix’s scalp, wrists brushing down his sides, then along his thighs. “Still gonna take the scent suppressant?”
Felix bites his lip, remembering the manager at the gas station, his leering smirk and invasive stare. “Yeah. For now, I guess. I’d rather not let Rick know about the... the baby.”
Kade snorts, and warm air rushes against Felix’s skin. “You shouldn’t be at that place. Work somewhere else. Paint something.”
“I’ve been painting,” Felix says, relaxing against Kade. That’s what he’s been doing at night, when he gets home early and Kade isn’t around to distract him.
“Then put them up for sale.”
“It’s not that straightforward, you know.”
Kade shrugs. “I still think you can do better. Need to improve your visibility.”
“Okay,” Felix says. He doesn’t want to think about it. All he wants to do is burrow into Kade’s arms, and forget about the world. “But I don’t want to talk about that right now.”
Kade slips his arm over his chest, holding him close. Felix sighs, leaning in to press his back against Kade. It feels as though Kade has made peace with him for the lie, and Felix feels a little more at ease, now that Kade knows he’s with child. It’s not such a big secret anymore, even if Kade doesn’t know the baby is his.
At some point, Felix will still have to move. But that point isn’t today.
35
Felix
“Did your alpha propose and say he loves the baby?” Susan says the next day, eyebrows raised. “Because that’s what you look like right now.”
“Gods, really?” Felix winces. That’s the best and worst way to describe it, because he’d love if Kade proposed to him. In another life, one where everything was perfect between them.
Right now, he’s just delighted that Kade had visited last night, that things have settled between them. It had been a relief and a
