At this announcement, I gasp. He wouldn’t, would he?
“Now, tell me why you thought I would be cheating on you,” Nerd demands, the edge in his tone still there.
“Um, because you’re a guy and have needs. I well, um, see up until everything, the one thing I hadn’t shared at therapy yet was, um . . .”
“Spit it out, babygirl,” he interrupts.
“I was a virgin,” I sputter.
“What?” he asks, baffled by this news.
“I was a virgin,” I repeat.
“Heard that, Cara. So, you’d never had a man inside you and those fuckers took something special from you,” he snarls.
“Um, yes,” I murmur cautiously.
“And you thought because I’m a man and have needs that I couldn’t control them?”
“Uh, I don’t know. I want to think you don’t want anyone else but a part of me isn’t sure. I mean we’ve never kissed not even a peck or what not, so I have no clue what I’m doing. When I should be sure I want to go further and when it comes to you, I’m confused because as much as I want to admit I love you and want you to teach me, I don’t know how to do it.”
The air in the room becomes stifling as I look up to finally meet Nerd’s eyes with my tear filled ones.
Something flickers in his as he moves, “You just did, babygirl.”
Chapter Twelve
Nerd
Fuck if I ever expected this turn of events. My girl, the beautiful woman she is, who has come so far in overcoming the bullshit she went through, doesn’t know how to tell me what she wants.
Earlier tonight while sparring with Shadow and Cane, they’d both brought up something I found interesting. Now knowing the innocence that was taken from her, Cara only knows the violence of sex. Nothing else.
My brothers figured this out before I did and told me if I wanted to help my woman get over her fears and heal with a touch, I can give her. Teach her, show her not all men are violent, when it comes to sexual acts.
I’ve always had a sexual appeal to some of the world Shadow and Cane are connected to but I never went further than simple things. However, like my brothers both expressed, with Cara I’m going to have to feel her out and show her the dominance a man can have over her body without it scaring her let alone hurting.
From the ideas they gave me earlier, I knew once she was ready what I needed to do. I hadn’t; however, expected her to think I was cheating on her.
Men have needs.
Shit, everyone fuckin’ has needs.
My woman has them and simply doesn’t know how to express what she wants.
Inwardly grinning, I can’t help but think about the fun I’m going to have making her all mine in every way. Erase what those fuckheads did to her.
Climbing on the bed, I pull Cara into my arms until her front is pressed against mine and my forehead is touching hers. “Love you, babygirl,” I murmur.
“I love you too, Nick.” She didn’t have to tell me to know how she felt. It shows in the way she acts. In the way she trusts me. Granted she has insecurities like thinking I’d leave her here alone and go find someone to fuck. That shit’s not going to fly with me.
“Gonna kiss you now,” I inform her before pressing my mouth to hers as I wrap my arm around her waist.
I don’t intend to take it any further tonight but knowing how she feels and that she’s ready to take some steps forward, I’m not going to rush her. It’s her choice and I hope like hell that as I show her the way she’ll continue to choose me in helping her learn to enjoy what pleasure I can give.
Slowly, I explore her mouth, swiping my tongue along the seam of her lips, dipping between them as they part on a breathy gasp.
Plundering into hers, I groan at the way she tastes, peppermint. My girl has a thing for peppermint. The tea and candy are her addiction. I may like peppermint but tasting it on her I could grow mutual love for the flavor.
Cara’s tiny hands slide up my chest to the back of my neck and into my hair. Normally I’m not one for allowing a woman to wrap her fingers in the thick strands but they weren’t my girl. My babygirl. Everything about her is different and having her touch me like this means a fuck load to me and I’ll let her do whatever the fuck she wants.
Before our kiss can grow further on the hot and heavy, I pull away pressing my forehead back to hers. “Love the way you kiss,” I rasp.
“Um,” she whispers breathlessly.
“Gonna have to kiss you more often now that I’ve had a taste of that mouth, babygirl,” I state, letting her understand that this wasn’t a one and done time. I know with the way her head works right now I got to get her to understand everything we do from kissing to when I finally take her fully, I will always explain how much she means to me. That she’s not ruined for anyone and she sure as hell ain’t covered in filth.
“I think I would be okay with that.” Fuck me if the little sigh she lets out sends a twitch straight to my dick.
“Good, now it’s
