How the hell did I get here? How long have I been here?
Glancing around to my side I know the answer to my question.
Neo is sitting in the chair next to me his eyes locking on mine as I meet his gaze. Behind him Shadow and Stoney are both standing leaning against the wall on either side of the window looking out into the dark sky.
Great.
“About time you woke you,” Neo growls.
“Neo,” Stoney says his name in warning.
“I’m sorry.” I don’t know if I’m telling them I’m sorry or asking them a question, but either way I’m confused to them being here.
“Babe, you scared the hell out of us,” Shadow grumbles, stepping forward.
“I don’t understand why you all are here,” I utter. I didn’t ask them to be here.
“Of course you don’t, since you moved your ass away and attempted to block everyone out. You hurt my woman by being selfish. If she finds out about this shit. It’ll hurt her even more. She doesn’t need that shit. What the fuck were you thinking trying to kill your fuckin’ self?” Shadow snarls, crossing his arms over his chest.
“My life is none of yours or anyone else’s business. I don’t know why you keep trying to push yourselves into it. I changed my number and moved away so Luna would hopefully take the hint and leave me alone,” I sneer, hating myself for the words I allow to come spill from my lips.
“And that’s where your fuckin’ selfish ass needs to get off your high horse pity party and get the fuck over what’s in that head of yours,” Neo snaps.
“You don’t know anything about what’s in my head. None of you do. So, fuck you and get the hell out. I don’t need anyone,” I whisper furiously.
“Evidently you do. You nearly died. If it wasn’t for Neo finding you when he did, we wouldn’t be here having this conversation. Your ass would be dead, and we’d have to have a funeral instead,” Stoney remarks calmly.
“Well, you should have just let me die then. Save yourself the hassle of standing here lecturing me,” I sneer.
“Don’t be a fuckin’ bitch,” Neo growls, getting to his feet. “You should be fuckin’ grateful for still being alive. I’ll tell you now though; you aren’t going to be doing this shit again. You’re going to a rehab facility, somewhere that will help you get through this shit in your head.” As he says this, Neo moves to stand directly next to the bed close to my head. His eyes full of fire and strength. A strength I wish I did have.
Only as his words sink in, I realize what he’s doing. He’s having me committed. “I’m not going anywhere with you,” I say, clenching my teeth together.
“You will or I’ll have you at the clubhouse under lock and key until you get your shit straightened out,” Stoney barks.
“And under lock and key, he means you’ll be with me twenty-four seven. None of the ol’ ladies will help you or even be allowed to speak to you,” Neo says, his voice rumbles and sends a shiver throughout my entire being.
“I’ll also be there to enforce you don’t get away so make your choice because either way you’re going to get the fuckin’ help you obviously need Harley,” Shadow says with a lip curled up in disgust. The way he’s looking at me right now along with the other two men in the room, I’m nothing but a disgusting lower being to them.
I don’t understand why they feel this need to look out for me. I should be dead right now. I’m tired of feeling Mareena’s, Charlotte’s, and that clubwhore’s hands on me. I just want it all to end.
These men see me as a selfish bitch throwing a pity party, but they don’t know. None of them do. I get what Luna went through; however, she had people to look out for her. I’ve never had that. I didn’t have a family growing up. I had a grandfather who took his hatred of all things out on me.
“Make your choice here and now,” Neo commands.
“Fine, I’ll go to the rehab place,” I huff turning my head, not wanting to speak to them anymore if ever again. Not that I wanted to speak to them in the first place. I figure going to this place, I won’t have to put up with them and I could find a way to check myself out and get the fuck out of there. Then I’ll disappear altogether.
“Good choice, Angel Eyes. At least you still have some sense inside that head of yours.” I don’t bother giving Neo a reaction to his comment. “I’ll be taking you to the facility soon as you’re discharged from here, they’re expecting you.”
“Harley,” Shadow calls my name. I inhale a deep breath debating for a quick second on whether or not I want to acknowledge him. In the end I give him my eyes knowing the man wasn’t one to be trifled with. None of them were.
It’s another reason I’m confused as to why they would worry themselves over someone like me. A nobody not deserving of anything in life.
I used to enjoy living it up and everything that it entailed. I would block out my childhood, believing my grandfather was wrong and I was worth something. Now I could care less, and I don’t want to deal with it all anymore.
God, I feel like a broken record right now.
“I know you’re going through shit and I’m fuckin’ pissed as hell with you right now, cause my ol’ lady loves you like family and you’re doing this to yourself. Nothing is worth taking your life over,” Shadow says sternly yet gentle-like.
Refusing to speak, I simply blink and turn my head away from him again. I’m done speaking. I’ll give them what they want by going to this place but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stay.
Chapter Five
