As I started to fall asleep I couldn’t get over how much I love them all. It is the most wonderful feeling in the world to love and be loved by a true family. I got so used to only having Chris, that now I don’t know what I would do without the others. My brothers and my boyfriend.
It took two full weeks for that cold to finally go away. Chris made me go get an x-ray a few days after it hit but it was clear. The doctor said it was probably a cold that settled in my chest, and where I don’t have strong lungs it would be harder to get rid of. I guess I should be grateful that it only lasted two weeks but I think that guys are more grateful for that. I’m not the nicest person when I’m that sick. And yeah they have seen me worse, but it still was hard on them.
This is the last night on the whole tour. It is finally over. We are in Amsterdam and will be flying home tomorrow. Justin and I have talked about what will happen once we get back. He wants to come stay with us for a while and then take us to his parents house a week or so before Christmas. John moved out about a mouth ago, Rachael called me and told me everything.
John got really drunk and started a fight with his dad. He went off about how his parents supported Justin’s decision to keep him out of the band. I didn’t know that John had been calling Justin begging to come back. Rachael said that she had to step in before Mike lost his temper. I hate that all that happened over me, and how it hurt their family. I know Justin didn’t fire John over me, but I was the last straw and John will always blame me.
We talked for almost three hours about what happened. I tried to tell her how sorry I was but she told me that none of it was my fault. She thinks John just needs to move on and find either another band or find something else to do with his life. They will be there for him and help him in anyway they can, but they won’t ask Justin to bring him back to the band.
To try and cheer her up I told her about how Justin wanted Chris and I to come up a week before Christmas. She was thrilled, she started planning a shopping trip right away. I hate to say it but I’m looking forward to it, but mostly because I’ll get to see her again. I asked if they wanted to fly down for Thanksgiving but they already had plans. She said to make sure Justin did all the dishes. After talking to her I felt happy and sad. I love Justin so much it scares me, and I’m starting to love his family too, which scares me even more.
I’m laying on my bed when Scot knocks on the door and asked to talk to me.
“Flower, I need to ask for a favor.” He starts out “Well you know that my brother Guy is really the only family I have. We are kind of like you and Chris, only we were both in college when our parents died.” He drops his head for a minute and takes a deep breath. I reach over and lay my hand on his shoulder. He looks up at me and smiles and then goes on. “Well Guy is going to Texas to spend Thanksgiving with his girlfriend’s family, and will be leaving the week before because her cousin’s wedding is like four days before Thanksgiving. Anyways I was kind of wondering if you wouldn’t mind if I came to hang with you and Chris for the holidays.” He looks at me with the biggest puppy eyes.
“You are welcome at our house anytime you want. The holidays have never been easy on us because we never had anyone to really share them with. That’s not that case now.” I smile at him. He gives me a hug and then tells me he is going to go talk to Chris about it too. I told him not to worry, that Chris will be thrilled to have him join us.
The last concert is always the hardest I was told. I stood by the stage the whole night, it was magical. The guys wore the necklaces that I bought them in Italy, even Justin caved after the guys told him what a crappy boyfriend he was being.
Since I didn’t get to wear the pink dress I got in Italy while we were there, I wore it tonight. Along with the white sandals Justin bought me, and the pearl earrings Rachael gave me. I wanted to look extra special because I cooked up a little surprise for my boys.
The crew helped with the timing. Right before the last song they are going to cut all power to just the stage area. While the lights are out I’m going to sneak on stage and surprise the guys with a cake that reads This tour was your best ever!
One of the roadies is going to help me walk out there in the dark and then give the signal once I’m in place to turn the lights back on. I can’t wait to see the guys faces! But as the show went on I started
