ibid, 24 July 1938
It was all to me
ibid, 21 August 1938
You aren’t going
ibid
I shrink under
ibid, 3 September 1938
315
Lord what a jam
ibid, 30 August 1938
He is an hysteric
RH to ES, 13 September 1938 (Texas)
317
the pain of her
UVT Daybook, 15 November 1938 (Texas)
In the weeks
ibid, 23 December 1938
a brown saucer
ibid, 24 December 1938
35 The rain pours down, the icy wind howls
318
The fat
UVT Daybook, 11 January 1939 (Texas)
Una won’t
ibid, 21 January 1939
Johnnie would
ibid, 22 January 1939
319
You have held
RH to ES, 3 March 1939 (Texas)
Something very
ibid, 5 February 1939
unless you do
ibid, 9 February 1939
320
Jews, Yes
ibid, 22 March 1939
We are clear of
UVT Daybook, 2 July 1939 (Texas)
321
that slug of
UVT Daybook, March 1939 (Texas)
He told me
Sandra Tealdi to Evguenia Soulina, 27
May 1939 (Monica Still)
322
I refuse in
UVT Daybook, 16 May 1939 (Texas)
What’s the good
RH to ES, 9 July 1939 (Texas)
The flat is in
ibid, 19 July 1939
Oh Piggie
ibid, 6 June 1939
323
I suspect
UVT Daybook, 24 July 1939 (Texas)
I knocked
ibid, 26 August 1939
325
But for Mr Eden
ibid, 11 September 1939
alias Florence
ibid, 20 September 1939
326
You fool
ibid, 7 October 1939
327
The rain pours
ibid, 30 October 1939
My suspicions
ibid, 17 October 1939
36 At the Wayside
328
horrible spectacle
UVT Daybook, 7 January 1940 (Texas)
I may despise
ibid, 5 February 1940
329
languidly served
ibid, 15 January 1940
Suppose you had
RH to ES, 28 April 1940 (Texas)
331
As Evguenia
UVT Daybook, 10 May 1940 (Texas)
The implication
ibid, 26 February 1941
331
As Evguenia The implication Are you a nurse
ibid, 22 September 1941
332
This woman has
ibid, 14 February 1941
So there goes
ibid, 19 April 1941
We demurred
ibid, 12 June 1941
333
After all,
ibid, June 1941
Henceforward
ibid, 22 June 1941
I advised John
ibid, 15 August 1941
334
I write daily
ibid, 29 August 1941
I am sorry Miss
ES, autobiographical notes (Texas)
335
I was happy
ibid, 24 September 1941
336
we Bolshevists
UVT Daybook, 27 October 1941
May I ask
ibid, 6 November 1941
Then follows
ibid, 17 November 1941
337
She sat there
ibid, 10 November 1941
I simply prayed
ibid, 1 December 1941
so as to avoid
ibid, 9 December 1941
37 John’s Calvary
338
The bitch
UVT Daybook, 15 January 1942 (Texas)
339
I told her
ibid, 29 January 1942
She is terribly
UVT to ES, 5 February 1942 (Texas)
These are grim
RH to ES, 6 February 1942.
340
Don’t you remember
ibid, 30 March 1942
Oh how weary
ibid, 21 February 1942
the dreadful creature
UVT Daybook, 6 April 1942 (Texas)
I think it only right
UVT to ES, 6 April 1942 (Texas)
342
And all because
UVT Daybook, 12 August 1942 (Texas)
I have had very many
RH to ES, 24 December 1942
343
There a veritable
UVT Daybook, 25 February 1943
The memory of
ibid
344
I sealed my mouth
ES, autobiographical notes (Monica Still)
345
When you began
UVT Daybook, 30 December 1945
346
I saw your eyes
ibid, 25 December 1943
347
My John is dying
ibid, 29 September 1943
You must be friends
ES to UVT, 29 July 1950 (Monica Still)
You’ll be good
UVT Letters to John, 27 March 1944
348
There was never
UVT Daybook, 9 March 1943
She looked up
ibid, dated 21 June 1943, but written four months later
I said that she had
Naomi Jacob, Me and the Swans (Kimber 1963)
Ivory clear and pale
UVT Daybook, 7 October 1943
349
resting together
ibid
MY JOHN, MY JOHNNIE
38 Mine for ever
353
would have the
UVT Letters to John, May 1944
strength
I feel I must
ibid, 27 January 1944
354
Such a decision
The Life and Death of RH
There is nothing
UVT Letters to John, 18 January 1949
My diary shows
2 January 1944
355
You are with Him
ibid, 6 February 1944
It won’t matter
ibid, 23 June 1944
Cards on the
ibid, 27 February 1944
356
after all my precious
ibid, 6 February 1944
It’s all horrible
ibid, 28 March 1944
grave provocation
UVT, statement to the executors of her will, 23 September 1944
357
Your letter
Harold Rubinstein to Horatio Lovat
Dickson, 14 February 1975
I would only be
UVT Letters to John, 3 November 1944
358
I wear your poplin
ibid, 12 January 1944
nothing ever for a
ibid, December 1944
359
nothing can hurt
ibid
She showed me
Maria Visetti to Jane Caruth, 13 October 1943
all these years
ibid
360
If I comply
ibid, 11 February 1944
361
Truly your mantle
UVT Letters to John, 6 March 1945
darling little
ibid, 1 February 1944
will never in this
ibid, 23 June 1945
362
I think such solemn
ibid
The answer of course
ibid, 22 February 1945
363
I certainly don’t
ibid, 21 March 1945
I have done for
ibid, 14 April 1945
on a larger scale
ibid, June 1944
364
I will not have
ibid, October 1944
That is a result
ibid, August 1945
I hung on to
ibid, 14 September 1945
365
It was all settled
UVT Letters to John, 5 July 1946
This marriage
ibid, 14 August 1946
39 He is my occupation
366
I can’t remember
UVT Letters to John, April 1945
367
a ghastly wreck
ibid, 26 January 1944
I will not let her
ibid, 27 January 1944
They want me
ibid, 25 January 1944
368
I am not really
Peter Davies to Sir Oscar Dowson, 15 June 1946 (PRO)
the impression that
memorandum from Chuter Ede to F. H. Logan, 19 June 1946 (PRO)
From the Home Office
memorandum from F. H. Logan to Chuter Ede, 22 June 1946 (PRO)
369
in case the priest’s
UVT Letters to John, December 1946
If only she didn’t
ibid, 25 June 1948
I simply can’t
ibid, 5 May 1948
I am not rising
ibid, 31 August 1948
371
I am deeply
ibid, 14 May 1948
I beg of you
ES to UVT, 12 April 1950
She can’t be
UVT Letters to John, 15 April 1950
372
My dear Evguenia
UVT to ES, 4 August 1950
374
When we were alone
UVT Letters to John, February 1957
He looks so beautiful
ibid, 29 January 1956
375
Nika asked me
ibid, February 1956
There is the usual
ibid, 11 October 1956
Her decision that
ibid
376
After all, the money
ibid, 3 February 1957
I am willing
ibid, 6 September 1957
377
I think that being
RH to ES, 7 September 1934
My poor sweet
UVT Letters to John, 6 October 1957
378
It would not even be
UVT Daybook, February 1944
INDEX
NOTE: Writings by Radclyffe Hall appear directly under title; works by others appear under author’s name
Acosta, Mercedes de, 147, 159
Adam’s Breed (RH; earlier Food; novel), 138–47, 159, 167, 171, 197
Adcock, Sir John, 135
Agate, James, 195
Albania, 320
Amherst, Jeffery, 240
Amyat, Katinka, 360, 363
Anderman, Dr, 327–8, 330–2, 344
Anderson, Sir John, 190
Anderson, Sherwood, 228
Annie (maid), 313, 324
Annunzio, Gabriele d’, 122, 261, 266, 285, 316
Arbuthnot, Father, 253
Arlen, Michael, 135
Arrowsmith, J.W. (publisher), 126–7, 134
Asbury, Herbert, 228
Attkins, Susan, 33, 43, 48
Atwood, Tony (Claire), 241, 254, 305, 363
Bagnoles de l’Orne, 258, 261
Baird-Douglas, Lillian, 320
Baker, Mrs (Evguenia’s
