"Jesus." Blinking away the moisture in my eyes, I handed the glass back to Jasper.
He smirked at me. "Too strong for you, little girl?"
I narrowed my eyes at him again. "I can handle it. Daddy," I threw back with a vengeance.
Jasper just laughed. A genuine, highly amused laugh with his eyes warming up and all.
"You're too cute," he said as he put the glasses away and then proceeded to lie down on the bed on his back with his hands behind his head, looking up at the ceiling.
I gazed at him with uncertain eyes, wishing Cole was here. I couldn't do this. My heart was beating so hard and my hormones were starting to go all haywire again. I felt like crying. How could you, Cole? What do you want from me?
Was this some sort of test? Did he suspect that I had feelings for Jasper and maybe wanted to test my loyalty or something? If that was the case, I was going to fail. Miserably.
I wanted Jasper too much but that did not mean I didn't love my boyfriend.
Was I supposed to sit here all night? I couldn't sleep with Jasper. Obviously.
"Your thoughts are so damned loud," Jasper complained, still looking at the ceiling.
"Shut up, Jasper."
He sighed and glanced over at me. "Come here," he invited huskily.
I stared at him. "Are you fucking insane?" I hissed. "You know we can't actually share the same bed, right?"
"We did once."
I rolled my eyes. "Cole was there too."
Jasper smiled at me, looking sleepy and sexy. Was he drunk now? "It was kind of nice, though. Right?"
I huddled further into myself. Yes. It had been. I had loved spending the night knowing both of them were in bed with me. Cole snuggled with me whereas Jasper slept next to Cole. Their presence, their breathing had calmed me after my ordeal that day.
"I never did say thank you to you about that day," I admitted in a soft voice. "Jasper, what you did-"
"You'd do the same for me," he interrupted and grinned.
I could not help but smile at his attempt at humour.
"I suppose I would. Who would try to rape you, though? I mean, look at you."
He frowned at me, his expression affronted. "What do you mean? I'm God's gift to women and men, Skye."
I snorted. "I just meant you're...big. And kind of dangerous looking."
"Dangerously handsome, you mean," he responded arrogantly, making me giggle like a schoolgirl.
A beat of silence followed. I sighed and settled deeper in the sofa.
"I missed you," I told him softly. "I missed this."
He looked at me thoughtfully for some time. Then he grimaced and turned his back on me abruptly.
"What the fuck is Cole playing at?" he growled into the mattress. "I'm going to redden his ass for this."
His words sent a thrilling sensation throughout my body. "You...you'll spank him?" I asked. "Like a punishment?"
Jasper did not answer me at first and then his shoulders started shaking with laughter.
"God, Madison, you're really into this Daddy shit, aren't you? Get your mind off those dirty fantasies. I'm not into the whole dominant submissive thing. Cole and I...we just wing it. We do what feels good and sometimes it's fun, other times really intense. We don't have a label for our sex life or relationship."
"Oh." I furrowed my brow in thought. "But he said you pounded his ass when he pissed you off too much so I just thought..."
Jasper sat up and looked at me curiously. "How many lovers have you had?"
Suspicion tickled through me at his question. "What's that got to do with anything?"
He shook his head slightly, still with that curious expression. "No. I don't mean to be rude or anything. Just tell me. How many?"
I shifted uncomfortably on the couch. "Um...two," I offered hesitantly.
He raised his eyebrows. "Alright. So...did you ever have angry sex with your ex because I know Cole would never have sex when he's mad. His method of dealing with anger equals no sex. Unlike mine."
I shrugged. "I...it was just one time with my ex. When...when I...lost my virginity," I confessed in a whisper.
He stared at me. "You're kidding me, right?"
I grew indignant at his words. "Cole is extremely good in bed, as you very well know," I declared. "He more than makes up for what I have lacked all these years."
Jasper licked his lips and conceded my point with a nod. "I know, sweetheart but Cole is...well, you two are so much alike. There's more to sex than just sweet lovemaking. The thing is, Cole gets that extra push from me to be more...adventurous. Dirty. But...you're too sweet to ask for more," he told me frankly.
God, I needed a drink. Unfortunately, I knew exactly what he meant. Cole was amazing. He never failed to satisfy me and the sex was great. But it was all a little too sweet. Cole never got mad at me. He never treated me like a bad girl. He talked dirty and was into some occasional role playing but even then it was always moderated because I felt like he was too worried that I would break or something if he got too rough. And I did not have enough experience to push my boundaries. I liked what he did and refrained from asking for anything more. Jasper had a point but there was nothing I could do about it.
"Sex isn't everything, you know," I said because there was nothing else to say.
Jasper slowly laid back down on the bed. "I started to have fantasies about the three of us," he informed me calmly. "Right after the night you first shared our bed. Whenever Cole and I got it on, I started to wish you were there too. I had
