Candida

strung to the highest tension, does not move a muscle. Morell In a suffocated voice⁠—the appeal bursting from the depths of his anguish. Candida! Marchbanks Aside, in a flash of contempt. Coward! Candida Significantly. I give myself to the weaker of the two. Eugene divines her meaning at once: his face whitens like steel in a furnace that cannot melt it. Morell Bowing his head with the calm of collapse. I accept your sentence, Candida. Candida Do you understand, Eugene? Marchbanks Oh, I feel I’m lost. He cannot bear the burden. Morell Incredulously, raising his head with prosaic abruptness. Do you mean me, Candida? Candida Smiling a little. Let us sit and talk comfortably over it like three friends. To Morell. Sit down, dear. Morell takes the chair from the fireside⁠—the children’s chair. Bring me that chair, Eugene. She indicates the easy chair. He fetches it silently, even with something like cold strength, and places it next Morell, a little behind him. She sits down. He goes to the sofa and sits there, still silent and inscrutable. When they are all settled she begins, throwing a spell of quietness on them by her calm, sane, tender tone. You remember what you told me about yourself, Eugene: how nobody has cared for you since your old nurse died: how those clever, fashionable sisters and successful brothers of yours were your mother’s and father’s pets: how miserable you were at Eton: how your father is trying to starve you into returning to Oxford: how you have had to live without comfort or welcome or refuge, always lonely, and nearly always disliked and misunderstood, poor boy! Marchbanks Faithful to the nobility of his lot. I had my books. I had Nature. And at last I met you. Candida Never mind that just at present. Now I want you to look at this other boy here⁠—my boy⁠—spoiled from his cradle. We go once a fortnight to see his parents. You should come with us, Eugene, and see the pictures of the hero of that household. James as a baby! the most wonderful of all babies. James holding his first school prize, won at the ripe age of eight! James as the captain of his eleven! James in his first frock coat! James under all sorts of glorious circumstances! You know how strong he is (I hope he didn’t hurt you)⁠—how clever he is⁠—how happy! With deepening gravity. Ask James’s mother and his three sisters what it cost to save James the trouble of doing anything but be strong and clever and happy. Ask me what it costs to be James’s mother and three sisters and wife and mother to his children all in one. Ask Prossy and Maria how troublesome the house is even when we have no visitors to help us to slice the onions. Ask the tradesmen who want to worry James and spoil his beautiful sermons who it is that puts them off. When there is money to give, he gives it: when there is money to refuse, I refuse it. I build a castle of comfort and indulgence and love for him, and stand sentinel always to keep little vulgar cares out. I make him master here, though he does not know it, and could not tell you a moment ago how it came to be so. With sweet irony. And when he thought I might go away with you, his only anxiety was what should become of me! And to tempt me to stay he offered me leaning forward to stroke his hair caressingly at each phrase his strength for my defence, his industry for my livelihood, his position for my dignity, his⁠—Relenting. Ah, I am mixing up your beautiful sentences and spoiling them, am I not, darling? She lays her cheek fondly against his. Morell Quite overcome, kneeling beside her chair and embracing her with boyish ingenuousness. It’s all true, every word. What I am you have made me with the labor of your hands and the love of your heart! You are my wife, my mother, my sisters: you are the sum of all loving care to me. Candida In his arms, smiling, to Eugene. Am I your mother and sisters to you, Eugene? Marchbanks Rising with a fierce gesture of disgust. Ah, never. Out, then, into the night with me! Candida Rising quickly and intercepting him. You are not going like that, Eugene? Marchbanks With the ring of a man’s voice⁠—no longer a boy’s⁠—in the words. I know the hour when it strikes. I am impatient to do what must be done. Morell Rising from his knee, alarmed. Candida: don’t let him do anything rash. Candida Confident, smiling at Eugene. Oh, there is no fear. He has learnt to live without happiness. Marchbanks I no longer desire happiness: life is nobler than that. Parson James: I give you my happiness with both hands: I love you because you have filled the heart of the woman I loved. Goodbye. He goes towards the door. Candida One last word. He stops, but without turning to her. How old are you, Eugene? Marchbanks As old as the world now. This morning I was eighteen. Candida Going to him, and standing behind him with one hand caressingly on his shoulder. Eighteen! Will you, for my sake, make a little poem out of the two sentences I am going to say to you? And will you promise to repeat it to yourself whenever you think of me? Marchbanks Without moving. Say the sentences. Candida When I am thirty, she will be forty-five. When I am sixty, she will be seventy-five. Marchbanks Turning to her. In a hundred years, we shall be the same age. But I have a better secret than that in my heart. Let me go now. The night outside grows impatient. Candida Goodbye. She takes his face in her hands; and as he divines her intention and bends his