David Harum

old man wa’n’t cuffin’ my ears he was lickin’ me with a rawhide or a strap. Fur ’s that was concerned, all his boys used to ketch it putty reg’lar till they got too big. One on ’em up an’ licked him one night, an’ lit out next day. I s’pose the old man’s disposition was sp’iled by what some feller said farmin’ was, ‘workin’ all day, an’ doin’ chores all night,’ an’ larrupin’ me an’ all the rest on us was about all the enjoyment he got. My brothers an’ sisters⁠—‘ceptin’ of Polly⁠—was putty nigh as bad in respect of cuffs an’ suchlike; an’ my step-marm was, on the hull, the wust of all. She hadn’t no childern o’ her own, an’ it appeared ’s if I was jest pizen to her. ’T wa’n’t so much slappin’ an’ cuffin’ with her as ’twas tongue. She c’d say things that ’d jest raise a blister like pizen ivy. I s’pose I was about as ord’nary, no-account-lookin’, redheaded, freckled little cuss as you ever see, an’ slinkin’ in my manners. The air of our home circle wa’n’t cal’lated to raise heroes in.

“I got three four years’ schoolin’, an’ made out to read an’ write an’ cipher up to long division ’fore I got through, but after I got to be six year old, school or no school, I had to work reg’lar at anything I had strength fer, an’ more too. Chores before school an’ after school, an’ a two-mile walk to git there. As fur ’s clo’es was concerned, any old thing that ’d hang together was good enough fer me; but by the time the older boys had outgrowed their duds, an’ they was passed on to me, the’ wa’n’t much left on ’em. A pair of old cowhide boots that leaked in more snow an’ water ’n they kept out, an’ a couple pairs of woolen socks that was putty much all darns, was expected to see me through the winter, an’ I went barefoot f’m the time the snow was off the ground till it flew agin in the fall. The’ wa’n’t but two seasons o’ the year with me⁠—them of chilblains an’ stun-bruises.”

The speaker paused and stared for a moment into the comfortable glow of the fire, and then discovering to his apparent surprise that his cigar had gone out, lighted it from a coal picked out with the tongs.

“Farmin’ ’s a hard life,” remarked Mrs. Cullom with an air of being expected to make some contribution to the conversation.

“An’ yit, as it seems to me as I look back on’t,” David resumed pensively, “the wust on’t was that nobody ever gin me a kind word, ’cept Polly. I s’pose I got kind o’ used to bein’ cold an’ tired; dressin’ in a snowdrift where it blowed into the attic, an’ goin’ out to fodder cattle ’fore sunup; pickin’ up stun in the blazin’ sun, an’ doin’ all the odd jobs my father set me to, an’ the older ones shirked onto me. That was the reg’lar order o’ things; but I remember I never did git used to never pleasin’ nobody. ’Course I didn’t expect nothin’ f’m my step-marm, an’ the only way I ever knowed I’d done my stent fur ’s father was concerned, was that he didn’t say nothin’. But sometimes the older ones ’d git settin’ ’round, talkin’ an’ laughin’, havin’ popcorn an’ apples, an’ that, an’ I’d kind o’ sidle up, wantin’ to join ’em, an’ some on ’em ’d say, ‘What you doin’ here? time you was in bed,’ an’ give me a shove or a cuff. Yes, ma’am,” looking up at Mrs. Cullom, “the wust on’t was that I was kind o’ scairt the hull time. Once in a while Polly ’d give me a mossel o’ comfort, but Polly wa’n’t but little older ’n me, an’ bein’ the youngest girl, was chored most to death herself.”

It had stopped snowing, and though the wind still came in gusty blasts, whirling the drift against the windows, a wintry gleam of sunshine came in and touched the widow’s wrinkled face.

“It’s amazin’ how much trouble an’ sorrer the’ is in the world, an’ how soon it begins,” she remarked, moving a little to avoid the sunlight. “I hain’t never ben able to reconcile how many good things the’ be, an’ how little most on us gits o’ them. I hain’t ben to meetin’ fer a long spell ’cause I hain’t had no fit clo’es, but I remember most of the preachin’ I’ve set under either dwelt on the wrath to come, or else on the Lord’s doin’ all things well, an’ providin’. I hope I ain’t no wickeder ’n than the gen’ral run, but it’s putty hard to hev faith in the Lord’s providin’ when you hain’t got nothin’ in the house but corn meal, an’ none too much o’ that.”

“That’s so, Mis’ Cullom, that’s so,” affirmed David. “I don’t blame ye a mite. ‘Doubts assail, an’ oft prevail,’ as the hymnbook says, an’ I reckon it’s a sight easier to have faith on meat an’ potatoes ’n it is on corn meal mush. Wa’al, as I was sayin’⁠—I hope I ain’t tirin’ ye with my goin’s on?”

“No,” said Mrs. Cullom, “I’m engaged to hear ye, but nobody ’d suppose to see ye now that ye was such a f’lorn little critter as you make out.”

“It’s jest as I’m tellin’ ye, an’ more also, as the Bible says,” returned David, and then, rather more impressively, as if he were leading up to his conclusion, “it come along to a time when I was ’twixt thirteen an’ fourteen. The’ was a cirkis billed to show down here in Homeville, an’ ev’ry barn an’ shed fer miles around had pictures stuck onto ’em of el’phants, an’ rhinoceroses, an’ ev’ry animul that went into the ark; an’ girls ridin’ bareback an’ jumpin’ through hoops, an’ fellers ridin’ bareback an’ turnin’ summersets, an’ doin’ turnovers on