He Knew He Was Right

her by the hand and putting his arm round her waist. And then had he not even attempted to kiss her? He had done all this, although she had been resolute in refusing to speak to him one word of kindness⁠—though she had told him with all the energy and certainty of which she was mistress, that she would never be his wife. If a girl were to be subjected to such treatment as this when she herself had been so firm, so discreet, so decided, then indeed it would be unfit that a girl should trust herself with a man. She had never thought that he had been such a one as that, to ill-use her, to lay a hand on her in violence, to refuse to take an answer. She threw herself on the bed and sobbed, and then hid her face⁠—and was conscious that in spite of this acting before herself she was the happiest girl alive. He had behaved very badly;⁠—of course, he had behaved most wickedly, and she would tell him so some day. But was he not the dearest fellow living? Did ever man speak with more absolute conviction of love in every tone of his voice? Was it not the finest, noblest heart that ever throbbed beneath a waistcoat? Had not his very wickedness come from the overpowering truth of his affection for her? She would never quite forgive him because it had been so very wrong; but she would be true to him forever and ever. Of course they could not marry. What!⁠—would she go to him and be a clog round his neck, and a weight upon him forever, bringing him down to the gutter by the burden of her own useless and unworthy self? No. She would never so injure him. She would not even hamper him by an engagement. But yet she would be true to him. She had an idea that in spite of all her protestations⁠—which, as she looked back upon them, appeared to her to have been louder than they had been⁠—that through the teeth of her denials, something of the truth had escaped from her. Well⁠—let it be so. It was the truth, and why should he not know it? Then she pictured to herself a long romance, in which the heroine lived happily on the simple knowledge that she had been beloved. And the reader may be sure that in this romance Mr. Glascock with his splendid prospects filled one of the characters.

She had been so wretched at Nuncombe Putney when she had felt herself constrained to admit to herself that this man for whom she had sacrificed herself did not care for her, that she could not now but enjoy her triumph. After she had sobbed upon the bed, she got up and walked about the room smiling; and she would now press her hands to her forehead, and then shake her tresses, and then clasp her own left hand with her right, as though he were still holding it. Wicked man! Why had he been so wicked and so violent? And why, why, why had she not once felt his lips upon her brow?

And she was pleased with herself. Her sister had rebuked her because she had refused to make her fortune by marrying Mr. Glascock; and, to own the truth, she had rebuked herself on the same score when she found that Hugh Stanbury had not had a word of love to say to her. It was not that she regretted the grandeur which she had lost, but that she should, even within her own thoughts, with the consciousness of her own bosom, have declared herself unable to receive another man’s devotion because of her love for this man who neglected her. Now she was proud of herself. Whether it might be accounted as good or ill-fortune that she had ever seen Hugh Stanbury, it must at any rate be right that she should be true to him now that she had seen him and had loved him. To know that she loved and that she was not loved again had nearly killed her. But such was not her lot. She too had been successful with her quarry, and had struck her game, and brought down her dear. He had been very violent with her, but his violence had at least made the matter clear. He did love her. She would be satisfied with that, and would endeavour so to live that that alone should make life happy for her. How should she get his photograph⁠—and a lock of his hair?⁠—and when again might she have the pleasure of placing her own hand within his great, rough, violent grasp? Then she kissed the hand which he had held, and opened the door of her room, at which her sister was now knocking.

“Nora, dear, will you not come down?”

“Not yet, Emily. Very soon I will.”

“And what has happened, dearest?”

“There is nothing to tell, Emily.”

“There must be something to tell. What did he say to you?”

“Of course you know what he said.”

“And what answer did you make?”

“I told him that it could not be.”

“And did he take that⁠—as final, Nora?”

“Of course not. What man ever takes a No as final?”

“When you said No to Mr. Glascock he took it.”

“That was different, Emily.”

“But how different? I don’t see the difference, except that if you could have brought yourself to like Mr. Glascock, it would have been the greatest thing in the world for you, and for all of them.”

“Would you have me take a man, Emily, that I didn’t care one straw for, merely because he was a lord? You can’t mean that.”

“I’m not talking about Mr. Glascock now, Nora.”

“Yes, you are. And what’s the use? He is gone, and there’s an end of it.”

“And is Mr. Stanbury gone?”

“Of course.”

“In the same way?” asked Mrs. Trevelyan.

“How can I tell about his ways? No; it is not in the same way. There! He went in