Hester

himself when these moments arrived, and though there were eyes keen enough to see that something had produced a change in him, they were, as has been seen in Catherine’s case, deceived as to the cause of his perturbation. Hester did not have so many opportunities of studying him, and she had no clue to the business complications in which he was involved; but she had many thoughts on her own mind as to the reason of all the commotion which she saw vaguely, without understanding it. Some of the members of the general society, strangers who sometimes perceive a departure from habit which does not strike the most intimate, had said of Edward on more than one occasion, that he must be in love. Was he in love? Hester had felt that a look was directed to herself when this was said, and that a suppressed laugh had run round the little group. She was herself agitated by tumults which she could not understand, commotions in which Edward was certainly involved, and his name thus mentioned brought the blood to her cheek. Was he in love? She did not want to turn the question upon herself, to bring the matter to any conclusion, one way or another. He was very pale that evening, yet would flush, as she herself did, growing red in a moment and then pale again; and there was a watchful air about him as of a man who expected to hear something or see someone whom nobody else looked for. A man who was in love did not behave so. He was absorbed in the being whom he loved. He is not absorbed in me, the girl said to herself involuntarily, then blushed, as if her thought had been found out. Edward came up to her at this moment, which made her confusion the greater.

“Why do you change colour so? What is the matter?” he said to her.

“It is you who are changing colour,” said Hester, not knowing how else to defend herself.

Instead of contradicting her, or throwing off the accusation, he suddenly took her hand and drew it through his arm.

“It is true,” he said. “I have something on my mind. You were going to dance this waltz with me. Come into the hall, it is cool there, and let us talk instead?”

Every inch of available space in the house was given up to the accommodation of the guests, and the hall was filled, like the conservatory, with plants, among which little groups of two could find corners. Edward established Hester in one of these, and placed a chair for himself, so as to cut her off from everybody.

“You are the only one that can understand,” he said. “I can speak to you. Don’t mind me if I look like a fool. I am too anxious to talk.”

“What is it?” she said, with a tremour of sympathetic anxiety.

“It is only business,” he said, “but it is business so unexpected that even beside you I am obliged to think of it. Can a man say more than that?” he asked with something in his eyes which Hester had never seen there so distinctly before, and which silenced her. One great emotion clears the way for another. Edward in the commotion of his being was almost ready to rush into words that, being said, would have turned his life upside down, and shattered all his present foundations. He was saved by an incident which was of the most ordinary commonplace kind. There came a violent ring at the door which was within half a dozen steps of the spot where they sat. Half a dozen heads immediately protruded from among the little banks of foliage to see what this odd interruption could mean, for all the guests had arrived, and it was not late enough for anyone to go away. Hester saw that all the colour ebbed immediately out of Edward’s face. He did not even attempt to say a word to her, but sat perfectly still, slightly turned towards the door, but not looking out, awaiting whatever might come. It seemed to Hester that never in her life had she so understood the power of fate, the moment when Nature and life seem to stand still before some event. A minute after, the footman came up and handed a telegram to Edward. He tore it open with trembling hands. The next moment he jumped up from his seat with a suppressed cry of triumph. “Hurrah!” he said, and then with a laugh which was very unsteady held out the despatch to her. All that it contained were the words “All right.” But somehow it was not to these words that Hester’s eyes confined themselves. “From Ashton, London⁠—” she said without knowing that she did so, before he thrust the pink paper into his pocket. “Come along,” he said, “the waltz is not half over. We shall be in time yet.” And for the rest of the evening Edward was in wild spirits, dancing every dance. He even asked the girls to take him with them in their fly as far as the Grange in his reckless exhilaration, and as he got out in the darkness, Hester felt a kiss upon her hand. This startled her still more than the telegram. “Till tomorrow,” he said as they rumbled away.

“What does he mean by till tomorrow? He must be coming to make you an offer tomorrow⁠—that is how they do. It often happens after a dance⁠—when it is going to happen,” Emma said in the darkness, with a little sigh.

XXVIII

Was It Love?

Was he in love? That this was a question very interesting to Hester there can be no reason to conceal. She did not even conceal it from herself, nor did she trifle with herself by pretending to suppose that if he were in love it could be with anyone else. There was no one else who had ever appeared