XVI
Captain Willoughby Retires
Ethne had entirely forgotten even Colonel Durrance’s existence. From the moment when Captain Willoughby had put that little soiled feather which had once been white, and was now yellow, into her hand, she had had no thought for anyone but Harry Feversham. She had carried Willoughby into that enclosure, and his story had absorbed her and kept her memory on the rack, as she filled out with this or that recollected detail of Harry’s gestures, or voice, or looks, the deficiencies in her companion’s narrative. She had been swept away from that August garden of sunlight and coloured flowers; and those five most weary years, during which she had held her head high and greeted the world with a smile of courage, were blotted from her experience. How weary they had been perhaps she never knew, until she raised her head and saw Durrance at the entrance in the hedge.
“Hush!” she said to Willoughby, and her face paled and her eyes shut tight for a moment with a spasm of pain. But she had no time to spare for any indulgence of her feelings. Her few minutes’ talk with Captain Willoughby had been a holiday, but the holiday was over. She must take up again the responsibilities with which those five years had charged her, and at once. If she could not accomplish that hard task of forgetting—and she now knew very well that she never would accomplish it—she must do the next best thing, and give no sign that she had not forgotten. Durrance must continue to believe that she brought more than friendship into the marriage account.
He stood at the very entrance to the enclosure; he advanced into it. He was so quick to guess, it was not wise that he should meet Captain Willoughby or even know of his coming. Ethne looked about her for an escape, knowing very well that she would look in vain. The creek was in front of them, and three walls of high thick hedge girt them in behind and at the sides. There was but one entrance to this enclosure, and Durrance himself barred the path to it.
“Keep still,” she said in a whisper. “You know him?”
“Of course. We were together for three years at Suakin. I heard that he had gone blind. I am glad to know that it is not true.” This he said, noticing the freedom of Durrance’s gait.
“Speak lower,” returned Ethne. “It is true. He is blind.”
“One would never have thought it. Consolations seem so futile. What can I say to him?”
“Say nothing!”
Durrance was still standing just within the enclosure, and, as it seemed, looking straight towards the two people seated on the bench.
“Ethne,” he said, rather than called; and the quiet unquestioning voice made the illusion that he saw extraordinarily complete.
“It’s impossible that he is blind,” said Willoughby. “He sees us.”
“He sees nothing.”
Again Durrance called “Ethne,” but now in a louder voice, and a voice of doubt.
“Do you hear? He is not sure,” whispered Ethne. “Keep very still.”
“Why?”
“He must not know you are here,” and lest Willoughby should move, she caught his arm tight in her hand. Willoughby did not pursue his inquiries. Ethne’s manner constrained him to silence. She sat very still, still as she wished him to sit, and in a queer huddled attitude; she was even holding her breath; she was staring at Durrance with a great fear in her eyes; her face was strained forward, and not a muscle of it moved, so that Willoughby, as he looked at her, was conscious of a certain excitement, which grew on him for no reason but her remarkable apprehension. He began unaccountably himself to fear lest he and she should be discovered.
“He is coming towards us,” he whispered.
“Not a word—not a movement.”
“Ethne,” Durrance cried again. He advanced farther into the enclosure and towards the seat. Ethne and Captain Willoughby sat rigid, watching him with their eyes. He passed in front of the bench, and stopped actually facing them. Surely, thought Willoughby, he sees. His eyes were upon them; he stood easily, as though he were about to speak. Even Ethne, though she very well knew that he did not see, began to doubt her knowledge.
“Ethne!” he said again, and this time in the quiet voice which he had first used. But since again no answer came, he shrugged his shoulders and turned towards the creek. His back was towards them now, but Ethne’s experience had taught her to appreciate almost indefinable signs in his bearing, since nowadays his face showed her so little. Something in his attitude, in the poise of his head, even in the carelessness with which he swung his stick, told her that he was listening, and listening with all his might. Her grasp tightened on Willoughby’s arm. Thus they remained for the space of a minute, and then Durrance turned suddenly and took a quick step towards the seat. Ethne, however, by this time knew the man and his ingenuities; she was prepared for some such unexpected movement. She did not stir, there was not audible the merest rustle of her skirt, and her grip still constrained Willoughby.
“I wonder where in the world she can be,” said Durrance to himself aloud, and he walked back and out of the enclosure. Ethne did not free Captain Willoughby’s arm until Durrance had disappeared from sight.
“That was a close shave,” Willoughby said, when at last he was allowed to speak. “Suppose that Durrance had sat down on the top of us?”
“Why suppose, since he did not?” Ethne asked calmly. “You have told me everything?”
“So far as I remember.”
“And all that you have told me happened in the spring?”
“The spring of last year,” said Willoughby.
“Yes. I want to ask you a question. Why did you not bring this feather to me last summer?”
“Last year my leave was short. I spent it in the hills north of Suakin after ibex.”
“I see,” said
