First Drop of Crimson

get away when she was covered in fur. How could he bear to touch her like this, let alone be in the same room with her? If she could avoid herself, she would.

“You don’t need to try to make this better, okay? Just please, Spade, leave me alone.”

“This isn’t about you,” he responded, tightening his arms around her when she would have squirmed away. “I need this. Right now, I need it more than I’ve ever needed anything, including blood.”

She didn’t say anything, torn between wanting to believe that and thinking he was lying just to make her feel better. And she did feel better in his arms. Oh, so much better! Like there was hope and reason in her world, instead of just the quicksand deterioration of both her body and her soul.

“You scruffed me.”

It came out without thought. Considering everything that had happened, that should have been the last thing on her mind.

Something brushed across her head that felt like his lips. “My apologies, darling.”

“How can you call me that?” Denise asked in a whisper. “If there was ever a good cause for breaking up with someone, turning into a four-legged creature is it.”

“I’m a vampire. My closest friends are vampires and ghouls, and there’s a ghost floating right outside this room. I’ve dealt with demons, black magic, wraiths, and zombies in the past two years alone, so I’m afraid your shape-shifting isn’t going to send me fleeing away in fear.”

Denise was silent for a moment. Then, “When you put it like that…you sound like a sicko.”

Laughter shook his chest. “I can accept that.”

Some of the crushing weight of her self-disgust lifted, but shame still swirled inside her. “Yeah, well, I’m a coward.”

Spade eased away until he could look at her, a frown creasing his face. “Why would you say that?”

She wanted to avoid his gaze, but that would be even more proof of her statement, so Denise looked right into his eyes as she spoke.

“Because even though part of me thinks it’s murder, I’m going to give Nathanial to Raum. Not just to save my family, but to save my own ass.”

“Of course we’re giving Nathanial to Raum,” Spade replied, waving a hand in dismissal. “You’re not offering up an innocent to settle your own debt. That would make you a coward, rather like Nathanial’s been, letting his descendants pay for him skipping out on Raum. Don’t tell me the sod didn’t know others would pay for it, either. You don’t renege on a deal with a demon and expect no consequences.”

Spade turned her around until she fully faced him, his eyes flashing with green highlights. “And even if you begged me not to, I would still see Nathanial delivered to Raum. You’re not a coward, Denise. You actually don’t have a choice.”

She was too emotionally wired to talk about Nathanial anymore. “I need to shower—and brush my teeth. Ugh, I’m never eating tuna or drinking milk again.”

“Fine by me, but you need to eat something else, and soon.”

Memory of Nathanial’s voice rang in her mind. Stress, pain, fear, hunger, horniness…all those things, if left to build, will trigger the change. Denise thought back to the times her hands had morphed. Nathanial was right; she’d been a combination of hungry, angry, horny, and stressed. Guess being stressed, hungry, then getting stabbed and seeing Spade’s reaction to it had blown through whatever defenses the tattoos had given her against Raum’s essence.

Well, she certainly never intended to repeat that set of circumstances. A shiver went through Denise, her hand sliding beneath the towel to again feel the reassuring smoothness of her stomach. No fur, no gushing wound. She intended to keep it that way.

Spade drew her to her feet, but didn’t leave. Denise cleared her throat, feeling her cheeks warm.

“Ah, could you give me some privacy? I need to use the litter box.”

His lips twitched at her bad pun, then he kissed her hand. “I’ll go find something for you to wear.”

“What happened to the clothes in my suitcase?”

“They’re at the bottom of the Mediterranean with the boat.”

Oh. She hadn’t remembered much of what happened right after leaving the boat, more preoccupied with terror over suddenly being an animal.

Denise gave Spade a wry smile. “Just put the sunken boat on my tab.” She might be girlfriend number ten- thousand-and-one to Spade, but so far, she’d probably proved to be the most expensive.

“Stop fretting about things like that. I’m not.” Spade kissed her other hand. “I’ll see you soon.”

He left, closing the door. Denise glanced at the dangling, useless handle and then her reflection. Any situation is better faced with an empty bladder and a clean body, she reminded herself. Oh, and a lack of tuna-vomit breath.

After Spade laid some clothes out on the bed for Denise—and threw away the remnants of milk and tuna— he found Crispin in the drawing room, sipping a whiskey and swirling the liquid around in silent contemplation.

“Where’s Nathanial?” Spade asked.

“In one of the new vampire holding cells in the basement. Best place for him. He’d have to shift into vapor to escape that, not that he has any intention of trying to run away.” Crispin set down his glass with a sardonic snort. “He thinks you’re his bloody hero.”

Spade sat across from him. “He said that? Or you heard it in his thoughts?”

“His thoughts,” Crispin replied. “Bloke reckons you stole him away from Web to get his help in controlling the demon essence in Denise. He has no idea he’s to be exchanged for the removal of that essence.”

Spade digested that without a hint of sympathy. He’d do far worse than sacrifice one unworthy sod who’d signed away his own fate to save Denise from the destructiveness of those brands.

“We need to keep him away from Denise as much as possible. She’s already begun to feel guilty over the matter.”

“Agreed. When do you intend to summon the demon?”

Spade’s mouth twisted. “Like to do it straightaway, except there’s the small matter of my not knowing how to kill Raum. I don’t fancy trusting the demon at his word that he’ll release Denise instead of simply killing her, once he has Nathanial back.”

Crispin gave him a shrewd look. “Your lad in the basement might prove useful for that. If he thinks you mean to destroy Raum, I wager he’d be more than forthcoming with any information he has to assist that.”

Spade would wager that, too, but he had no intention of destroying Raum unless it was a last resort. He wanted the brands off Denise. Not to kill Raum on sight, dooming her to forever carrying the demon’s marks.

“Cat’s sleeping?” he asked absently.

Crispin nodded. “Once she knew Denise was safely back, she couldn’t hold out any longer.”

Ian sauntered in, his turquoise gaze flicking over the two of them before he settled himself into a chair.

“Wretched unfair, it is,” he remarked. “Of the three of us, I’m the one who’s always collected the rare and unusual, yet you two managed to snag the world’s most unusual women. First you, Crispin, with the only living half-breed, who then turned into an even more unusual vampire. And now you, Charles, have bagged a shape- shifter. Thought you were joking when you said Denise was the kitty. I’m simply green with jealousy.”

“Denise won’t be a shape-shifter for long,” Spade said sharply. “And once she has those brands off, I don’t intend for her to remain human, either.”

Even as the words left his mouth, the hairs on Spade’s neck stood on end. Crispin’s expression turning grim only confirmed it. Slowly, Spade turned around to meet Denise’s shocked gaze.

“Bootleg and Lyceum were right. You really do expect me to turn into a vampire.” Her voice was incredulous. “Why would you think I’d do that?”

Bones and Ian left the room without a word. Denise barely noticed them, concentrating on Spade’s face, hoping he’d tell her she had misunderstood what he meant.

But he didn’t. Instead his expression darkened as he rose. “Why would I think you’d do that?” he repeated. “Why wouldn’t I, now that we’re together? You didn’t truly believe I’d be content to allow