'What do you and Henry need a secret code for?'
'It's not a secret.'
'Then why didn't you tell me?'
'Charles, don't be such a baby.'
Henry – wide awake, no explanations – met me at the door in his bathrobe. I followed him into the kitchen, and he poured me a cup of coffee and sat me down. 'Now,' he said, 'tell me what happened.'
I did. He sat across the table, smoking cigarette after cigarette with his dark blue eyes fastened on mine. He interrupted with questions only once or twice. Certain parts he asked me to repeat.
I was so tired that I rambled a bit, but he was patient with my digressions.
By the time I finished, the sun was up and the birds were singing. Spots were swimming in front of my eyes. A damp, cool breeze shifted in the curtains. Henry switched off the lamp and went to the stove and began, rather mechanically, to make some bacon and eggs. I watched him move around the dim, dawn-lit kitchen in his bare feet.
While we ate, I looked at him curiously. He was pale, and his eyes were tired and preoccupied, but there was nothing in his expression that gave me any indication what he might be thinking.
'Henry,' I said.
He started. It was the first time either of us had said a word for half an hour or more.
'What are you thinking about?'
'Nothing.'
'If you've still got the idea of poisoning him '
He glanced up with a quick flash of anger that surprised me.
'Don't be absurd,' he snapped. 'I wish you'd shut up a minute and let me think.'
I stared at him. Abruptly he stood up and went to pour himself some more coffee. For a moment he stood with his back to me, hands braced on the counter. Then he turned around.
'I'm sorry,' he said wearily. 'It's just not very pleasant to look back on something that one has put so much effort and thought into, only to realize it's completely ridiculous. Poisoned mushrooms.
The whole idea is like something from Sir Walter Scott.'
I was taken aback. 'But I thought it was kind of a good idea,'
I said.
He rubbed his eyes with his thumb and forefinger. 'Too good,' he said. 'I suppose that when anyone accustomed to working with the mind is faced with a straightforward action, there's a tendency to embellish, to make it overly clever. On paper there's a certain symmetry. Now that I'm faced with the prospect of executing it I realize how hideously complicated it is.'
'What's wrong?'
He adjusted his glasses. 'The poison is too slow.'
'I thought that's what you wanted.'
'There are half a dozen problems with it. Some of them you pointed out. Control of the dose is risky, but time, I think, is the real concern. From my standpoint the longer the better, but still… A person can do an awful lot of talking in twelve hours.' He was quiet for a moment. 'It's not as if I haven't seen this all along.
The idea of killing him is so repellent that I haven't been able to think of it as anything but a chess-problem. A game. You have no idea how much thought I've put into this. Even to the strain of poison. It's said to make the throat swell, do you know that? Victims are said to be struck dumb, unable to name their poisoner.' He sighed. 'Too easy to beguile myself with the Medicis, the Borgias, all those poisoned rings and roses… It's possible to do that, did you know? To poison a rose, then present it as a gift? The lady pricks her ringer, then falls dead. I know how to make a candle that will kill if burned in a closed room.
Or how to poison a pillow, or a prayer book I said: 'What about sleeping pills?'
He glanced at me, annoyed.
Tm serious. People die from them all the time.'
'Where are we going to get sleeping pills?'
'This is Hampden College. If we want sleeping pills, we can get them.'
We looked at each other.
'How would we give them?' he said.
'Tell him they're Tylenol.'
'And how do we get him to swallow nine or ten Tylenol?'
'We could break them open in a glass of whiskey.'
'You think Bunny is likely to drink a glass of whiskey with a lot of white powder at the bottom?'
'I think he's just as apt to do that as eat a dish of toadstools.'
There was a long silence, during which a bird trilled noisily outside the window. Henry closed his eyes for a long moment and rubbed his temple with his fingertips.
'What are you going to do?' I said.
'I think I'm going to go out and run a few errands,' he said. 'I want you to go home and go to sleep.'
'Do you have any ideas?'
'No. But there's something I want to look into. I'd drive you back to school, but I don't think it's a good idea for us to be seen together just now.' He began to fish in the pocket of his bathrobe, pulling out matches, pen nibs, his blue enamel pillbox. Finally he found a couple of quarters and laid them on the table. 'Here,' he said. 'Stop at the newsstand and buy a paper on your way home.'
'Why?'
'In case anyone should wonder why you're wandering around at this hour. I may have to talk to you tonight. If I don't find you in, I'll leave a message that a Doctor Springfield called. Don't try to get in touch with me before then, unless of course you have to.'
'Sure.'
'I'll see you later, then,' he said, starting out of the kitchen.
Then he turned in the door and looked at me. Till never forget this, you know,' he said matter-offactly.
'It's nothing.'
'It's everything and you know it.'
'You've done me a favor or two yourself,' I said, but he had already started out and didn't hear me. At any rate, he didn't answer.
I bought a newspaper at the little store down the street and walked back to school through the dank, verdant woods, off the main path, stepping over the boulders and rotting logs that occasionally blocked my way.
It was still early when I got to campus. I went in the back door of Monmouth and, pausing at the top of the stairs, I was startled to see the house chairperson and a flock of girls in housecoats, huddled around the broom closet and conversing in varying tones of shrill outrage. When I tried to brush past them, Judy Poovey, clad in a black kimono, grabbed my arm. 'Hey,' she said.
'Somebody puked in this broom closet.'
'It was one of those goddamned freshmen,' said a girl at my elbow. 'They get stinking drunk and come to the upper-class suites to barf.'
'Well, 1 don't know who did it,' the house chairperson said, 'but whoever it was, they had spaghetti for dinner.'
'Hmnn.'
'That means they're not on the meal ticket, then.'
I pushed through them to my room, locking the door behind me, and went, almost immediately, to sleep.
I slept all day, face down in the pillow, a comfortable dead-man's float only remotely disturbed by a chill undertow of reality talk, footsteps, slamming doors – which threaded fitfully through the dark, blood-warm waters of dream. Day ran into night, and still I slept, until finally the rush and rumble of a flushing toilet rolled me on my back and up from sleep.
The Saturday night party had already started, in Putnam House next door. That meant dinner was over, the snack bar was closed, and I'd slept at least fourteen hours. My house was deserted. I got up and shaved and took a hot bath. Then I put on my robe and, eating an apple I'd found in the house kitchen, walked downstairs in my bare feet to see if any messages had been left for me by the phone.
