'Detroit.'
'Bless your heart then. To come all this way.'
Sophie, smiling, shook her head and started to explain when, with absolutely no warning, Mr Corcoran flung his arms around her and burst into tears.
We were frozen with horror. Sophie's eyes, over his heaving shoulder, were round and aghast as if he'd run her through with a knife.
'Oh, darling,' he wailed, his face buried deep in her neck.
'Honey, how are we going to get along without him?'
'Come on, Mr Corcoran,' said Francis, tugging at his sleeve.
'We loved him a lot, honey,' sobbed Mr Corcoran. 'Didn't we? He loved you, too. He would have wanted you to know that. You know that, don't you, dear?'
'Mr Corcoran,' said Francis, grabbing him by the shoulders and shaking him hard. 'Mr Corcoran.'
He turned and fell back against Francis, bellowing.
I ran around to the other side and managed to get his arm around my neck. His knees sagged; he almost pulled me down but somehow, staggering beneath his weight, Francis and I got him to his feet and together we maneuvered him inside and I weaved down the hall with him ('Oh, shit,' I heard Sophie murmur, 'shit.') and got him into a chair.
He was still crying. His face was purple. When I reached down to loosen his collar he grabbed me by the wrist. 'Gone,' he wailed, looking me straight in the eye. 'My baby.'
His gaze – helpless, wild – hit me like a blackjack. Suddenly, and for the first time, really, I was struck by the bitter, irrevocable truth of it; the evil of what we had done. It was like running full speed into a brick wall. I let go his collar, feeling completely helpless. I wanted to die. 'Oh, God,' I mumbled, 'God help me, I'm sorry '
I felt a fierce kick in my anklebone. It was Francis. His face was as white as chalk.
A shaft of light splintered painfully in my vision. I clutched the back of the chair, closed my eyes and saw luminous red as the rhythmic noise of his sobs fell over and over again, like a bludgeon.
Then, very abruptly, they stopped. Everything was quiet. I opened my eyes. Mr Corcoran – leftover tears still rolling down his cheeks but his face otherwise composed – was looking with interest at a spaniel puppy who was gnawing furtively at the toe of his shoe.
'Jennie,' he said severely. 'Bad girl. Didn't Mama put you out?
Huh?'
With a cooing, baby noise, he reached down and scooped up the little dog – its feet paddling furiously in midair – and carried her out of the room.
'Now, go on,' I heard him say airily. 'Scat.'
A screen door creaked somewhere. In a moment he was back: calm now, beaming, a dad from an ad.
'Any of you kids care for a beer?' he said.
We were all agog. No one answered him. I stared at him, trembling, ashen-faced.
'Come on, guys,' he said, and winked. 'No takers?'
At last, Francis cleared his throat with a rasping sound. 'Ah, I believe I'd like one, yes.'
There was a silence.
The, too,' said Sophie.
Three?' said Mr Corcoran to me jovially, holding up three fingers.
I moved my mouth but no sound came out of it.
He put his head to the side, as if fixing me with his good eye.
'I don't think we've met, have we, son?'
I shook my head.
'Macdonald Corcoran,' he said, leaning forward to offer his hand. 'Call me Mack.'
I mumbled my own name.
'What's that?' he said brightly, hand to ear.
I said it again, louder this time.
'Ah! So you're the one from California! Where's your tan, son?' He laughed loudly at his joke and went to fetch the beers.
I sat down hard, exhausted and almost sick. We were in an overscaled, Architectural Digest sort of room, big and loft-like, with skylights and a fieldstone fireplace, chairs upholstered in white leather, kidney-shaped coffee table – modern, expensive, Italian stuff. Running along the back wall was a long glass trophy case filled with loving cups, ribbons, school and sports memorabilia; in ominous proximity were several large funeral wreaths which, in conjunction with the trophies, gave that corner of the room a Kentucky Derby sort of look.
'This is a beautiful space,' said Sophie. Her voice echoed amid the sharp surfaces and the polished floor.
'Why, thank you, honey,' Mr Corcoran said from the kitchen.
'We were in House Beautiful last year, and the Home section of the Times the year before that. Not quite what I'd pick myself, but Kathy's the decorator in the family, y'know.'
The doorbell rang. We looked at each other. Then it rang again, two melodious chimes, and Mrs Corcoran clicked through from the back of the house and past us without a word or a glance.
'Henry,' she called. 'Your guests are here.' Then she opened the front door. 'Hello,' she said to the delivery boy who was standing outside. 'Which one are you? Are you from Sunset Florists?'
'Yes, ma'am. Please sign.'
'Now wait just a minute. I called you people earlier. I want to know why you delivered all these wreaths here while I was out this morning.'
'I didn't deliver them. I just came on shift.'
'You're with Sunset Florists, aren't you?'
'Yes, ma'am.' I felt sorry for him. He was a teenager, with blotches of flesh-colored Clearasil scattered over his face.
'I asked specifically that only floral arrangements and house plants be sent here. These wreaths should all be down at the funeral home.'
Tm sorry, lady. If you want to call the manager or something '
Tm afraid you don't understand. I don't want these wreaths in my house. I want you to pack them right back up in your truck and take them to the funeral home. And don't try to give me that one, either,' she said as he held up a gaudy wreath of red and yellow carnations. 'Just tell me who it's from.'
The boy squinted at his clipboard. ' 'With sympathy, Mr and Mrs Robert Bartle.''
'Ah!' said Mr Corcoran, who had come back with the beers; he had them all clasped together in his hands, very clumsily, without a tray. 'That from Betty and Bob?'
Mrs Corcoran ignored him. 'I guess you can go ahead and bring in those ferns,' she said to the delivery boy, eyeing the foil-wrapped pots with loathing.
After he had gone Mrs Corcoran began to inspect the ferns, lifting up the fronds to check for dead foliage, making notes on the backs of the envelopes with a tiny silver screw-point pencil..» To her husband she said: 'Did you see that wreath the Bartles ' sent?'
'Wasn't that nice of them.'
'No, in fact I don't think it appropriate for an employee to send something like that. I wonder, is Bob thinking about asking you for a raise?'
'Now, hon.'
'I can't believe these plants, either,' she said, jabbing a forefinger into the soil. 'This African violet is almost dead. Louise would be humiliated if she knew.'
'It's the thought that counts.'
'I know, but still, if I've learned one thing from this it is never to order flowers from Sunset Florists again. All the things from Tina's Flowerland are so much nicer. Francis,' she said, in the same bored tone and without looking up. 'You haven't been to see us since last Easter.'
Francis took a sip of his beer. 'Oh, I've been fine,' he said stagily. 'How are you?'
She sighed and shook her head. 'It's been terribly hard,' she said. 'We're all trying to take things one day at a time. I never realized before how very difficult it can be for a parent to just let go and… Henry, is that you?' she said sharply at the sound of some scuffling on the landing.
