Coughing, crying, babbling, the soldiers were lying or sitting all around Gesler, who stood, trying to make a count – the names, the faces, exhaustion blurred them all together. He saw Shard, with his sister, Sinn, wrapped all around him like a babe, fast asleep, and there was something like shock in the corporal's staring, unseeing eyes. Tulip was nearby – his body was torn, shredded everywhere, but he'd dragged himself through without complaint and now sat on a stone, silent and bleeding.
Crump crouched near the cliff-side, using rocks to pry loose a slab of melted gold and lead, a stupid grin on his ugly, overlong face. And Smiles, surrounded by children – she looked miserable with all the attention, and Gesler saw her staring up at the night sky again and again, and again, and that gesture he well understood.
Bottle had pulled them through. With his rat. Y'Ghatan. The sergeant shook his head. Well, why not? We're all rat-worshippers right now.
Oh, right, the roll call… Sergeant Cord, with Ebron, Limp and his broken leg. Sergeant Hellian, her jaw swollen in two places, one eye closed up, and blood matting her hair, just now coming round – under the tender ministrations of her corporal, Urb, Tarr, Koryk, Smiles and Cuttle. Tavos Pond, Balgrid, Mayfly, Flashwit, Saltlick, Hanno, Shortnose and Masan Gilani. Bellig Harn, Maybe, Brethless and Touchy.
Deadsmell, Galt, Sands and Lobe. The sergeants Thom Tissy and Balm.
Widdershins, Uru Hela, Ramp, Scant and Reem. Throatslitter… Gesler's gaze swung back to Tarr, Koryk, Smiles and Cuttle.
Hood's breath.
'Captain! We've lost two!'
Every head turned.
Corporal Tarr shot to his feet, then staggered like a drunk, spinning to face the cliff-wall.
Balm hissed, 'Fiddler… and that prisoner! The bastard's killed him and he's hiding back in there! Waiting for us to leave!'
Corabb had dragged the dying man as far as he could, and now both he and the Malazan were done. Crammed tight in a narrowing of the tunnel, the darkness devouring them, and Corabb was not even sure he was going in the right direction. Had they been turned round? He could hear nothing… no-one. All that dragging, and pushing… they'd turned round, he was sure of it.
No matter, they weren't going anywhere.
Never again. Two skeletons buried beneath a dead city. No more fitting a barrow for a warrior of the Apocalypse and a Malazan soldier. That seemed just, poetic even. He would not complain, and when he stood at this sergeant's side at Hood's Gate, he would be proud for the company.
So much had changed inside him. He was no believer in causes, not any more. Certainty was an illusion, a lie. Fanaticism was poison in the soul, and the first victim in its inexorable, ever-growing list was compassion. Who could speak of freedom, when one's own soul was bound in chains?
He thought, now, finally, that he understood Toblakai.
And it was all too late. This grand revelation. Thus, I die a wise man, not a fool. Is there any difference? I still die, after all.
No, there is. I can feel it. That difference – I have cast off my chains. I have cast them off!
A low cough, then, 'Corabb?'
'I am here, Malazan.'
'Where? Where is that?'
'In our tomb, alas. I am sorry, all strength has fled. I am betrayed by my own body. I am sorry.'
Silence for a moment, then a soft laugh. 'No matter. I've been unconscious – you should have left me – where are the others?'
'I don't know. I was dragging you. We were left behind. And now, we're lost, and that's that. I am sorry-'
'Enough of that, Corabb. You dragged me? That explains all the bruises. For how long? How far?'
'I do not know. A day, maybe. There was warm air, but then it was cool – it seemed to breathe in and out, past us, but which breath was in and which was out? I do not know. And now, there is no wind.'
'A day? Are you mad? Why did you not leave me?'
'Had I done so, Malazan, your friends would have killed me.'
'Ah, there is that. But, you know, I don't believe you.'
'You are right. It is simple. I could not.'
'All right, that will do.'
Corabb closed his eyes – the effort making no difference. He was probably blind by now. He had heard that prisoners left too long without light in their dungeon cells went blind. Blind before mad, but mad, too, eventually.
And now he heard sounds, drawing nearer… from somewhere. He'd heard them before, a half-dozen times at least, and for a short while there had been faint shouting. Maybe that had been real. The demons of panic come to take the others, one by one. 'Sergeant, are you named Strings or Fiddler?'
'Strings for when I'm lying, Fiddler for when I'm telling the truth.'
'Ah, is that a Malazan trait, then? Strange-'
'No, not a trait. Mine, maybe.'
'And how should I name you?'
'Fiddler.'
'Very well.' A welcome gift. 'Fiddler. I was thinking. Here I am, trapped. And yet, it is only now, I think, that I have finally escaped my prison. Funny, isn't it?'
'Damned hilarious, Corabb Bhilan Thenu'alas. What is that sound?'
'You hear it, too?' Corabb held his breath, listened. Drawing closerThen something touched his forehead.
Bellowing, Corabb tried to twist away.
'Wait! Damn you, I said wait!'
Fiddler called out, 'Gesler?'
'Aye, calm down your damned friend here, will you?'
Heart pounding, Corabb settled back. 'We were lost, Malazan. I am sorry-'
'Be quiet! Listen to me. You're only about seventy paces from a tunnel, leading out – we're all out, you understand me? Bottle got us out. His rat brought us through. There was a rock fall blocking you up ahead – I've dug through-'
'You crawled back in?' Fiddler demanded. 'Gesler-'
'Believe me, it was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. Now I know – or I think I know – what Truth went through, running into that palace. Abyss take me, I'm still shaking.'
'Lead us on, then,' Corabb said, reaching back to grasp Fiddler's harness once more.
Gesler made to move past him. 'I can do that-'
'No. I have dragged him this far.'
'Fid?'
'For Hood's sake, Gesler, I've never been in better hands.'
Chapter Eight
Sarkanos, Ivindonos and Ganath stood looking down on the heaped corpses, the strewn pieces of flesh and fragments of bone. A field of battle knows only lost dreams and the ghosts clutch futilely at the ground, remembering naught but the last place of their lives, and the air is sullen now that the clangour is past, and the last moans of the dying have dwindled into silence.
While this did not belong to them, they yet stood. Of Jaghut, one can never know their thoughts, nor even their
